Author: Insight Annabésu
In the 1970s, a group of young boys and girls in their seventeens and early twenties gathered in an old red building.
In the years of wanton madness, we spent an unforgettable youth together.
Those pasts are written in a 320-page book and recorded in a 136-minute movie.
Yan Geling wrote in "Fanghua":
"Our old Red Chamber still has dreams, and most of them are beautiful and bold."
But what she didn't say, and those under the appearance of beauty,
Wrapped in the choice of good and evil, bitter love and hate, ruthless betrayal, humble flattery...
Remembering youth, it is both magnificent and ruthless and cruel.
For us, the love and hatred of each of them is actually a hidden truth of human nature.
1
Good people have good rewards, good old people don't
Liu Feng is not a remarkable person from the moment he appears, Yan Geling wrote at the beginning:
"I thought I wouldn't recognize Liu Feng when I saw him again."
He was like that in his twenties, and no matter how well you knew him, you couldn't remember what he looked like. ”
Ordinary looks, ordinary birth, what do you rely on to win the favor of others?
Do good, of course.
Liu Feng has a loud nickname among his comrades-in-arms, "Lei Youfeng".
He is very selfless, others do not eat the broken skin dumplings, he eats, others do not want to do the tiring work, he is willing to do.
He also does a lot of good things.
As small as helping others repair watches, helping comrades-in-arms from Beijing to carry things, and making sofas for the class leader who is about to get married.
Big enough to give up valuable promotion places.
At that time, everyone had thought, "I don't know what it would be like without Liu Feng in our team." ”
The results came quickly.
Once, after listening to Teresa Teng's mesmerizing voice, Liu Feng was overwhelmed with emotion and couldn't help but hug his beloved girl Lin Dingding.
This scene was just bumped into by others, and Lin Ding Ding shouted and ran away.
This "touch incident" made Liu Feng fall from the altar of a good man.
He was interrogated, humiliated, and finally sent to the logging company, where people not only quickly broke with him, but even fell for him.
I've heard a saying that says, "Being too kind to others is like handing someone a knife to hurt yourself, and you have to say thank you." ”
Good people have good rewards, but good old people don't.
People who are too kind, the pain is doubled, just like Liu Feng, who first sacrificed himself to complete others, and finally he was cold because he was let down.
When we were young, probably everyone used to be Liu Feng.
Pull out a sincere heart, be extremely sincere to everyone around you, and wait until you have experienced disappointment, only to understand that not all the efforts have been rewarded.
Not all kindness can be returned with kindness.
The rest of my life is not long, and the warmth of my heart is still there, but all sincerity must be left to those who deserve it.
This is the wisdom of being a human being, and it is also the compassion of oneself.
2
A world that does not belong to you, no matter how hard you try, you can't fit in
He Xiaoping had a tragic childhood when her father was beaten to suicide as a rightist.
Her mother remarried, and she grew up being an annoying drag bottle.
When she first joined the literary troupe, she was always cautious, smiling, and trying very hard to express herself in front of others.
Even though he was tired, he still braced himself to circle in front of everyone and show his dancing posture.
But the harder she tried, the more she looked like a joke.
Initially the girls' hostility toward her was only a faint complaint of "Why don't you tell me when you wear my military uniform?"
Later, he Xiaoping's underwear that was dried had a sponge inside it, and the smell of sweat on her hard work in the dance had also become a mistake.
Until the end, the misfit also became her fault.
In fact, He Xiaoping did not want to fit in, but the circle was really different.
Hao Shuwen, from a military family, Lin Dingding, from a well-off family, they have a good family, their eyes are above the top, and they have never felt empathy for Xiao Ping in their pride.
Even Xiao Suizi, who seems to be soft, mostly treats Xiaoping's isolation with a bystander posture.
In the great literary troupe, there were no friends of He Xiaoping.
"We are like a mountain, and no matter what, we are doomed to never meet for the rest of our lives."
This is he Xiaoping's voice, and it is also the epitome of the real world.
I think that pleasing can get likes, and I think that grievances will be exchanged for friendship.
The more you experience, the more you find that people who are not a world, no matter how hard they try, they can't blend in, and people with different levels, even if they are temporarily close, will eventually run to each other.
Instead of flattering others, it is better to live as you like.
As the writer Feng Tang said:
"Dare to be yourself, dare to please yourself, in order to stand in this chaotic world, live out their own pattern." 」
Not in line with the group that should not be in line, not hard to squeeze into the circle that does not belong to oneself, is the greatest self-consciousness of adults.
3
This world has always been
It is easy to add flowers to the icing on the cake, but it is difficult to send charcoal in the snow
Liu Feng to He Xiaoping is a charcoal fire in the snowy night, a bright light in the night.
When she first arrived, it was Liu Feng who took her familiar with the environment and quietly warned her: "Don't tell others about your biological father." ”
When He Xiaoping was isolated, it was Liu Feng who came out to break the siege.
During the rehearsal process, the male soldier Zhu Ke disliked the smell of He Xiaoping's body, and did not partner with her, and when everyone was unwilling, only Liu Feng was willing.
Everyone else was happily eating popsicles after rehearsals, only Liu Feng, enduring her waist injury, accompanied her to rotate and practice again and again in the empty dance studio.
Xiao Suizi said that He Xiaoping may be the only one among us who can truly understand Liu Feng's kindness.
Because: "A person who never is treated well can best recognize kindness and cherish kindness the most." ”
Therefore, when Liu Feng was sent down because of the "touch incident", all the people did not come, and only He Xiaoping stood alone in the empty courtyard to send him off.
In the last days of Liu Feng's life, it was he Xiaoping who had been silently guarding him and taking good care of him.
Lao She once said this:
"When you're on high, your friends know who you are.
When you fall, you know who your friends are. ”
In this world, it has always been the icing on the cake, and it is difficult to send charcoal in the snow.
If you don't fall, you never know who will help you; if you don't fall, you never know who will cross you.
Only when the leaves fall can we know autumn, and only when we fall can we know our friends.
When you arrive, the people around you may not be true friends.
When you are frustrated and discouraged, the person who shields you from the wind and rain without hesitation is the real noble person in life.
4
The greatest heroism in the world
Even if he is scaly and wounded, his heart is still warm
In 1976, a huge black cloth fell over the sky, covering a giant figure, an era, and thus came to an end.
Everyone in the book is pushed by the times and embarks on their own life paths.
Because of witnessing the fall of Liu Feng, a good man, He Xiaoping's heart was like ashes, and he had an iron heart to stay away from this group that hurt Liu Feng.
In 1979, the self-defense counterattack against Vietnam began, and the two men who were successively sent down were stationed nearest to the front line.
One was ambushed, covered in blood, and eventually recovered a life;
One was in a field hospital, rescuing a seriously wounded soldier, and saw more life and death.
In the end, Liu Feng broke an arm, and He Xiaoping became a model for rescuing the wounded, but because he could not bear the huge gap, he went crazy.
It is more than 20 years after we meet again.
Liu Feng went south and north, and did not mix a famous hall, his wife ran away, leaving a daughter who was very indifferent to him, and a body of injuries.
He Xiaoping took Liu Feng, who was suffering from bowel cancer, to his side to take care of him, and the two spent their last time together, silent and calm.
All the past, all the tribulations of life, are finally melted into the ordinary time.
Looking back at Liu Feng's life, he was devoted to being a man, but he was hurt by people.
Faced with malice, deception, betrayal, he longs to become a hero, but he is crushed into mud by the world.
He Xiaoping's world has never had the word "pride and confidence", she is treated coldly by the world, and she has been longing for a solid hug all her life.
But she is still in the floating and sinking world, stubbornly guarding Liu Feng's kindness.
Even though life has given them too much misery and rain, they are still floating in the world, loving and living hard.
"The world kissed me with pain, and I still sang in return."
The world's greatest heroism should be that even if it is scaled all over the body, it is still warm in the heart.
Even if you are not treated well by life, you still love life with tears.
5
When I read "Fanghua" when I was young, I was always moved by Liu Feng's ardent and sad feelings for Lin Dingding.
He also wept for the sympathy between Liu Feng and He Xiaoping.
Only when Shaohua has passed away and then looking at the plot of the book can I understand Yan Geling's interpretation of human nature.
In those flying and vivid years, there are more sorrowful life conditions.
I don't know if everyone in the story will be on a rainy morning, or the dusk of a sunset,
I remembered the soft laughter in the Little Red Chamber, and the melancholy voice of Teresa Teng lijun sounded in my ears.
Remembering such a good year, I have failed to live up to the hottest feelings, and I have also consumed the most precious kindness at will.
The red face is old, and the moment is gone.
Youth is a magnificent feast and a brief prologue before maturity.
There is pain, there is laughter, there is happiness, there are tears, there are regrets, there are epiphanies.
When the glitz is over, what is left to us is always the most glorious and gentle things in the depths of human nature.
Recalling youth, eager absurdity, young people do not understand the hardships of life, and there is no more fanghua to read.