Dear Baby,
With the help and love of so many well-meaning people, you must be strong and brave to overcome this difficult time, and your parents believe in you. You can definitely overcome the disease. Come on! My baby! I love you! Today is Valentine's Day, and this is a "love letter" that I wrote tearfully to my 4-year-old son, Bai Jiarui. Because I don't know if he can get through this time, and whether he will have a chance to spend Valentine's Day with me in 2023.
My name is Guo Baoju and I have a happy family of four. The eldest son is 14 years old, diligent and studious, and is loved by teachers and classmates. The old saying, "The boss is thick, the second is naughty" Is not wrong at all. This year's 4-year-old young son can speak the Tao, and his small mouth is like smearing honey, which is the "pistachio" of our whole family. My husband runs a business in a building materials company, I work with my children, and although life is hard, I feel tired and happy. Watching the children grow up day by day, we have both been striving for a better future. But such a peaceful life was completely disillusioned after the youngest son, Bai Jiarui, was diagnosed with acute leukemia.
Since my son fell ill in March last year, I have been struggling for almost a year. In the past 300 days, I don't know how I survived, how many tears I have shed, how many times I have experienced heartache, and the needles that my son has pierced, the bone wear, and the waist wear have been countless. On the day his son fell ill, he said he had a headache and found many bruises and purple dots on his body. I took him to the local hospital, where the doctor had a blood routine, and I didn't expect to have a nightmare that awaited me.
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After the test results came out, the doctor called me to the office. When the doctor said you should be mentally prepared, I began to realize the seriousness of the matter, the brain was blank, and I only remembered the sentence floating overhead: Judging from the child's examination results, it can be determined that it is leukemia. I was sitting in the corridor of the hospital with my child in my arms, crying heart out. Helplessness, fear, heartache, despair surrounded me like a flood, as if someone had strangled me by the throat and gasped for breath. The doctor comforted: "At this time, parents must be calm." You must go to the big hospital immediately, the child's illness cannot be delayed, his blood picture is very low, and it will endanger his life at any time. Hearing these four words that are life-threatening, my head began to become clear, and I warned myself in my heart: "I want to be a strong mother, and I must set a good example for my children." ”
We found our nephew who worked in Jinan by chance, asked him to seize the time to register the child in Jinan Provincial Hospital, rented a car and sent us to Jinan. When I arrived at the hospital, it was early in the morning, and because my son began to have a fever on the road, he was directly sent to the rescue room. Listening to my son, who had never been shot before, crying heart-rending, my husband and I cried outside the ward with a headache and couldn't sleep all night. After a second examination, the child was still diagnosed with leukemia. My heart was completely crushed.
Nowadays, my son has caused various reactions because of chemotherapy, high fever, diarrhea, and body pain, I see pain in my eyes and heart. What I will never forget is that every time a child does a bone piercing, the hospital stipulates that patients can only go in by themselves. Every time my son cried inside, crying and crying, "Mom, I hurt, I hurt...". I never expected my son to go through such a big torture, it was still a child less than four years old! Whenever this happens, I crouch outside the door and cry. The child came out without saying a word and closed his eyes, a look that I will never forget, and whenever I think about it, I can't breathe. I have asked myself countless times whether it was right or wrong to give birth to him? If I knew he was going to endure so much torture and pain, I would really have preferred he had never been there.
After half a year of suffering, when we thought it was all going to end, the assessment of the treatment showed that the child's genes did not turn around. This means that the child's early chemotherapy is not working, and a bone marrow transplant is necessary to have hope. At that moment, my tears couldn't stop flowing, asking God why it was so unfair? We are about to see the dawn, and all of a sudden we are beaten back to hell.
After many inquiries, we came to Beijing Kyoto Children's Hospital and matched the children. After doing various pre-transplant tests, the doctor told us that the entire transplant cost about 500,000 yuan, which was not followed by rejection and treatment. Hearing this news, my heart is like a knife, because of the early treatment fee, we have sold cars and houses, ruined, relatives and friends have almost exhausted the money borrowed, what about the next treatment fee? To have no money is to cut off our son's life, but in the face of this lovely, vivid little life, how can we give up? The sick and the heartless have love in the world, please ask the loving you to give the child a chance to be born again. If you want to help this child, please contact the author.