In 1999, after Bi Feiyu wrote "Qingyi", he did not write for a long time.
He was waiting for a woman.
One windy and rainy afternoon, he sat on the sofa in the living room and turned on the TV in boredom.
Zang Tianshuo is singing rock and roll: "If you want to be in good health, you have to eat more old corn." ”
At that moment, Bi Feiyu was inspired and decided to name his new novel "Corn". And the very dignified village woman inside is called Wang Mao.
"Corn" is another book that deeply dissects women's desires after "Qingyi".
Reading wang corn's life, you can read the root and pain behind a woman's face.
Having a child, a woman's most important "face"
As soon as Shi Guifang was born, she threw her son Xiao Bazi to her eldest daughter, Maize.
In addition to breastfeeding, Shi Guifang did not bring children at all.
After giving birth to seven servants and finally having a son, Shi Guifang was radiant and had a temper on her body.
But she was lazy, loose and full of self-sufficiency, and there was a slackness of completion.
Giving birth to a son for the Wang family has always been Shi Guifang's wish. But seven servants in a row, they lost their confidence, lost their dignity in front of their husbands, and even their husbands could not control the outside.
After the family had a son, in addition to Shi Guifang, the eldest daughter Corn was also relieved.
Corn was very excited in his heart, and he had to hold back, so he always had an unspeakable shyness on his face.
As the eldest daughter of the family, Corn is half a sister of her mother. When her mother gave birth to her sixth sister, Yumiao, Corn gave birth to the midwife, through which she witnessed all the secrets of women.
This experience is an added bonus. Corn is more precocious than girls of the same age, familiar with the world, and has a deeper heart.
There are eight brothers in the family, and Corn's waist is also straight, and at the same time, she is still planning a big thing.
She walked the streets with her eighth brother in her arms, just to tear the face of her father's lovers.
Most of the women who are related to their father, Wang Lianfang, are afraid of corn.
The reason is that corn is still a chaste girl, and she has to have a relationship with her father, and she has lost half morally; the second is that corn has grown up and begun to understand the affairs of men and women, and they are afraid that corn will tell ugly things.
Therefore, the eighth brother became the weapon of corn, and she fought for face and stood up.
Everyone was very envious, Shi Guifang and Wang Lianfang had such a capable and powerful daughter.
How many girls, living trembling in the original family.
In addition to fleeing, what they initially wanted to win was the attention of their parents.
After giving birth to a son, Corn had the honor of becoming the face of the Wang family.
Behind the evenly matched forces, it is the face project of women
The seasons are like a stream, hurrying by.
In the blink of an eye, the corn has grown into a big girl, and it is time to say that the in-laws are family.
Because Corn is the daughter of the village party secretary, Wang Lianfang told himself that ordinary people can't do it.
If a girl gets married, the wronged child is still secondary, and the shame is still the parents. According to Wang Lianfang's meaning, it is still necessary to find a family that is an official according to the criteria of being a door-to-door household, and has power in his hands, so that such a person's body will not be lost.
Wang Lianfang inquired several times in a row, and the corn did not move at all.
In the end, Corn's heart is very strong, and she is both worried and longing for her life's events.
After looking around for a long time, Secretary Peng of Peng Jiazhuang recommended a person.
First I heard that it was the little third son of the hoop barrel family, and Wang Lianfang's interest was cold for three points. Then, Peng Zhishu explained: "It is the one who inspected the pilot the year before." There are only four in the county. “
Wang Lianfang took a breath, this is not good, if there is a pilot as a son-in-law, don't mention more face.
"He Wang Lianfang is equivalent to having gone to heaven once, and his Wang Lianfang casually sprinkling a soak of urine is actually a day's rain."
Wang Lianfang quickly handed over the photo of his daughter Corn to Peng Zhishu, hoping that Peng Zhishu, a big matchmaker, would match.
Not long after, the third son of the hoop cooper's family wrote the letter to Peng Zhishu, and together with his photo, passed through Wang Lianfang and Shi Guifang, and reached the hands of corn.
Corn also knows the third son, his scientific name is Peng Guoliang, from the photos, in fact, is not handsome.
Skinny, somewhat old-looking, slippery eyes, squinting, thick eyelids, tight lips, and teeth and arches.
However, Peng Guoliang is wearing a flight suit and the background is an airport, and all the flaws before can be ignored, giving people a very heroic feeling.
Corn blushed at once, her heart had gone for the most part, and she felt inferior.
In the final analysis, people are people from heaven and earth, and they are just a country girl.
Corn was eager to settle this family affair in one breath.
But Peng Guoliang's letter to her was very vague, saying only that she was homesick, and there was only one sentence about corn, or that "the people Uncle Peng liked are absolutely trustworthy", and there was no other expression.
Corn knew in her heart that Peng Guoliang had left her an address to give the key to this relationship to Corn. But she told herself that she couldn't break the relationship as soon as she came up, because it was too cheap and too humiliating.
In the end, Corn replied with a very low-key and subtle reply.
In fact, she really wanted to let Peng Guoliang know how satisfied she was with this family affair.
However, for the sake of face, she could not say it first.
Next, Maize and Peng Guoliang began to communicate frequently.
Their letters were very formal, and gradually, the words were filled with passion and children's affection.
One day, Peng Guoliang asked Corn, "Are you willing to join me, hand in hand, and fight against Di Xiu?"
Peng Guoliang's confession made their relationship settle.
Seeing this, the joy in Corn's heart accumulated more and more, and finally, she couldn't help but collapse and cry.
After the relationship is established, the next step is to "talk" about love. The love between Corn and Peng Guoliang depends on "writing".
This is difficult for corn, which is not a high level of education, and she is afraid that Peng Guoliang will see through herself through the words.
The psychology of wanting face began to work again, and the corn was sweet, but it was also blocked.
There is a passage in the book that reads:
Corn knocked on its head, word for it! What about words? - Why wouldn't I write more than a few words? Writing about the place of powerlessness, Corn looked at the paper, looked at the pen, despaired, and the words in his stomach slowly turned into a face of tears. She folded her hands on her chest and said, "God, pity me, you pity me!" ”
The whole village knows that Corn's boyfriend is a pilot, and she is in a grand love affair.
In order to save her face, she said that she would not tell others about her embarrassment.
The conflict between face and lizi makes the corn very screwed.
She could only tense up and quietly collapse, all the pain, only to swallow herself to taste.
Love, women love face in the end is not worth it
Some people fight for face all their lives, while others don't take face seriously at all.
Wang Jiazhuang's Liu Fanxiang is such a "faceless" woman.
Willow pink is extremely feminine, has a good voice, and sings well.
Such a woman is easy to provoke rumors, before she married Wang Youqing, she was pregnant, and the stigma always hung over her.
However, Liu Fanxiang didn't care about face at all.
She was not afraid of her mother-in-law accusing her of not being able to have children, not afraid of rumors in the village, and even if she had an affair with Wang Lianfang, she was not afraid of corn at all.
She saw the corn coming, and instead of closing the door, she walked out generously. There was no pretend composure on her face, for she was indeed calm.
She also dared to chat with Corn, with the empathy characteristic of women.
Liu Fanxiang, who does not pay attention to face, lives more freely and more freely.
This is something that Corn can never do, so Corn is jealous of the Qing family.
Corn originally talked about love well, but who knew that Peng Guoliang's grandfather died suddenly, Peng Guoliang went home early to visit his relatives, and the day he and Corn met was also advanced.
Corn panicked, she didn't even have a decent new dress, and she didn't have time to redo it, so she met like this, how faceless.
Suddenly, the corn was quite depressed, and the sorrow was extreme.
Corn blind date clothes, or Qing family to give her.
She was very disgusted and unwilling to want it before, and the Qing family said to her: "Being a woman can have a high heart, but she can't be arrogant, and the ability of heaven is only an opportunity to marry someone, you have to grasp it." Don't be like me. ”
In the end, Corn still did not wear the Spring and Autumn Shirt of Willow Powder, but Corn had the confidence, and her meeting with Peng Guoliang was also smooth.
Under the accumulation of countless nights of acacia pain, they are like dry firewood encountering a fiery fire, and the passion burns to the extreme.
Just when they were about to break through that step, Corn immediately grabbed Peng Guoliang's hand and begged, "No." ”
Chastity is the most important "face" of corn.
The first time corn was kept, it was a thought for Peng Guoliang, and it was also the last treasure of face.
A few days later, Peng Guoliang was gone.
Corn had some regrets, and she didn't know if the face she was struggling to hold was worth it.
However, the corn family changed one by one, first the father was caught stealing, the post was removed, and then the younger sisters Yuxiu and Yuye were defiled by the evil people.
Corn's face was dirty, and the love of her dreams was completely shattered.
Marriage, a woman gambles the face she will earn back in her life
After the experience of the last failure, Corn made up his mind to "marry well" and win back face for himself and the Wang family.
Whatever it was, she had only one request: power in her hands. Otherwise, she'd rather not marry!
Corn is very pompous when it is married.
That day, corn was rhythmized by a small speedboat dedicated to commune cadres, and the glass of the cockpit was pasted with two bright red paper cuts and double happiness.
Maize married the deputy director of the Revolutionary Committee in charge of Renwu in the county town, named Guo Jiaxing.
Guo Jiaxing's age is not small, and when Corn married, his wife was in a critically ill bed.
On the blind date, Corn was arranged to go to a movie, and finally in the hotel, he met the mysterious Guo Jiaxing.
That day, Corn undressed herself and climbed into the bed.
Corn thought to himself: What he has ripped open is not his clothes, but his own skin.
To put it bluntly, it was Corn who put down her face, and she had to change back to another layer of "face".
After Guo Jiaxing slept with Corn, he felt very satisfied and agreed to marry Corn.
So what does corn think?
At this time, corn has understood that sugar cane is not sweet at both ends, she does not care, for herself, she is willing.
At the end of the story, Corn says a passage that is particularly thought-provoking:
"You can't live without the right to live. As long as the man has the right, her corn family can start all over again, and at that time, no one in Wang Jiazhuang wants to put a fart on the face of the corn. ”
Corn finally won the gamble, she got her wish, became Shangguan's wife, and began her "happy" life.
epilogue
Women love face, is it right or wrong?
This is something corn has been thinking about.
Bet on the happiness of the first half of your life, bet with marriage, and also earn back face.
This face was enough for her to return to her mother's home, Wang Jiazhuang, with great pride. But can this face help her walk through the second half of her life with confidence?
Corn that fights for face everywhere is like us who have to be strong in life.
I always think that with a good backer, others will look at it more highly; I always feel that comparing others to others, I am superior to others.
But I don't know that face is the least valuable and useless thing in the world.
Love face, in the final analysis, or pay too much attention to the eyes of others.
But life is always your own and has nothing to do with others.
Only by putting it down can you live a good life.
There is a saying in "A Generation of Grandmasters":
People live in the world, some live into face, some live into the inside, and only the inside can win the real face.
May those women who love face too much no longer suffer for the sake of face.
Don't push yourself too hard, accept yourself gladly, smile at the wind and rain, and for the rest of your life, calm and relaxed, elegant and comfortable.
About the author: Chen Xingkong, write a piece of starry sky with a pen.
Source: Stills from "The Old Farmer"