Later, I was still very lonely
Li Li
People who feel that they are alienated by nature have such a personality since childhood.
Growing up roaming in his father's forest park, he was very lonely when he was young, he did not love to be lively, often squatting under a big tree to watch ants, listen to birdsong, catch tadpoles by the pond, sometimes talk to himself, talk to flowers and plants, on the occasion of no one to hand over, full of joy of life, so loose and pottery.
Childhood experiences may lay the foundation for a person's life. I was used to being lonely when I was young, and I was still very lonely later. As I grew up, Chinese society has undergone tremendous changes in recent decades. In traditional Chinese clan society, individuals must live in order groups with common values, and only in such groups can individuals find the common values and foundations of this society. But now, people are withdrawn from their homeland (including families), and mobility has become the norm. This withdrawal comes with the cost of interpersonal estrangement. You can freely choose your attitude towards life, or have an attitude of indifference to everything; you can freely choose your marriage, or you can no longer get married; you can choose to leave the family, you can still find dependence, and still live a wonderful life. But the outcome of your choices will be your own, and no one will be responsible for you. You are the bearer of loneliness in your life. The changes in society, and the changes in technology, are now the Internet age, but also the so-called home era, people and people are becoming more and more alienated. The more developed the Internet becomes, the more humanity becomes an island. In recent years, the global epidemic has made the vast majority of people return to home, the smallest unit of society, and they will close the city, the village, and the community at every turn, and over time, the sense of alienation between people will deepen. A natural barrier is formed between homes and between people. Originally, I was a bit alienated personality, did not like social life, did not like to rely on others to do anything, was not willing to intersect with others, all emotions were accustomed to self-digestion, living in the current era, geographical migration became the norm, large families went to dispersion, and after the normalization of epidemic prevention and control, it seemed to live more into an "atom".
Looking around, there are too many people around me, all living into atoms - atomized" individuals. Used to opening the mobile phone to order takeaway brush video, know the internet celebrity products well, but do not know the neighbors across the door. Working in a large company, with the same hurried people, every day into the same building, on the same elevator, but never look at each other. The reason why cats have become so important and loved by many people in this era may not be just because of cats, but the bigger reason is that in the increasingly alienated modern urban life, the presence of cats provides a certain kind of spiritual comfort. Because there is a cat in the house, people's loneliness will not become so intense.
Lonely people, not unaccompanied, but lonely has become a habit. He built his own strong boundaries to keep his world untouched. He stood alone in the vast wasteland of life, with countless people walking in front of him, but he did not want to join the crowd. He wanted to retain his personality and embrace whatever the outcome.
It is spring at this moment, and in the grand spring, there are countless small lonely people scattered. The grand spring is invisible, all that is seen is the blooming flowers. One by one, soon they all opened, blooming everywhere, spreading all over the mountains. Spring is only once, every flower has only one life, and the lonely person, drowned in this little one in the midst of all the colors, also has only one life. The flower of life blooms only once and never blooms again. The flowering period passes in seconds, time rushes forward, and the more flowers bloom, the lonelier people become. Spring to autumn, cold to summer, and later it was still very lonely, and no one could complain about loneliness. Loneliness is like moonlight, like air, uncapable, but pervasive everywhere. In this spring, and in the future spring.
The Bouquet of Thoughts by James Wright
I think of the beaches, the fields,
Tears, laughter.
I think of the home I built—
It was blown away by the wind again.
I think of the party,
But every party is a farewell.
I think of the stars that run in loneliness,
The yellow orioles are in pairs, and the sunset is flustered,
Fade away in melancholy.
I want to cross the vast universe,
Go to the next planet, go to the last planet.
I'm going to leave a few tears,
And some laughter.