Chairman Mao liked to talk to others about problems, especially when he encountered topics of interest to him, and he talked endlessly and tirelessly. Sometimes, he forgets his identity and forgets himself. Even in his later years, he was still very talkative. Meng Jinyun is a native of Hubei, born in 1948, almost the same age as the Republic, and entered the Air Politics Song and Dance Troupe at the age of 12. From May 24, 1975, Meng Jinyun became the last nurse on Mao Zedong's life path. Because of her surname, Chairman Mao called her "Mengfuzi" and was very satisfied with her work, often letting her read newspapers, documents, and books. Meng Jinyun accompanied the sick Mao Zedong through four hundred and eighty-nine days and nights in his old age, becoming a witness to the last journey of Mao Zedong's life.
On the morning of National Day in 1975, Mao Zedong felt that his body was not as good as the day, leaned back on his bed to read, and said to himself: "This may be my last National Day, the last 'eleven'." ”
The nurse next to her, Meng Jinyun, vaguely heard Mao Zedong's words, and after a while, Mao Zedong looked at Xiao Meng and said again: "This may be my last 'eleven'!" ”
In fact, Chairman Mao was not afraid of death, and his view of death can be described as detached. At the age of sixty-six, he once said: "I may fall ill and die, or I may be shipwrecked on a flight or assassinated by Chiang Kai-shek's agents." But fear of death is also useless. The fear of death cannot prevent death, but only hastens it. He said: "I don't want to die, I want to witness the demise of imperialism." But if I have to die, I'm not afraid either. ”
When he heard Mao Zedong talk about death, Xiao Meng was very surprised and quickly said, "How is it possible?" The President should not think wildly. ”
Mao Zedong once again asked, "Why not?" What is nonsense? Who can not die? The president is no exception, in the face of death, everyone is equal, longevity is boundless, just idealism. ”
Looking at Mao Zedong joking, Xiao Meng breathed a sigh of relief and said: "Today is national day, it is a big day, the chairman should be happy, you don't always mention those who are dead and immortal." ”
Mao Zedong, on the other hand, said quietly, "Mengfuzi, I see that you are afraid of death." To say that I am afraid, at least it is a little idealism. Mao Zedong said, he held out the little thumb of his right hand, and said humorously: "This idealist, how do you know that I am not happy, the Day of National Day is a great joy, but we must also tell the truth, in this world, which moment is not in life, not in death!" That's called life and death, metabolism. ”
After a pause, Mao Zedong said, "At your age, it is really jealous, and I am afraid that at my age, you will feel the same way." ”
Meng Jinyun listened and replied very casually: "I have thought about this question, but I have not achieved anything in my life, my experience is unremarkable, and I don't know what to envy." President, when you were young, did you ever think about establishing a republic, to be president? ”
Mao Zedong listened, smiled and said, "I am not Liu Bowen, and I cannot predict the past and the future." At that time, I did not know what kind of republic to establish, nor did I think of what kind of chairman I wanted to be, at that time, I only thought of the rise and fall of the world and the responsibility of the puppet, in fact, think about it, I am not a puppet, many things are a matter of course. ”
Xiao Meng also said with great interest when he heard it: "Some people are arrogant and ignorant, and the youth of our literary and labor troupe are bent on rebellion and have great ambitions." ”
Mao Zedong said: "Our republic, which is not easy to come by, I don't know how many people have died, some people, some people are younger than you are now, teenagers, have never seen what a republic is like, and many people have not even left their names." Speaking of this, Mao Zedong's eyes were a little moist, and Xiao Meng looked at it and blamed himself, thinking that he should not say those words to make Mao Zedong sad.
Mao Zedong saw Xiao Meng's intentions and smiled: "What's going on, the eyes are cloudy?" ”
Xiao Meng hurriedly said, "Maybe what I just said shouldn't be said, but your body is still not emotionally good." ”
Chairman Mao smiled and said, "I have been stimulated all my life, and it is not necessarily bad to receive some stimulation." ”
The two sides talked and laughed, or pulled the topic back to the issue of death, Mao Zedong said frankly with great vigor: "Many people have not thought of this truth, people do not have a hundred years of life, but they have a thousand years of worry, many people have devoted their lives to some things that cannot be done, so that what can be done has not been done." The Qin Emperor and Han Wu both wanted to live forever and never die, and finally ended up with a 'Great Wall of Ten Thousand Miles is still there, not seeing the Qin Shi Huang of that year', in fact, everything is just a process, everything has a beginning and an end. ”
In fact, chairman Mao's classic saying about "death" in his later years is thought-provoking and intriguing. He said: "Don't always think that the world can't be without you, without your world, the earth will not turn? Is there no party? Do you think that when Zhang Butcher dies, others will have to eat pigs with hair? Don't worry about whose death, no matter whose death will not become a big loss. Marx, Engels, Lenin, Stalin, aren't they all dead? But the revolution continues. Mao Zedong did not have the slightest fear, firmly believing that "in the face of death, everyone is equal", "the intersection of life and death, metabolism", he always showed that he was a staunch materialist. Simply not being afraid of death is a kind of courage and dignity, but to be able to laugh at death in a philosophical view like Mao Zedong does require excellent eloquence and extraordinary life.
In 1976, Mao Zedong was eighty-three years old. Although it is well known that life and death are laws of nature and no one can escape, for Chinese who shout "long live" all day, 83 years old is too insignificant after all, although Mao Zedong has been seriously ill for seven or eight years.
But ordinary people, even senior Party cadres, could not understand the true state of Mao's health, and could only see his supreme instructions and speeches in documents or newspapers. Only from the TV and photos can they see his kind face, his burly posture, only that the lights in his office are not extinguished all night, he is working hard for the country and the people every day, and his body is very, very healthy...
Still, news of Mao's health reached society from within the Red Wall in Zhongnanhai. On April 30, 1976, Mao Zedong met with New Zealand Prime Minister Urden in his cluttered study. At that time, he appeared on the television screen, the usual ruddy face, energetic look, but a sluggish, old look, his bloated body leaning weakly on the large sofa, his mouth slightly open and closed, even the secretary wiped the corners of his mouth for him did not cut out. This was the first time that a television station had publicized Mao Zedong's image in an unprecedented way.
Three months later, at 3:42 a.m. on July 28, a 7.8-magnitude earthquake occurred in Tangshan, Fengnan and other places, and this strong earthquake affected Tianjin and Beijing. People's lives and property have suffered tremendous losses, especially Tangshan City has suffered devastating damage. The Tangshan earthquake brought great shock to Mao Zedong. Materialists believe in science, do not believe in destiny, and natural disasters will eventually make people's mood more depressed. It was as if an even greater misfortune was coming.
"The tree is like this. How can people be ashamed! ”
Unfortunate events occurred one after another, making Mao Zedong nostalgic for the past, and his sense of sadness and sadness became stronger and stronger. On this day, Mao Zedong asked his life secretary Zhang Yufeng to find out the "Dead Tree Endowment" by Ouyang Xin, a famous literary scholar during the Southern and Northern Dynasties.
Zhang Yufeng read while Mao Zedong chanted.
Because of the difficulty of speaking, Mao Zedong could not speak clearly and his voice was weak, but Zhang Yufeng could still hear his bitter chanting with experience.
The extreme clarity of mind, the extreme activity of brain cells, and the aging of the body form a huge contrast, resulting in a melancholy psychology. "Dead Tree Endowment" was written by the poet Yu Xin of the Southern and Northern Dynasties, which expresses the tragic heroic twilight years and reflects a lost mentality that is powerless to resist the laws of nature. The ideals, ambitions and careers of youth have become history. The martyrs are in their twilight years and their hearts are full of excitement. And the biological laws cannot be resisted! The more miserable the bitter groaning!
Under the doctor's instructions, Zhang Yufeng did not dare to let the old man be too emotional, and after saying a few more words, he persuaded him to stop.
On August 28, 1976, Li Min came to Zhongnanhai to visit missing his father. Mao Opened his eyes slightly, saw his daughter, held her hand for a long time, and used a vague language to say goodbye to the old.
He said, "Petite, why don't you come to see me?"
Li Min burst into tears and told him about being blocked, and Mao Zedong was greatly surprised when he heard it, saying, "Is there still this matter?" This is inappropriate and should be criticized. ”
Mao Zedong paused for a moment and said affectionately to Li Min: "Jiaojiao, you have to come to see me often, I miss you!" ”
"Good", Li Min said with tears: "We must remove the 'barbed wire' that has been erected." ”
Mao Zedong nodded, asked Li Min how old he was this year, and then shook Li Min's hand and closed his eyes and did not speak. After a long time, Li Min thought that his father was asleep, so he slowly took out his hand, who knows, Mao Zedong actually held his daughter's hand tightly, opened his tear-filled eyes, and slowly said Li Min's exact date of birth. As he spoke, Mao Zedong again connected the thumb of his right hand with his index finger and said something that could not be heard clearly. Isn't this circle the round character for Guiyuan (He Zizhen's nickname)? Mao Zedong was very sober at the time.
It is true that Mao Zedong was a great figure, and a great man had seven passions and six desires.
Since August, Mao Zedong has been in a coma several times.
On September 8, Secretary Meng Jinyun was on duty. At 7:10 p.m., Mao Began to gasp for breath. Seeing this, Meng Jinyun quickly lowered his head and massaged Mao Zedong's chest. Then the chairman said in a very weak voice, "I am very uncomfortable, please doctor." After that, Mao Zedong never said a word.
00:00 on September 9, 1976.
In Room 202 of Mao's residence, medical staff from the rescue team were working intensely. Viewed from the corridor, in the corridor passage from Mao's bedroom to the hall, the monitor screen shows Mao's heartbeat. A choppy curve sways in undulations. At that time, the members of the Standing Committee of the Politburo of the Central Committee, all the members of the Committee, and the staff next to Chairman Mao were quietly watching this curve on the screen.
At 0:10, the curve suddenly turns into a slightly fluttering straight line on the screen.
Moments passed, and the screen showed a straight line that was still shaking slightly...
Mao Zedong first stopped breathing, and then his heartbeat stopped again.
After a few minutes, the oxygen mask was removed, the ECG monitor was turned off, and all rescue work stopped. Within ten minutes, the doctors were evacuated, and the Politburo members and their families were gone.
Wang Dongxing and Zhang Yaoci told Meng Jinyun and Zhang Yufeng to stay and sort out the chairman's relics. Meng Jinyun picked up the 9 documents that the chairman finally approved on the small table next to the bed and put them in the document bag. She picked up the book, which was still open, and closed it gently. After that, she folded the chair's last changed clothes and pants neatly on the table at the head of the bed. There, Meng Jinyun found a thick anthology of Lu Xun, and she flipped through it a few times and found that it contained a letter, which Li Min had written to Mao Zedong, a letter that was not in the envelope.
As a daughter, she has the right to enjoy her father's love in the arms of her father. But as the president's daughter, she couldn't enjoy it all because her father was so great. In a short letter, although he left his father's residual and gentle gaze, he could no longer get a frank communication with his father, nor could he get his father's kind teaching and advice to him. For Li Min, what kind of resentment should it be?
At this time, the chairman's bedroom was silent, the usual constant temperature of 23 ° C has dropped to 0 ° C, the air conditioner blows a gust of wind across the wide corner of the bedroom, and the hanging curtains of white silk are blown up and down by the wind. Never before had there been such a strong wind in the Chairman's room, adding to the silence.
Meng Jinyun looked intently at Mao Zedong lying on the wooden bed, he was resting in peace forever, today's quiet lying posture is different from the past, no longer lying on the left and right, but lying on his back, appearing so calm.
Although Mao Zedong's life experience shook space and swallowed up time; although he had extraordinary military talent and political talent; although his name would still flash after his death, after his death, it was still so quiet, there was no fierce wind, no rain, no mountain roaring tsunami, and the ground shaking. A big man, an earth-shattering, big man, walked very quietly.