"Love really takes courage to face gossip, and as long as you have a look of affirmation, my love has meaning." 」
We all need courage to believe that we will be together, crowded, I can feel you, put in the palm of my hand, your heart."
In 2000, Liang Jingru's song "Courage" came out, which became popular with Xiao Shushen, the "super beautiful girl of the universe under eighteen years old" in the MV.
Her appearance is pure and harmless, and she is called "otaku goddess" by the people of Taiwan, but her personality is far from being as "pure" as her appearance.
At the age of 17, Xiao Shushen became a well-known "little sister", who could speak with her fists and never open her mouth to communicate.
Even her unexpected fame stemmed from a sideways kick.
From her debut to her popularity, Xiao Shushen only took 3 years.
Probably related to 3, a generation of goddesses, she has committed suicide three times and gone to prison three times.
Why can such a bad actress return to the big screen at the age of 44.
Behind Xiao Shushen's destruction of life, what kind of untold secrets are hidden?
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="10" > Xiao Shushen's bumpy upbringing. </h1>
In 1976, a beautiful baby girl was born to a poor family in Taiwan.
The parents looked at the child's beautiful face and big sparkling eyes and named her Xiao Shushen.
I hope that this beautiful daughter can take care of the beautiful at the same time, virtuous and virtuous, humble and quiet.
Xiao Shushen as a child is indeed like this, cute and beautiful, well-behaved and obedient.
When she was 14 years old, due to family circumstances, she had to buy betel nuts for a living.
Beautiful and lovely, she can earn a lot of income every day.
With a beautiful face, Siu Shushen is known as "Betel Nut Xishi".
Many people go to buy her betel nut not for their own sake, but more to see this beautiful girl.
Life was peaceful and beautiful, and the family, though poor, was happy enough.
However, with the breakdown of her parents' feelings, the daily quarrels and fights made Xiao Shushen's headaches.
It is said that parents are the best teachers for children, and their words and deeds can profoundly affect their children's behavior.
Xiao Shushen developed a violent personality in the daily fights and fights, often using force to solve problems.
At that time, when she was in school, some boys saw that Xiao Shushen was beautiful and often harassed her.
Facing a boy who was half a head taller than himself, Xiao Shushen showed no mercy and threw the other party to the ground without a word.
After fighting, the people in the school did not dare to provoke Xiao Shushen and regarded her as a |" Campus Witch".
What makes the whole school afraid is not just because Xiao Shu is cautious.
A bigger part of it is because Xiao Shushen was closely related to a "big brother" in society at that time, and she will definitely have a lot of trouble.
At first, Xiao Shu cautiously recognized that the "big brother" was just self-protection, and gradually changed her intentions.
Often take the lead in provoking trouble, and what is often done is to see girls dragged to the corner and beaten up badly.
Even sometimes, Xiao Shushen will openly rob other people's boyfriends on campus, and if the other party resists, it will still be a fat beating.
Xiao Shushen, who was only a teenager, could not count the number of boyfriends during her studies.
The number of girls who have been violently abused by her school is innumerable.
In addition to fighting, Xiao Shushen's favorite thing to do is to attend a party after school.
Follow the "big brother of society" to some "high-class parties" and experience the feeling of a drunken fan in the smoke.
At that time, at the party, more people gathered to suck D, and the intoxicated expression on their faces after taking a deep breath made Xiao Shushen very curious.
Since the age of 17, Xiao Shushen has been wandering in such a "stimulating party" for four years.
At that time, she did not think about her future, only wanted to squander her youth.
But the hand of fate took care of Xiao Shushen and gave her a century of good luck.
In 1997, Siu Shushen came to the song hall as usual and swung her body to the sound of music.
At this moment, the girl in front of her stepped on her foot, and just as she was about to jump again, the man stepped on her again.
Listening to the restless music, Xiao Shushen's mood also became restless.
She grabbed the other person by the hair and asked the other party to apologize to herself.
But it is clear that the girls who come to the dance hall will more or less have one or two "big brothers" behind them.
The girl looked at Xiao Shu's cautious and commanding look, and resolutely did not bow her head and apologize.
Xiao Shushen looked at the big brothers behind the other party who were "looking at the tiger", and took out her mobile phone to call her "big brother".
"Come on, I'm in a hurry!"
There was a sound of drinking and guessing fists, and the other party laughed and said that he couldn't get over.
Xiao Shushen didn't say much, hung up the phone and flew up, kicking the girl in front of her to the ground.
Many people in the dance hall looked at Xiao Shushen, who was heroic and cheerful, and actually clapped.
Xiao Shushen's deeds became an interesting story in the dance hall that day, attracting many at the same time, but also attracting a scout who saw the whole process.
He repeatedly recalled Xiao Shushen's heroic and cool appearance, and stopped Xiao Shushen when she was about to leave the song hall.
"I'm a scout, I think your image and temperament are very cool, maybe you can choose to shoot."
Xiao Shushen looked up and down and casually asked for the remuneration for filming.
After learning that the income was very large, she decided decisively to enter the entertainment industry and make a lot of money.
Just after entering the entertainment industry, Xiao Shushen became the apprentice of musicians Li Weisong and Li Weisong with her excellent appearance.
The phrase "good development with a backer" can be called Xiao Shushen's motto.
From finding a "big brother" when reading, to recognizing a "master" in the entertainment industry, Xiao Shushen's card has been beaten well.
Some people praised Xiao Shushen, who participated in a lot of MV shooting.
Even the MV of the Four Heavenly Kings Andy Lau has her figure, which shows how famous Xiao Shushen was at that time.
At the dawn of the 21st century, this is the day of Siu Shu's good fortune.
She not only participated in the MV shooting of Liang Jingru's "Courage", but also shot an excellent film and television work.
While gaining fame, Xiao Shushen also won the Best Supporting Actress Award at the Taiwan Golden Horse Awards.
In the MV, with the pure and bold Xiao Xiao, he and Xiao Shushen successfully became a household name "goddess" and had the life and fame that others dreamed of.
Subsequently, Xiao Shushen obeyed the master's arrangement, began to sing, shoot dramas, and gradually became an all-powerful goddess.
She earned a lot of money, but she lost the happiness she once had.
As a well-known artist, not only will his words and deeds be published in newspapers, but even his life will be monitored by some paparazzi.
Xiao Shushen, who has always pursued freedom, will only use violence to solve this situation in the face of this situation, and eventually suffer from bipolar disorder.
"In fact, I wanted to quit the entertainment industry at the peak of my career, and I was not good at dealing with the media or dealing with interpersonal relationships."
"At that time I was very unkind to the media, the media was also very unkind to me, and when they were not friendly to each other, they saw that I was uncomfortable, and I hated them, and it was very painful at that time."
In a later interview, Xiao Shushen described her state at that time.
In the midst of her deep depression, a boy came to her rescue on a white horse, and this boy was Lei Kai.
The two met in "Soldier in the Wind", and the 23-year-old Lei Kai fell deeply in love with the 29-year-old Xiao Shushen.
Because of the drama, it was natural to talk about love.
This relationship can be called Xiao Shushen's life-saving straw, she clutched this grass deadly, and wantonly "showed off" her love.
In order to show the warmth of the feelings between the two sides, Xiao Shushen also tattooed the word "Lei" on her neck, implying her unswerving love for Lei Kai to death.
And Lei Kai, who was a young maniac, also tattooed the word "Shushen" under his navel.
In the dimly lit room, the shadows of two people are stretched very long, and madness is synonymous with their love.
Probably at that time, Xiao Shushen and Lei Kai loved too thoroughly, and threw their entire body and mind into this sister-brother relationship that was six years apart.
Love is vigorous, crazy and unbridled.
But everything in the world is always the opposite, and too much love means that the greater the blow when separated.
When the two returned to the flat period, they gradually discovered the difference in personality concepts.
Two people who grew up in different environments will exhaust their passion in the common life.
Lei Kai really can't stand Xiao Shushen, who loves almost crazy, and proposes to her to break up, ending this abnormal love.
Xiao Shushen, who has not been treated sincerely since childhood, is heartbroken but has nowhere to vent when she learns that her only boyfriend who has loved her deeply is leaving.
At this time, she thought of the intoxicated look she had seen in the bright and green environment, and began to numb herself with D products.
In the smoke, Xiao Shushen seemed to return to the 14-year-old, the simple girl in front of the betel nut stall on the street stood obediently, and the days were calm and happy.
Because love is still the unknown future
The mood relaxes and swings away from you three hundred meters away
Count your heartbeats and wait for all thoughts to be thrown away
Lock in and come in this beautiful sadness
This is love, that is, love that the whole world does not understand
The mood stops swinging three hundred meters away from you
Feeling hungry requires you to fill in the blanks
Lock in this beautiful sadness
This is love, it's love, only you understand
Probably only Lin Junjie's "Killer" can express Xiao Shushen's situation at that time, and she personally "killed" her former self under the erosion of D product.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="37" > unrepentant Xiao Shushen</h1>
"I often walk by the river where there are not wet shoes", Xiao Shushen was arrested by the police after smoking D products for a period of time.
In just a few months, Xiao Shushen's amount of D product has reached more than 60 times the standard amount, which can be called "poison queen".
As soon as this news was broadcast, "Xiao Shu cautiously sucked D" became the headline of the magazine.
Many media rushed to Xiao Shushen's doorstep, hoping to get the most cutting-edge news.
And Xiao Shushen saw the smiling faces of these hidden knives, and bipolar disorder once again lived in her sanity.
"Flash away, have you filmed enough?"
Reporters are naturally not happy to be scolded like this, and Xiao Shushen's portrayal of Xiao Shushen in the report is incomprehensible, and her image is also greatly damaged.
At that time, the system in Taiwan Province was not perfect, and smoking D was not sentenced, and Xiao Shushen was only taken to a detention center for 49 days of drug rehabilitation.
Xiao Shushen, who left the free environment, was not afraid, and she said with some pride that she would definitely come back, anyway, she would change the environment and live for a few days.
At that time, she did not realize that D pin was wrong, and only felt that D pin was a "good medicine" to save herself.
And he was caught only because of bad luck, coupled with taking too much "medicine".
But after entering the prison, she quickly collapsed.
Life in prison is extremely regular, and every activity has a strict system, which is the biggest nightmare for Xiao Shushen, who has not followed the rules since childhood.
Whenever relatives come to visit, Xiao Shushen will shout to her parents, "Quickly save me out, I can't stay for a moment!" ”
But the rules of society do not mean that change is changed, and Xiao Shushen has not been "saved" after all.
Unable to do so, she followed her father's advice and began to read books and calm her mind.
But books are powerless to change Xiao Shushen's mania, even if you read more books, it is like passing through the horse and flowers without leaving a trace.
In the end, Xiao Shushen still needed to endure hard and wait for the end of the 49 days.
Finally, in early 2007, Xiao Shushen successfully walked out of the detention center and regained her freedom.
Even if Xiao Shushen fell sharply because of the fame of sucking D, there are still many people looking for her to shoot.
Soon, she starred in "He Tie Hand" in "Green Blood Sword", using her own charm to create this role into three points, once again returning to the position of the public's favorite artist.
Maybe fame went too smoothly, or maybe Xiao Shushen's luck was so good that she wouldn't have learned her lesson from the last time she smoked D.
At the end of 2007, he was arrested by the police again for smoking D.
In the interview, she said: "Since everyone thinks I'm a waste, then I'll continue to rot!" ”
Although fans will sympathize with Siu ShuShen, the upright police will not.
Xiao Shushen returned to her familiar place again after a year, this time she was sentenced to one year and seven months in prison.
However, because the D product smoked is not a D product strictly controlled by the state, the sentence is suspended for four years.
I thought that Xiao Shushen could correct her mistakes this time, but she still made mistakes again and again, and went farther and farther down the road of "poison queen".
During the probation period, Xiao Shushen participated in the filming of "Woman Fragrance", but before she could turn the plate against the wind, she overturned the car again.
In 2009, Xiao Shushen, whose fame gradually recovered, was arrested again for smoking D products.
After consultations between various political and legal departments, xiao Shushen, a public figure, was convicted of the crime of smoking the state's second-level D product three times and was sentenced to prison for one year and seven months.
Xiao Shushen, who once lived alone in a large villa, could only live in a six-room cell in prison.
Even when she took a shower and went to the toilet, she would attract a lot of people to watch, and dignity was not available at that time.
Xiao Shushen completely collapsed, almost every time her family came to visit the prison, 28 minutes of the 30-minute phone call was Xiao Shushen's insults.
She attributed the treatment she suffered in prison to not having a deep background, and not having a rich and powerful father to fish herself out.
Although Xiao Shushen's father is unable to rescue his daughter, he can come to see her more and comfort her daughter, who has become a "wasted person".
Xiao Shushen's wayward "drug use" has brought great turmoil to the originally peaceful family.
Her father was in the ascendancy of his career, but was suspended because of the "Siu Shu Shen Sucking D Incident".
Xiao Shushen's younger brother and mother both lost their jobs because of this incident and became the laughing stock of the public.
The Chinese nation has an ancient adage: again and again, not again.
Xiao Shushen, who sucked D three times, completely destroyed her favorability and degenerated from the original "otaku goddess" to a "Taiwan poison queen".
Kong Shangren's "Peach Blossom Fan" has such a sentence: Seeing him rise up a tall building, seeing him feast on guests, seeing his building collapse.
Xiao Shushen escaped from the bottom of life and finally became a star standing in the spotlight.
She carries a body of glory and receives countless praises.
But he could not stand the temptation of "poison" and eventually went to the road of self-destruction.
Although later, Xiao Shushen's company hoped that Xiao Shushen could return to her original position, it was ultimately wishful thinking.
The single "Splash" released, although it is good, does not have much repercussions.
Xiao Shushen's appearance has also become a "ghost look" with deep eye sockets because of sucking D, and once a staunch supporter has also taken off the powder.
In the end, Xiao Shushen had to "make dangerous moves" and attributed her mistake of sucking D to psychological problems.
"The doctor said I have 550 personalities and I'm currently taking medication on time."
Such absurd remarks have actually been believed by many people.
Fans also defended Xiao Shushen: "Sucking D is not her intention, it is just the behavior of her other personalities." ”
Compared to Zheng Shuang's "crazy demon" behavior, Xiao Shushen is even better!
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="57" > Xiao Shushen committed suicide three times and fought cancer with her little boyfriend</h1>
"Crazy Zheng Shuang" can only be regarded as an "appetizer" compared to Xiao Shushen's behavior, after all, Xiao Shushen's behavior is "deadly".
When Xiao Shushen first debuted, all the "campus small three incidents" she had once had were pulled out.
And Xiao Shushen, who just debuted and lived in a mansion, naturally became the target of attack by the media, and the rich were raised and spread all over the world.
Xiao Shushen couldn't stand the gossip and explained: "The mansion was given by a rich man from the countryside, but I didn't look at him. ”
At this point, public opinion has become more intense.
After all, the rich will not be a mansion for no reason.
In the end, Xiao Shushen swallowed more than 150 sleeping pills and committed suicide at home.
Coincidentally, her girlfriend arrived in time to save the dying Xiao Shushen.
But after returning from the ghost gate, Xiao Shushen did not cherish her life, and soon after she began her second suicide.
At that time, Xiao Shushen's father liked a Rolex watch, worth more than one million.
And and Xiao Shushen's boyfriend at the time, Lei Kai, proposed a birthday gift hoping that this watch was.
However, at Xiao Shushen's father's birthday party, Lei Kai did not send this watch, but sent a watch of more than 800,000 yuan.
The old man, who felt his face was brushed, had a seizure in front of his daughter and slammed the watch on the ground.
He also scolded his daughter for not filial piety, and stomped Xiao Shushen's dignity on the ground and rubbed it.
The more angry Xiao Shushen chose to cut her wrists and commit suicide, fortunately, she was once again rescued in a pool of blood.
Since then, Xiao Shushen's solution to the problem has become suicide.
Xiao Shushen, who committed suicide for the third time, has her own reasons and external reasons.
At that time, Xiao Shushen opened a clothing store, and the agents of big and small S often came to borrow clothes.
As the boss, Siu Shushen has been "borrowed" for a long time, and complained in an interview that the two sisters only borrowed and did not buy, and looked down on Ximending goods.
The speaker has no intention, the listener intends.
Fans on both sides had a dispute over this matter, and Xiao Shushen was often harassed by the fans of the other side.
Her heart was already twisted, and she finally couldn't help but cut her wrists and commit suicide.
When she was rescued, Xiao Shushen was already lying in a pool of blood, and the doctor stitched dozens of stitches for her.
People like Xiao Shushen need a partner who can accompany her for a long time.
Only enough love could warm her manic heart and heal her scarred heart.
In 2017, Xiao Shushen and her little boyfriend who had just known each other for a year flashed marriage, and was suspected of interfering in each other's families.
But at that time, Xiao Shushen did not care about the outside world's remarks, and she boldly took her boyfriend to show her love, just like a little girl.
During that period, Xiao Shu's cautious expression was natural, and there were not too many "strange behaviors".
Many people commented that Xiao Shushen's final medicine was her boyfriend who was 15 years younger.
"All the gifts of fate have long been clearly marked in secret."
In the second year of harvesting a perfect marriage, Xiao Shushen was diagnosed with malignant tumors and duodenal cancer.
In the arduous process of treatment, the boyfriend of 15 years younger has been with him, and finally touched the disease by love.
In 2020, Xiao Shushen removed many organs such as the duodenum, spleen, and stomach on her body.
In the end, he escaped from the hands of the god of death and regained his life.
Although in the process of treatment, Xiao Shushen spent her years of savings, she gained an optimistic attitude.
Determined to work hard with her boyfriend in the next few days to make money by filming and creating a better life together.
"Good and evil will eventually be rewarded", Xiao Shushen finally paid for her previous absurd behavior.