Fiction: In Search of Hope

Looking for hope

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Two small rivers meet outside the village, and then, slowly, flow forward.

The village is distributed at the confluence, on both sides of the small river. People's houses, some by the mountains, some by the river, each holding the terrain, scattered together, seemingly chaotic, but there is a natural atmosphere.

People's houses are all black tiles, earthen walls. There is a yard in front of the door, next to the yard, next to the house, there are fruit trees. Spring flowers and bears secondary fruit.

Families feed pigs, chickens, dogs.

Surrounding the village, there are fields, and the fields are bumpy and irregular, and when they are put together, they are natural landscapes.

Although it is a sandy and gravel land, it grows corn, potatoes, soybeans, and wheat, nourishing the villagers.

The small river water, clear, sometimes gentle, sometimes turbulent, falls from the stone ridge, under the ridge, is a waterhole, the water surface is flooded, the pool is deep. In the summer, the children of the village will take off their essence, jump into the pool, and play with dog planing.

In the water, there are fish, there are hemp fish, and there are red-tailed fish.

The river is overgrown with wild willows, reeds, trees, and the river flows in tranquility.

The mountains around the village retreated in all directions, and the village was in a small pingba.

The mountain is not high, and it goes up slowly, and the mountain is overgrown with various trees, which change color according to the seasons.

The sky above the head, the quiet, the sunny weather, the blue, the blue, the sun hanging in the sky, clear, warm.

A potholed dirt road passes through the village, through a ravine, over a small mountain beam to reach the town. From the town, take the shuttle bus, over the Qinling Mountains, you can go to the provincial city.

Wang Minzi was born in the village of his hometown.

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Wang Minzi's home, outside the village, facing the river. Wang Minzi's home has a grandfather and a grandmother. Father, mother, brothers and sisters. Like many families in the village, the population is large, and in the midst of hardship, they live a peaceful and happy life.

Wang Minzi, in such an environment, was born and grew.

Wang's childhood, like many children in the village, was carefree, innocent, and happy. There are loved ones sheltered, given warmth. Every night, he went to sleep soundly, and every day during the day, after getting up and eating, he went to the village to find a partner to play.

There are many partners in the village, and when you get together, you can play happily. Play with mud next to the yard. On the river beach, moving. On the tall walnut trees by the river, a swing was tied and swinged. Jump into the river, catch fish, play dog planing. Go up the hill to find wild fruits to eat. Run, chase, build snowmen, have snowball fights in the snow. The village is a childhood paradise.

However, in the years of his childhood, he passed in a flash, and Wang Minzi bid farewell to the village, carried a school bag, and went to a place a few miles away from home to study.

Wang Minzi read, read for many years, away from his hometown village, more and more far, from the village, to the township, from the township, to the town, full of hope for reading. However, after finishing his studies in the town and not going to school, he only went home in pain and disappointment.

During the years when Wang Minzi was studying, his grandfather and grandmother left him one after another. My sister is married.

When she returned from school, her mother also fell ill unexpectedly. At first, I thought it was a small illness, so I saw it in the village and the township hospital, but after taking a lot of medicine and giving many injections, I didn't get better. Only then did I borrow money everywhere, send it to the big hospital in the city for examination, check out, it was a bad disease, it was terminal cancer, and it did not take long to come back, and I died.

After the death of his mother, the family was left with Wang Minzi, his father, and his younger sister. The home suddenly seemed empty and full of pain. In that memory, the happiness of the whole family in one piece became a permanent, sweet, happy memory.

However, the most painful thing is the father, the loss of his wife, the pain of no one to accompany, the care, the father in pain, cheering up, supporting the family.

Wang Minzi read some books, and in his heart, he understood weakness and kindness, and he also understood things, and when he felt his father's pain, he accompanied his father, followed his father, and did some work.

The pain of his mother's death, in the face of the emptiness of the family, made Wang Minzi forget about it, and there was no pain of going to school.

Gradually, Wang Minzi followed his father, learned to do all kinds of work, and could also eat all kinds of hardships, and the time of school and the dream in his heart became a beautiful memory that could never be returned.

After a few years, Wang Minzi was able to do all kinds of work alone, and also learned to find a doorway to earn money, and his father was in pain, getting older and more emaciated, and sometimes, when he could not do work, Wang Minzi let him rest at home.

Brothers, studying in the township, sisters in the village school, although they also know the pain of the death of relatives in the family, but they seem to be carefree. Wang Minzi seems to be like an adult, prematurely shattering his dreams and bearing the burden of life.

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It was also at this time that Hatsuwa entered the heart of Wang Minzi, warmed Wang Sullenzi's heart, and brought hope to Wang Sullenzi's heart. It also allows him to be like an adult, bear the burden of life and become strong.

Hatsuhana is a woman from a family outside the village, and in the village, after finishing school, she returns home. Cooking, washing clothes. Tidy up inside and out of the house. Cut the pig grass and feed the pigs. Feed the chickens. During the busy farming season, I followed my parents to the fields and did some farm work. Over the years, Hatsuwa has become a good worker, diligent and capable.

Hatsuka went to the mountains, cut the pig grass, and met wang Minzi, who was working in the field, and talked.

Wang Minzi and Hatsuka are from the same village, and they have known each other since they were very young. However, Wang Minzi was older than Chuhua and did not play together as a child, and later, Wang Minzi went to school, and he was not in the same place as Chuhua. When he returned home from school, he encountered the death of his mother, and when such a change occurred, he had to follow his father on his young shoulders and begin to learn to work and support the family, and there was no chance to live with the first flower. It is a person who is familiar on the outside, but in the heart, and does not know much.

However, they were all people in the village, they all knew each other, and they met unexpectedly outside the village and in the mountains, and after being surprised, they immediately smiled.

Wang Minzi asked the first flower, cut the pig grass!

Hatsuka also smiled and said, cutting the pig grass. Hatsuka was a little shy, her face was slightly red, and she agreed to Wang's words and cut the pig grass with her head down.

Wang Minzi said, "First flower, you are diligent, you can cut pig grass and feed pigs."

Hatsuka said, you are not diligent, capable, you can do any job.

Although not in a piece, inside, do not understand. However, from the words of the first flower, let Wang Minzi know that the first flower is actually his business, understand him, and let Wang Minzi's heart be hot. At a glance at the first flower, the first flower has a slim figure, her hair is tied in braids, there is a hair shade in front of her forehead, her eyes are black, her eyes are clear and bright, she is so shy, pure, and cute.

Wang Minzi said, Hey! Fate is bitter, there is no way to do it.

Hatsuwa said that you are also a strong person, people are alive, it is always not easy, will encounter all kinds of things, you are still strong to come over, I believe that in the future, everything will be better and better.

Wang Minzi listened to Hatsuka's words, felt so warm in his heart, and said to Hatsuka, thank you.

The sky above your head, blue, blue. The sun is warm and clear. The mountains are full of green life, birds chirping in the mountains, and in the wilderness, there is a natural tranquility. Wang Minzi suddenly felt a particularly beautiful feeling welling up in his heart, a feeling that, like in a dream, had never been felt before. In this feeling, he forgot the disappointment of not going to school, and the emptiness of his home after his mother's death brought him pain. And over the years, taking on housework prematurely and experiencing the hardships of life.

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Wang Minzi and Hatsuwa, in one piece, had a long, happy and beautiful time.

Since Wang Minzi met and talked with Hatsuwa in the mountains, since then, although he did not meet, it seems that he had a tacit understanding in his heart, when Wang Minzi went to work in the mountains, Hatsuwa would always inadvertently go to the mountains to cut pig grass and meet Wang Minzi.

After meeting a piece, because I have spoken and are all people from the village, I have known them since I was a child, and I no longer have that restraint or that strange feeling. After meeting, smiling, after greeting, Wang Minzi worked, the first flower was next to cut the pig grass, and the two people talked casually.

The words, gradually broadened, became casual. Speaking of childhood, when it comes to that time, when they are carefree. I also talked about school time, about teachers, about classmates. All the same, there are many unforgettable funny things that resonate in the heart.

Then, he sighed and went out of school, and entered the hardships of society, helpless. When it comes to the death of Wang's mother and the changes in the family, Hatsuwa comforts her. This was stable and warmed the heart of wang sullen son.

It is also said that after adapting to social life, in that hardship, in the ordinary life, there is also happiness and happiness. Hatsuhana talked about him cooking, washing clothes, watching her parents eat the food she cooked, washing clean clothes, and her heart was happy. Speaking of her cutting pig grass, in the mountains, feeling the tranquility of nature, watching the sky, looking at the mountains, it is also happy. It also talked about the pigs that were fed, and knew her, and as soon as she went, she hummed and screamed, making her heart feel intimate.

When Wang Minzi heard Hatsuka say this, he also felt the happiness that he learned to do all kinds of work, and in working silently, he also said it to Hatsuka.

Just like that, the voices of the two people, the laughter, just drifted in the quiet mountain wilderness. The birds, too, could not help but sing excitedly. The sky is as pure as blue, the sun is as clear and warm, and the mountains are full of life.

In a day together, it is so happy, and time passes quickly.

When I left, I went back, and in Wang Sullenzi's heart, I always wanted to spend the first flower. The appearance of the first flower, the voice of the speech, the words spoken, are imprinted in the mind.

Hatsuka also thought of Wang Sullenzi, and Wang Sullenzi also fell into Hatsuka's heart.

Wang Minzi was no longer satisfied with the first flower, and there was no agreed encounter. Just secretly meet hatsuka and meet in a quiet place outside the village.

Outside the village, there are willow forests, reeds, and trees.

For a long, long time, Wang Minzi and Hatsuwa met in these quiet places. The stars in the sky blinked happily. The moon hangs in the sky. Starlight, moonlight, hazy. The mountains, taking on various beautiful shapes, sleep like in a dream. The trees in the field are like a cloud of fog. The black-tiled houses of the villagers also slept as if in a dream. You can faintly hear the sounds of people talking and dogs barking in the village. The river flows cheerfully. More and more, Wang Minzi and Hatsuka felt as warm as in a warm hut.

Wang Minzi and Hatsuka snuggled up, sat quietly, and whispered casually. The body feels relaxed, free, the heart, also feels relaxed, free, like a bird flying out of its cage and flying under the blue sky.

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The companionship of the first flower, the warmth and the beautiful feeling that she gave, fused with the heart of Wang Sullenzi. Let Wang Minzi get out of the pain, bear the hardships of life burdens, and in the excitement, full of hope for the future life.

Every day, with hope, in excitement, excitement, to do all kinds of work, planting crops. When the farmer is idle, he has a way to make money, so he goes to earn money. Supporting the family's life, so that the father can rest in old age and pain. Let the younger siblings grow up healthily, return home, have a warm home, and have food to eat.

In my heart, I also deeply imprinted the first flower, remembering the appearance of the first flower, remembering the scene of being with the first flower every time, the words I said, and the feeling. For the first flower, there is a beautiful imagination. Imagine that in the future, the house will be cleaned up beautifully and the family will be living well. The father came out of the pain, the younger siblings grew up, and slowly, told hatsuka about their inner feelings, and told Hatsuhana that he was going to marry her and be with her, and live a peaceful and happy life.

Wang Minzi knew that at this time, his father was in pain, his younger sister was growing, and there was a heavy burden on his shoulders. I can only remember the scene with the first flower, the beautiful feeling given by the first flower, so pure and happy in one piece.

Wang Minzi earned money, and when he was with The First Flower and when he met together, he would always buy some delicious food, drink, and also buy some small gifts for the First Flower and give it to the First Flower.

Hatsuka was very shy and excited to accept the gift. Snuggled up with Wang Sullenzi, sat together, eating snacks, drinking drinks, and whispering. It's all very casual, heartfelt words. However, it has not touched on the deep feelings in the heart, and some of them are just all kinds of beautiful yearnings. Speaking of excitement, when I look up, I see each other's bright eyes. The moon on the head is also exceptionally clean, and the mountains and villages under the moonlight are as quiet as in a dream.

Wang Minzi and Hatsuwa, so pure in one piece, a long time has passed. The first flower warmed the heart of Wang Minzi and brought Wang Minzi hope and dreams. Let Wang Sullenzi in the excitement, full of strength and passion, support the life of the family.

Although his father was not very old, because he was not accompanied by anyone, he was increasingly old, miserable, lonely, and had no intention of doing any work or worrying about any housework, and Wang Minzi did not let him do anything, let him rest.

The younger siblings also returned from school. Although Wang Minzi struggled to support the family's life and provide them with reading, they could not read into the book, nor could they bear the pain of reading, so they had to go a long way and starved. Living in the dormitory, the hot weather stinks, the winter cold is bitter, and it comes back.

The brother was tall and tall, like a young man. But man is lazy, afraid of what to do, eats and does nothing. After following Wang Minzi to the field for a while, he cried out that his waist hurt, tired, and slipped away.

The eyebrows were also tall, slender, like a girl. People are simple and diligent, and when they come back, they clean the hygiene inside and outside the house, boil water, cook, and wash clothes. When she was very young, my sister followed her mother to do these tasks, so when she did these tasks, she was skilled and did Ma Li.

The brother returned home, stayed for a short time, followed the people in the village, went out together, and once he left, he never came back, and after many years, he found a daughter-in-law outside and became a door-to-door son-in-law.

The sister was at home, and after staying for a few years, she was also found by people in a place outside the village.

The father has been in the pain of losing his wife, unable to extricate himself, a day in pain, loneliness, afraid of doing anything, more and more lazy, and, moreover, he also inquires everywhere, wanting to find a wife.

For many years, Wang Minzi has been silently doing various jobs, earning money and supporting the family. It is also good with the first flower. Hatsuka gave him love, and warmth. Bring Wang Boring Zi dreams, hope.

Between Wang Minzi and Hatsuhua, he also broke through the layer of paper, poured out his inner love, expressed his inner love to the fullest, tasted sweetness, happiness, and was full of beautiful imagination for the future.

The people in the village, Hatsuka's parents, also know that Wang Minzi is good with Hatsuwa.

There are good words, saying that the king is diligent and simple. It is also said that in Wang's family, since the death of his mother, his father has been lazy and depressed. No matter how bitter he is, ben, the strength of a person, after all, is limited, it is difficult to live well, and in the future, he will be with Wang Minzi and suffer.

It's just that Wang Minzi doesn't have a beautiful house yet, and he doesn't have a lot of money. Although the brother left home, he did not rely on him anymore. The girl has a family, has her own life, life. However, the father has not yet settled down, the life of the family has not been good, and the love and marriage between Wang Sullenzi and the first flower are hanging like that.

Wang Minzi thought, waiting to clean up the house beautifully, and had money. My father also settled down, and he considered marrying Hatsuwa.

Hatsuka also agreed to Wang's idea.

Wang Minzi also thought that there were feelings and emotions along the way with Hatsuwa over the years, those good memories, he would definitely be able to be with Hatsuwa in the future, and no one could be separated.

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A few years later, Wang Minzi settled his father, and his father found a stepmother. The stepmother was diligent and capable, cooking, washing clothes, someone to take care of the family, father, father also gradually came out of pain, loneliness, and a smile on his face.

However, Hatsuka followed someone else at this time.

There are people outside the mountains, good places, and good conditions, entrusting matchmakers, to come to the house to propose relatives.

Hatsuwa loves Wang Minzi in her heart, and thinks of Wang Minzi, naturally she does not agree. Father did not force her, let her go out to see, see and then say.

In Hatsuwa's heart, only Wang Minzi thought about going to see, just look, Quan Dang strolled around, and then came back.

Hatsuka followed her out, and when she went out, she never came back.

The man's condition was good, and he lived in a building. The place is also an endless plain. The young man is also good, the long Peugeot, the person is also simple, real. The people of the young man's family are even more enthusiastic, accompanying the first flower every day, making good food, and taking the first flower and parents to visit. In that place, the traffic is in all directions, the town is within easy reach, go to the city, you can go by bus. In the town, in the city, take the first flowers and the family to shop, play, eat all kinds of delicious food. I also buy them what I like and buy new clothes for Hatsuya. Let the heart of the first flower be extra warm and happy to play. In this happiness, the hometown village and the people in the hometown gradually fade in their hearts. Wang Sullen Zi also faded, and even the past life with Wang Sullen Zi also faded. In the face of people and things in this vast world, it is ridiculous to feel that the people and things in the village are so humble.

The young man's family, also did not rush to urge the marriage, but to the first flower, outside to find a very easy job, the first flower liked this lively, wonderful place, can also do the work, and the young man, in a work together, her parents worried about the family affairs, went back.

Hatsuka's parents went back, saying that Hatsuka went out to find work and did not come back for a while. Speaking of which, it is to wash clothes, cook, stay bored, go by her, open her eyes, and live happily. But it did not tell people that Hatsuhana and the young man who came to kiss were working together, nor did he say where Hatsuka worked.

In Wang Sullenzi's heart, while doing all kinds of work, earning money, dreaming of repairing the house beautifully, earning a lot of money, living a good life at home, waiting for the first flower to come back, going to the first flower home to propose relatives, and then, like a dream, and the first flower together.

Wang Sullenzi's heart was waiting for the first flower, looking forward to the first flower. Also reminiscing about the sweet scenes of the first flower, over the years in one piece.

There is a stepmother at home, inside and outside the house, clean up, there is fragrant food to eat, hot water to drink, and clean clothes to wear. Also fed pigs, chickens. The days at home are well organized. The father has the company of man, the nature of emotion, and gradually comes out of pain and loneliness, and people gradually rise up, see the hope of life, and also rejuvenate their spirits and go to work in the fields. In addition to doing housework, my stepmother also went to work in the fields. With the doorway to make money, also to make money. After earning money, in addition to the oil, salt, sauce and vinegar at home, I was reluctant to spend it, so I saved it.

With the help of a few more hands, Wang Minzi felt that the burden on his shoulders was lighter, and while waiting for the first flowers, he was more and more full of hope for life.

If you want to go on like this, you won't be able to renovate the house beautifully and save some money in a few years. Then, just wait for Hatsuki to come back, go to her house to propose to her, and then, like a dream, in one piece.

In Wang Minzi's heart, he was once very confident that with him and Hatsuwa, in a piece of emotion for many years, Hatsuwa will definitely come back.

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Wang Boredo renovated the house. The flatness of the roof cover. Windows are huge glass windows. The inside and outside of the house were whitewashed. The ground hit the cement floor and the top was lifted. The yard was also paved with cement, and the house became beautiful.

In the hands of Wang Minzi, he also saved some money, which was enough to marry Hatsuwa and live a sweet, happy life with Hatsuwa in the future.

However, Hatsuka never returned. However, Hatsuka's parents often leave the village and go to the village, beyond the ravine.

Until one day, when I came back, I was very proud and proudly told the people in the village that the first flower was outside, I found someone's home, the place was good, the conditions were good, the young man was not bad, he was married, and he was pregnant with a child in his belly.

Hearing this news, Wang Minzi only felt a buzzing sound in his head, and his eyes went black.

The beautiful scene of being with the first flowers has become a memory.

Years of hard work, struggle, finally supported the family, the relatives in the family, one by one, settled well, he also has a beautiful house, money to marry the first flower, the first flower became someone else's woman.

Suddenly, Wang's heart felt hollowed out. At this time, although everything was available, without the first flower, everything was in vain. Years of diligence are nothing but emptiness.

The only consolation is that the relatives have a family, they are all settled in, and they have a sweet, happy life. He could finally think about his own life without worrying about others.

However, looking at the village, he was already an older man, and although he had a beautiful house and money, there was no suitable girl, and no girl was willing to follow him. And the hometown is remote and poor, and girls want to fly out of their hometown and marry into a good place. Girls outside are not willing to marry in. Wang Minzi knew that without the first flower, there was no point in staying in his hometown. I couldn't find a girl who felt like hatsumi and loved him like that. It is that there is no love, no love, no girl who can live together and form a family, and there is no one who is willing to follow him. Wang Minzi felt that it was hopeless to stay in his hometown like this, and in the face of familiar landscapes and rivers, seeing things and thinking about people could only make him more miserable, caught in pain, unable to extricate himself, and unable to see the hope of life.

So one morning, Wang Minzi bid farewell to his father, and his hometown village, all the way out of his hometown ravine, to the town, took a shuttle bus, over the mountains, and went to the big city.

2018.1.3 Day Grass