My mother successfully ascended to the throne at the age of 50, got pregnant with me, and ushered in the retribution of the ceiling level.

Now, it's up to you

1

I heard this story.

The storyteller is gone.

But I'm probably going to be stuck in this story for the rest of my life.

Unable to struggle, unable to break free.

2

Her name is Du Meng, and she has a pair of eyes that can smile.

I've seen pictures of her when she was younger, like wearing a red scarf, her jet-black hair permed in large rolls, and her smile bright, like a bright and dazzling red camellia.

When Zhan Youming first saw her, he was fascinated by her.

It was the spring of 1985.

He traveled from Suzhou to Tianjin on business. A friend saved the game and invited him to dinner.

During the banquet, friends introduced him, come and come, old Zhan, I will introduce you, this is Du Meng, but also you Jiangsu people.

Du Meng smiled and shook hands with him generously.

Zhan Youming only felt that his palm was soft, like holding a cloud, and his whole body softened.

That year, Du Meng was 27 years old, but her delicate appearance was not too much to say that she was in her early 20s.

Du Meng said, my hometown Yixing. What about you?

Zhan Youming patted his thigh and said, Coincidentally, so am I.

Du Meng smiled and said, shoot so hard, doesn't it hurt?

Bright eyes and teeth, zhan Youming looked stunned.

3

Zhan Youming was 29 years old at the time, born in the countryside, and with hard work, he was admitted to university.

At that time, college students could be described as the proud children of heaven.

Unit reuse, leadership care, career smooth sailing.

After he returned to Suzhou, he couldn't forget Du Meng a little, and his sweet smile seemed to take root in his brain.

Fortunately, within a month, he had the opportunity to travel to Tianjin again.

Before leaving, Zhao Xiaolan sent him to the car and stuffed him with a net pocket of Guoguang apples.

Zhao Xiaolan said, don't forget to eat. All rotten corners of the mouth, not much fruit.

Zhan Youming nodded and said, Understand, understand. I remember everything you said.

Listening to the tone of the speech, you can guess who Zhao Xiaolan is Zhan Youming.

Yes, she was his wife.

The two met in high school and were admitted to college together.

I read books together for a long time and gradually cultivated feelings.

In Zhan Youming's words, Zhao Xiaolan is more like his sister.

A sister who manages the heavens and the earth, tells him to work hard, and urges him to forge ahead.

4

Zhao Xiaolan works in the Zhongzitou unit.

At first, in response to the state's call for late marriage and late childbearing, he waited for 25 years before getting married, having a daughter, and preparing to have another child.

She's the kind of woman who has to do everything step by step.

Flowers bloom in spring and bear fruit in autumn. The world is a small dial, running day and night, moving only time.

At that time, she trusted Zhan Youming very much.

Because people are accustomed to equating academic qualifications with personality.

High-quality students are bound to be excellent in character and learning.

It's just that Zhan Youming's high-quality students are not fake, but their feelings are not firm.

Maybe it's stuck in the times.

In the era when Teresa Teng had just lifted the ban, the long stream of thin water was far more desirable than just a sudden blow.

Zhan Youming began to take advantage of the convenience of traveling every month to see Du Meng.

5

At first, they all asked a few friends together.

Du Meng is also happy to respond.

She is different from Zhao Xiaolan, casual and cheerful.

Hairstyles are always changed, and scarves are always bright red.

She loves to be late. Sometimes Zhan Youming and her friends eat half of it, and she is late.

Once, Du Meng came late again. Zhan Youming said that he was fined three glasses of wine for being late.

Du Meng laughed, his voice giggling, like a small paw, tickling Zhan Youming's heart.

She said, I'll see, who is so bold as to punish me.

Zhan Youming was busy making amends, I was wrong, and fined me three cups.

After saying that, he picked up the wine glass and poured three cups of old white dry.

That night, Zhan Youming was a little drunk and walked danglingly. When I went out to say goodbye, I accidentally crashed into a tree.

Du Meng helped him and said, "Are you okay?"

Zhan Youming looked up, his friends were scattered, and under the pink-blue and dark red neon, there were only two people left.

He said through the strength of wine, Another day I will invite you to a meal alone, will you appreciate your face?

Du Meng looked at him quietly, and only then did he say, Ok, when the time comes, I will call my husband as well.

Zhan Youming smiled silently, stood up straight, and left.

6

Du Meng got married very early.

She went to university in Tianjin and was assigned to work here after graduation.

In a sense, she is very similar to Zhan Youming, both rely on learning, complete the fish leaping dragon gate, and become a city person.

After work, the leader introduced her to the older young men in the unit.

Du Meng met several times and got married.

Many years later, Du Meng recalled himself at that time, and he was really too anxious.

Being in a foreign land, without relatives and no reason, I am afraid that I will not be able to take root.

Hurriedly settled the hukou, married and started a family, but did not want to, marriage is not a nest, but a door.

Step in, there is still a long way to go.

Du Meng's husband is a well-known honest person in the unit. My biggest hobby is listening to crosstalk and listening to commentaries.

Everywhere he went, he carried the radio, heard the rise, and a man was silly.

If Du Meng didn't talk to him, he could entertain himself all day.

Over the years, the two men moved from the dormitory in the tube building to the two-bedroom and one hall of the family home.

The living environment has improved, but the relationship is still the same. Time did not enhance feelings, only added a lot of loneliness.

To tell the truth, when Zhan Youming asked Du Meng if she would like to eat alone, her heart fluttered.

She thought, if she had met Zhan Youming a few years ago, how good it would have been, capable and funny, and living with him would have been much happier.

It's just a pity that each has its own family, each has its own life, and how many hearts and minds can only be buried in the bottom of my heart.

7

In 1987, Du Meng became pregnant and gave birth to a son.

In 1988, Zhao Xiaolan and Zhan Youming also had a son.

Every month, Zhan Youming runs to Tianjin as usual.

Like a person, sometimes there is really no logic.

Du Meng never promised anything, but Zhan Youming couldn't give up on her in his heart.

Want to talk to her, want to see her laugh, want to tease her twice, wait for her to secretly blame him.

Sometimes, Du Meng really didn't want to see Zhan Youming.

Because some moods are becoming more and more difficult to suppress.

Especially at night, she coaxed her son, who would never sleep, and her husband laughed at the side of the crosstalk.

The emptiness in Du Meng's heart was like a leaf boat in the vast ocean.

Originally, she confessed her fate. It was in this backwater, slowly paddling to the day of sinking.

However, fate is like an old man who likes to manipulate right and wrong, and he tries his best to give Zhan Youming to her.

8

Zhan Youming is a person with a lively mind.

In 1990, he smelled business opportunities at work and wanted to start his own company.

But this matter must not let the unit know. Eat public meals, taboo.

He weighed left and right, thinking of a suitable person to be a nominal legal person, that is, Du Meng.

He and Zhao Xiaolan said that the company was registered in Tianjin, and there were preferential policies there.

He knew a fellow countryman, a nice person, and could help him with this.

At that time, Zhao Xiaolan was really simple, and he also went to Tianjin to see Du Meng with a large bag of gifts.

The two couples ate together.

At a glance, she could see that Du Meng and her husband looked like they were separated, and she was also distressed that she would marry alone when she was not old.

It's a pity that the eyes are so poisonous, but I don't see Zhan Youming's hidden love for Du Meng.

In this way, Zhan Youming's company opened.

Du Meng is famous in Tianjin.

Zhao Xiaolan just gave birth to his second child, retired from work, and helped him take care of the daily life of the Suzhou company.

And Zhan Youming, in the name of running business, has to go to Tianjin every week.

The opportunities to meet increased, and the barrier in Du Meng's heart was loosened.

9

That year, Du Meng was 32.

How many people who are disappointed in marriage have thought that if they close their eyes, a lifetime will pass.

But if you really want to stand at the end of youth, how much you recognize your fate, you have turned into unwillingness.

It was Chinese New Year's Eve in '91.

Zhan Youming called to visit the New Year. At the end, I said, Happy Valentine's Day, and sent you a gift.

It happened to be February 14.

At that time, there was no one there, Zhan Youming had the heart to remember.

He counted the days and the gifts were delivered on the same day.

It's a ring, gold.

At that time, it was popular to give this a little relationship, not limited to feelings.

But Du Meng held this vulgar gold object, but he tasted the forbidden love.

10

Du Meng was with Zhan Youming since then.

Gathering every Monday fills the gap in feelings.

As the days go by, Du Meng will think more. For example, divorce separately and reorganize families.

But Zhan Youming was never afraid.

Public office cannot be undignified. The company in Suzhou is also managed by Zhao Xiaolan, and it is indispensable to help this xiannei.

For women, the most beautiful love is only to love me.

But for men, the happiest thing is the blessing of the Qi people.

In 1992, Du Meng became pregnant unexpectedly. She counted the days, and it was Zhan You's name.

She said, I don't want to fight, you look at it.

Zhan Youming listened for a while. He said, don't you want me to die?

Zhan Youming told Du Meng a lot of great truths. Career, family, children, adult world, can not be willful.

Du Meng was reluctant in his heart, but he still fought.

That's how the days go on.

Feelings always maintain concentration because of distance. Zhan Youming will also give Du Meng dividends, a lot.

After all, business is getting bigger and bigger.

But what Du Meng wants most is not this.

11

It was in the spring of 1995 that Zhan Youming said he would come to Tianjin.

But no, no, no answer.

Du Meng was worried about whether something was wrong with him, when he suddenly received a call from Zhao Xiaolan.

Zhao Xiaolan said, you can do it, I worked hard to help him raise children, take care of the company, you share my money behind my back, account for my people, do you want to face! Thank you for trusting you so much!

Du Meng thought that there would be such a day, but he did not expect it to come so suddenly.

She calmed down a bit and said, I'm sorry. Actually, I wanted to talk to you earlier. But Yuming and I are really in love.

A sneer came from the other side.

She said, you love him, does he love you?

After speaking, Zhao Xiaolan put a recording for Du Meng.

It is a conversation between two people, shameful and blatant.

I don't know how Zhao Xiaolan got it.

The male protagonist is Zhan Youming.

And the heroine is neither Zhao nor Du.

Zhao Xiaolan said, he loves you so much, he must have told you earlier, and there is a little four.

It's really murderous.

Du Meng clutched the phone and cried out in an instant.

12

Zhao Xiaolan was the fourth child who caught Zhan Youming, and only then did he follow the vine to touch the melon and ask Du Meng.

The appearance of a scumbag collapsed the three views of two women.

Du Meng hated his own infidelity.

Thinking that you have embraced love is only satisfying a man's desire.

The last time she saw Zhan Youming was when the practitioner changed.

Zhan Youming and Zhao Xiaolan both came. Zhao Xiaolan scolded bitterly, and Du Meng and Zhan Youming were speechless.

From then on, they went their separate ways and never saw each other again.

And things got to this point, Du Meng's husband, but he was unconscious.

He even asked Du Meng if Youming's company was no longer working, so why didn't he use you?

It can be said that he has a solid personality, but it also more or less reveals his insensitivity to Du Meng.

In his eyes, Du Meng was still the woman who was arranged by the leader and lived with him.

He bore him children, helped his friends do business, and made a lot of extra money for the family.

Du Meng couldn't sleep all night, he lay on the side and snored loudly.

Du Meng knew that she would not be with Zhan Youming again, but she also knew that she would never fall in love with the man next to her pillow.

At that time, she only had a son left in her heart.

13

And just like that, ten years have passed.

Du Meng's son was admitted to college.

On the day she sent her son to school, she sat in his bedroom for a long time.

Her life goals have been accomplished.

And then what?

It was 2005. She was 47 years old, going out to buy vegetables, and someone called her old sister.

The husband took the MP3 eliminated by his son and continued to listen to the commentary and listen to crosstalk.

Life seems to have changed, and it seems to have not changed.

She was really tired of it.

In 2006, she used a divorce agreement to end this marriage without a trace of emotion.

And Du Meng didn't know that Zhao Xiaolan, who was thousands of miles away, had also done the same thing.

When their youngest son was admitted to college, Zhao Xiaolan and Zhan Youming sued for divorce.

She is a woman with a heart after all.

Simplicity is not stupid.

After taking a lesson, she remembered it.

In the past ten years, she has carefully raised her children and held the money tightly in her hands.

When the youngest child also went to college, he immediately divorced and divided two-thirds of Zhan Youming's property.

14

In those years, Du Meng never contacted Zhan Youming again.

But Zhan Youming has always learned about Du Meng's situation from his friends.

If you can help secretly, you will always help.

It's indebtedness, but it's also friendship.

He's the kind of man who pretends to be amorous and affectionate.

After the divorce, he called Du Meng.

He said, I'm gone, are you still willing?

Du Meng did not open his mouth, and the tears came down first.

No way, there are always some people, remember to eat and do not remember to fight.

That year, Du Meng was nearly 50 years old, and the happiest memories in most of her life were given to her by Zhan Youming.

She had already identified a life of stagnant water, and suddenly turned back to the road and waited for Zhan Youming.

To say that you are not moved is false.

She said, OK, but this time, I'm going to be with you in the open.

15

At the end of 2006, Du Meng and Zhan Youming registered.

The wedding was very formal.

Du Meng withdrew internally and returned to Suzhou with Zhan Youming.

In 2007, she was pregnant.

Zhan Youming and his friends persuaded her to fight, and even the doctor told her not to stay. But Du Meng was reluctant to do so.

She and Zhan Youming said that one of us had not been able to stay before, and this time, it was God's compensation for me.

Zhan Youming couldn't twist her and had to agree.

At that time, Du Meng had entered the middle age, and conceiving a child was equivalent to peeling the skin.

Several times life-threatening.

In the last two months, in order to save the fetus, she did not get out of bed.

At the end of 2007, Du Meng experienced many hardships and finally gave birth to a thin and small daughter.

Named Jenny.

And this child is me.

16

Yes, I only came out near the end of the story.

Zhan Youming is my father, and Du Meng is my mother.

They were over half a hundred years old before they wanted me.

It's a little bit of a madness.

My mom said she was happy, and my dad had given her happiness.

But I don't believe it.

Because for as long as I can remember, this family has not had any happy moments. Most of my father's property was given to Zhao Xiaolan, and he also had to pay child support.

He really didn't have much money.

And I just came into this world, and I have to wait for him to raise it.

The pressure of life made him more and more impatient, and his temper also grew.

My mother came to him for love.

But some men are only suitable for romance and cannot be used for life.

When I was a year old, my mom noticed that my dad was showing signs of cheating.

Finally, she could justifiably and generously question her. Because this time, she was his wife.

She forced my dad to hand over his phone and check his messages.

Those kissing me and my conversations, there is no time to delete.

My mother was trembling with anger, but she didn't settle the account with the woman.

Because that little third was no one else, it was Zhao Xiaolan. For my mom, this may be the retribution of the ceiling level.

17

I don't want to say that the three of them have a grudge.

Like a tangled paste.

I just want to talk about me.

My half-brothers and sisters are well protected.

When they became adults, they vaguely knew about their parents' troubles.

As for me, I have witnessed their deformed love and marriage since I was a child.

My dad simply broke the jar and broke it, and the families on both sides took turns.

And my mom, I don't have the energy to go on.

Ever since giving birth to me, her body has collapsed.

The face, which has always been young, quickly decays.

Once as vivid as red camellia, only the scarf hanging in the closet is still bright.

In 2015, my mother's appetite became extremely poor, and she would throw up when she ate.

My dad also joked that there would be no more.

As a result, when I went to the hospital, it was already advanced stomach cancer.

18

My mom left me in 2020.

Under the epidemic, in the last days, my mother decided to go home.

It was then that she told me stories about her and my dad, and Zhao Xiaolan.

Such a long life, it turned out to be a few hours to finish.

All the laughter and tears folded in a sigh.

I was 13 years old.

I don't know why she said all this to me as a little kid.

Perhaps, she wanted me to understand earlier how ridiculous human love is.

Perhaps, she wanted me to know how tired she was from life.

Maybe, she was just looking for someone to talk to.

She's been in this life. Always so lonely, always so lonely, always longing for someone to love her wholeheartedly.

I asked my mother, do you regret giving birth to me?

She didn't answer. She just used her lean, dry hands and gently touched my hair.

I know, she's regretting it.

After all, I was the child they gave birth to in their later years, and there was too much difference in physique to intelligence.

Mom's other child, graduated in 985. Dad's two, one is a doctorate and the other is a master's.

I, on the other hand, have been frail and sickly since I was a child, with thin and yellow hair.

My studies were also not very good, and it was difficult to concentrate mentally.

Everywhere I went, I could hear my family's gossip, and my personality inevitably had low self-esteem.

19

After my mom died, I went to boarding school.

My dad was on Zhao Xiaolan's side every day, and he didn't care about me anymore.

Many people say that Zhao Xiaolan is a real winner in life.

Got the property, forced away The Little Four, and survived the Little Three.

Raised two highly educated children, and finally tied up her husband back.

However, I always felt that she had failed to accept my father again.

Just like my mom failed.

Zhao Xiaolan, my mother, went to college in their time, and they were all extremely excellent women.

It's a pity that this life has surrounded my father, ups and downs, wasted time, and ruined myself.

I think that's why my mom told me her story early.

She wanted me to understand earlier that the life around men was not worth it.

And as a victim of this tragedy, the road of life is destined to be more difficult than others.

I'm only 15 years old, without my mother, only a 67-year-old, irresponsible father. I was trapped in their story, powerless to struggle, unable to break free...

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