The first time I watched "The World of Man", Zheng Juan, who felt that life was difficult, was simply too kind to leave innocent children behind after being forcibly violated by Luo Shibin.
She was an ordinary woman at the bottom of that era, uneducated, no job, and could only do odd jobs to supplement the family. The death of her husband Tu Zhiqiang made things worse, making the Zheng family, which was already in turmoil, completely lose hope of life.
In such a situation, it is also understandable not to leave the child conceived after being violated. Why did Zheng Juan insist on giving birth to a child after being "violated"? It seems to be kind, but in fact, there is another hidden feeling behind it.
First, "please" Tu Zhiqiang and save yourself
Zheng Juan was raised by her adoptive mother and has been living in the old and dilapidated Taiping Hutong, where the original residents have moved away, and only their family of three has nowhere to go, crammed into the dilapidated house, stringing hawthorns to earn some living expenses, and being forgotten in the corner of life.
The first hero to appear in Zheng Juan's vitality was Tu Zhiqiang. Tu Zhiqiang was originally mixed with Shui Ziliu and Luo Shibin, and earned some unclean money. Later, I worked in a timber factory by walking related to the relationship and had a stable job.
Once on the way home, she met Zheng Juan, who was bullied by a group of small, and the road saw that the road was uneven and drew a knife to help, just because of this shot, Zheng Juan decided to follow Tu Zhiqiang for the rest of her life. That's the man who can protect her, the man who can change her life, no love and hate, only related to survival.
Tu Zhiqiang, who has a special sexual orientation, needs such a "wife" as a fig leaf, and in the face of Zheng Juan, who is sent to the door, he fulfills her "concubine intention", and the two decide to get married.
After marriage, Zheng Juan realized Tu Zhiqiang's secret, but this is not important to Zheng Juan, what is important is that he is willing to marry, and she is also willing to marry. Unexpectedly, when Tu Zhiqiang and Shui Ziliu had a private secret meeting, she also brought a good brother Luo Shibin with her, and his appearance completely changed her life.
She thought that in this life, she would probably guard Tu Zhiqiang's home, help him wash and cook, help him take care of his family, and tolerate his special hobbies. Such a life may not be Zheng Juan's ideal married life, but this is not too bad a thing.
Taking advantage of the wine, Luo Shibin violated Zheng Juan, who cooked vegetables in the kitchen, and she struggled desperately, desperately resisted, and finally fell into the mouth of the tiger. That night, she was cut off two of her ribs by Luo Shibin. It was a girl's nightmare, and it was also a scar that could not be erased for a lifetime.
There is no positive description of Tu Zhiqiang's performance after Zheng Juan's unexpected pregnancy, but Tu Zhiqiang's attitude can be vaguely interpreted from the details. He is gay, knows that he has never touched Zheng Juan, and knows that Zheng Juan is pregnant, and before he goes to the execution site, he informs Shui Ziliu of this matter and entrusts the child and Zheng Juan to two good brothers.
So the question is, how did Tu Zhiqiang know that Zheng Juan was pregnant? Why wasn't he angry after knowing that Zheng Juan was pregnant? After thinking about it, the only explanation was that this matter was his acquiescence.
Imagine how Tu Zhiqiang could be with the water flowing brightly in an era when traditional concepts were deeply rooted. How can I soothe the hearts of my parents? How can we avoid worldly condemnation? Marrying Zheng Juan is only the first step, and although Zheng Juan's pregnancy is an accident, it is also an accident that completes Tu Zhiqiang.
It is not difficult to guess that Zheng Juan, who is weak and helpless and has no financial resources, will not hide Tu Zhiqiang after being violated and pregnant. Perhaps, the day after Zheng Juan was broken, Tu Zhiqiang knew the truth, Tu Zhiqiang did not fall out with his brother because of this, and the reason for self-interest was more than tolerance.
Zheng Juan, who can only rely on Tu Zhiqiang's life, can only swallow her anger in this matter, acting as a fig leaf for Tu Zhiqiang's authenticity to be concealed, and the birth of the child is just another chip.
Before Tu Zhiqiang's death, Zheng Juan was unwilling to give up her children, and did not rule out the reason why she chose to help Tu Zhiqiang "act" for the sake of life.
Second, the kindness and compassion of the heart
After Tu Zhiqiang was shot, Zheng Juan did not think of giving up the child, but because her adoptive mother was a buddhist believer, with compassion and kindness in her heart, she persuaded Zheng Juan to stop and finally decided to keep this innocent child.
The whole family of three, disabled disabilities, old age, weak and weak, all are "three noes" personnel with no identity, no status, and no name. Leaving the child behind is the greatest compassion and understanding of Zheng Juan and her family for life.
I once saw an evaluation of Zheng Juan, "Zheng Juan, a weak woman, accepts the gift of fate while not yielding to fate." "The unexpected pregnancy is the embodiment of Zheng Juan's difficulty in accepting, and giving birth to a child against all difficulties is Zheng Juan's struggle against the injustice of fate."
Third, put the change of fate on the child
After Zheng Juan and Zhou Bingkun exchanged ideas, the imminent thing was to confess the child's origins. Zheng Juan likes Zhou Bingkun's sincerity and kindness, which is the appreciation and proximity of the same kind of people. Many people think that Zhou Bingkun is just caught up in Zheng Juan's seduction and calculation, but in Luzi's view, there is still true feelings behind the calculation.
Zheng Juan told Bingkun the truth, giving him the opportunity to digest and re-choose. This is Zheng Juan's boldest and most shrewd gamble, betting on Zhou Bingkun's nature and temperament, unexpectedly, she really did not look at the wrong person.
When Zheng Juan was pregnant, Zhou Bingkun sent her money after running before and after running, and her 5 yuan running errands were all posted, which was not enough, usually a little bit of sugar and fruit, must be given to Zheng Juan and the child. At this point, Zheng Juan can conclude that Zhou Bingkun will definitely be good to the child.
Marrying Zhou Bingkun, for Zheng Juan, Zhou Bingkun's true love for her children is one of the tests. If Zhou Bingkun is full of malice and disgust for the child, Zheng Juan will stop the loss in time even if she loves Zhou Bingkun again.
In Zheng Juan's life, the child Zhou Nan is her life. In the hearts of some women, the child forced to be born by the enemy can only be their own enemy, who endlessly retaliates against the child in life from the flesh and torture, and finds the pleasure of revenge from the child's pain.
However, Zheng Juan did not, she loved Zhou Nan deeply from beginning to end, loved this child with a bitter fate, and loved this child who carried "dirty" from birth. She loves him, not to submit to Luo Shibin, not to bow to fate, but to represent the majority of china's hard-working, brave and tolerant women.
Zheng Juan found a best father in the world for Zhou Nan, found the warmest home, let the children eat well, dress well, drink well, and go to a good university. In the desolation of life, she planted the future and hope for the child's heart. The only regret is that Zhou Nan finally died because of kindness and justice.
To change a child's destiny is to change one's own destiny.
Write at the end
In the traditional worldly gaze, Zheng Juan's life is full of tragic background in the first half, and she is a weak and helpless weak woman. However, Zheng Juan never succumbed to fate, but instead played this tragedy of life with sound and color.
The best life is not to not be hurt, but to be willing to run with wounds, and Zheng Juan is such a person. From the moment she gave birth to the rapist's child, her bravery, strength and tenacity jumped to her eyes.
Zheng Juan insisted on giving birth to a child after being "violated", and there is another hidden feeling behind compassion and kindness. In order to live and survive, Zheng Juan "calculated" Tu Zhiqiang and "calculated" Zhou Bingkun. Her calculations are full of sincere efforts, but also hide the sum of kindness, is a positive struggle, is an active way of life.