Joseph Pangmerang, a name that is about to be forgotten.
Last week, a hot search brought him back into the public eye.
Agent Bai Xiao mentioned in a selfie video:
Pang Mai Lang has been forcibly admitted to a psychiatric hospital, the cause of which is schizophrenia.
Many lamented this.
Back seven years ago, a song "My Skate Shoes" swept the Internet.
For a time, a huge controversy ensued.
Many people think that the song is completely out of tune, rough and ugly.
But this does not prevent it from becoming a ghost animal divine comedy that has spread all over the country.
"My skate shoes are the most fashionable."
"Rub, rub on this smooth ground."
Seeing the lyrics, did you hum in your heart?
Unfortunately, Pang Meilang's heat did not last forever.
The label of "beam-jumping clown" has long been attached to him.
Even this time when I entered the mental hospital, there was still a lot of criticism mixed with the blessing of "early recovery".
This also makes many people who are not familiar with him wonder:
Did Pang Mai Lang do something wrong?
Is it just because he sings a song that is almost out of tune, or because he speaks with a Shaanxi accent and says he is Taiwanese?
Of course, it's not just negative.
Someone has always been a fan of him and supports him from the bottom of his heart.
They thought pangmalang's songs were real enough and represented the voices of small-town youth.
Broker Bai Xiao directly said:
"I saw in him the shadow of Mr. Van Gogh. 」
When Uncle Yu saw this news, he was also full of emotions.
In my opinion, he is both a victim of the entertainment company's hype and star-making, and represents the dream-shattering road that countless small-town youth have experienced.
Today, I want to use a documentary from three years ago to talk about this eccentric singer.
"Dreams and Roads- Small Town Youth Two-Sided Life"
The documentary consists of 3 episodes.
Listed with Pang Mai Lang are Fan Yusu, the child-rearing sister-in-law who is on fire in the autobiographical novel, and the ubiquitous group of visual youth killers of Matt.
They all came from the township.
Without any background, with the ambition of counterattack,
It was also really because of a chance that it exploded on the Internet.
But this is only a flash in the pan after all.
They eventually realized their smallness and had to return to their townships.
Accept reality.
However, it is still unwilling.
Today we will mainly talk about one of the episodes about Pang Mai Lang.
Joseph Pang Mai Lang, whose real name is Pang Mingtao, was born in Ningqiang County, Hanzhong City, Shaanxi Province.
But he did not say that he was from Ningqiang County, but from Keelung in Taiwan.
Later, another way of saying it.
He created a completely new territory of his own, calling Shaanxi "Mengalatu", Hanzhong "Gasbeek", and Ning Qiang "Gulag".
It even refers to Beijing as "Josério de Josério."
It was a parallel world of his own.
An episode of a documentary in less than half an hour mainly tracks one thing:
Pang Mailang returned to Beijing for concerts.
In 2014, after half a year of popularity, he had a dispute with a former brokerage company.
He felt cheated.
Despite all the contracts, he fled Beijing.
For the next three years, I never thought of going back.
He wanted to succeed on his own.
But contrary to expectations, all kinds of negative news have not gone away.
In the eyes of the people, he became a clown full of lies and absurd arrogance.
Later, Bai Xiaobai (i.e. Bai Xiao above) found him.
Trying to help him make a comeback, he planned his first concert in Hangzhou.
In order to get more opportunities, Bai Xiaobai tried to persuade Pang Mailang to make a trip to Beijing.
Of course, the concert he said was not the kind of crowded venue in the Workers' Stadium.
It's a solo show in a small livehouse.
It can accommodate up to hundreds of people.
Unfortunately, the entire performance process was not publicized by large economic companies.
Almost only by Bai Xiaobai and his friends in Beijing.
Pre-sale box office, only less than 30 copies.
Bai Xiaobai did not want to extinguish Pang Mailang's enthusiasm.
Because before heading to Beijing, the latter had rekindled his self-confidence.
He was hot-headed, scrappy, and felt like a rock star, Marilyn Manson.
"As a dancer, if there is moonlight, we will dance."
"Am I a ghost—"
Call me a singer, that's it.
The reality is very bone-chilling.
At the beginning of the journey, we saw that the two were financially stretched.
Can't afford a high-speed rail ticket, can only book a train at 11 o'clock at night.
Sit in Beijing for 16 hours straight, and only sleep for 2 hours in between.
In the words of Bai Xiaobai:
It was so bitter that it almost broke me down.
After arriving in Beijing, the two ran for 5 hours to find a hotel.
Keep comparing prices and just want to find the cheaper ones.
Bai Xiaobai also admitted that it is difficult to meet daily expenses by performing alone, and increasing revenue has become a top priority.
The two discussed other revenue options with friends in Beijing.
And this business blueprint must revolve around Pang Mai Lang.
He even considered opening a walnut bun shop and making it his own brand.
With funding, you can further realize your musical dreams.
It was the day of the show.
The three of them headed to the venue with great anticipation, encouraging each other along the way.
At this time, Pang Mai Lang showed some nervousness.
Far less relaxed than before taking the train.
The venue looks unremarkable.
And Pang Mai Lang could not afford to ask the band to accompany him, and he was the only one on the stage.
The background music relies on Bai Xiaobai to play the accompaniment recording in the back.
During the rehearsal, every time he sang, he was not on the point of the music.
Near the performance, the audience began to enter the stage one after another.
Almost all of them are fans of Pang Mailang, and many people have also given good reviews:
"The lyrics are still a bit level."
"No matter what the outside world sounds, I am particularly confident."
"I remembered something from my childhood."
When the performance officially began, Pang MaiLang wore a bright red suit and took to the stage.
Dozens of spectators stood sparsely offstage, cheering and applauding him.
At this moment, Pang Mai Lang changed from a small-town youth to a singer.
"Thank you all for coming to see my first concert in Beijing."
There weren't too many greetings, and after a simple greeting, the performance was directly started.
The first song Pang Mai Lang sang was "Old Metal".
This is a song he wrote after becoming popular, under the circumstances of great criticism.
The song was filled with anger and confusion in his heart.
It was fitting to use it as the first song back to Beijing to fight back against the city that had hurt him.
The lyrics sing like this:
I want to tell the world that I only believe in the truth
We believe in truth;
We need facts, not right and wrong
Come and shout together
……
Everyone's eyes were incredulous
All the words of all are about me
I guess I don't care
I don't like the sound, I don't want to release it again
I didn't like the humility, and I didn't want to go on
Pang Mai Lang's songs are always ridiculed as "poetry recitation".
The lyrics are actually OK, but there is no tone at all.
Some people say that his song is like Zuo Xiaozu's mantra that is also unable to find the tune.
Zuo Xiao generously admitted that Pang Mailang's songs were better than his.
As soon as Pang Mai Lang started singing, he immediately threw himself into it.
On stage, he sang selflessly in Mandarin with a rural accent, and his body swung freely.
Singing to the fullest, fans still harmonize with him.
If nothing else, the atmosphere is really in place.
After the first song was sung, someone from the audience shouted "Cow X".
Hearing such affirmations, Pang Meilang on the stage was obviously already hi.
He believes that this is also the successful reward for his perseverance in his musical dreams.
But sporadic applause was far from enough to sustain his dream.
The performance earned a total of 4300 yuan, deducting the venue fee, and they only got 1500 yuan.
Still in Beijing, Pang Mailang once again felt injustice.
"This concert is dead set on the ground."
He patted his partner and said it.
"Are you still coming?"
Bai Xiaobai did not respond, but his friend took over the stubble.
"Come, next time, someone will ask you."
She relayed some of the audience's positive comments.
Words are the truth, but more of them are comfort and encouragement to Pang Mailang.
"A lot of people say you're his idol."
Is Pang Mai Lang an idol?
Many people saw in him the light of the counterattack of the small town youth.
But Pang Mai Lang did not care about this, he was more concerned about the naïve and paranoid musical dream in his heart.
The two said no more and hurried to catch the last subway ride back to the hotel.
At the end of the film, Bai Xiaobai asks Pang Mai Lang how to give up his dream.
He thought about it for a while before he said slowly:
"Unless... Unless you die."
Now when Pang Mailang is mentioned again, many people directly call him "Internet celebrity".
Behave strangely and sensationalize.
But why is he still on fire?
At that time, "My Skate Shoes" was able to sweep the country, and there was certainly a capital behind it.
Packaging, marketing, buying hot search...
At the same time, it is also indispensable to the curiosity of the public.
The strong grassroots smell and sense of absurdity in him just satisfies the counter-mainstream consciousness in many people's hearts.
The truth is that people are more suspicious of his origins and true personality than they are about his music.
Pang Mailang on the Internet has long been described by the media as "arrogant and uninhabited".
In private, although he always speaks wildly, he is more of a simple and sincere appearance.
Pang Mai Lang's fire is what many small-town youths yearn for.
And his fall is full of the fateful taste of sighing.
As Bai Xiaobai said:
"When you really want to think about whether this person has your own shadow, he has your shadow." 」
Last year, he published a self-report on Weibo about "After Becoming Famous.".
I look back on how I felt after I became famous at that time.
He said:
"Then, all the negative news came at me, I was very scared, I always felt that I would be arrested, so I tried my best to escape, I was hiding, I was afraid of this society, afraid of meeting those people again!" 」
It is undeniable that after he became popular, the psychology of expansion and fear intertwined.
He has lost himself and constantly made countless jokes for people to joke about.
Media, companies, brokers...
Everyone is looking at and portraying this small-town youth who has become popular overnight in their own way and for their own purposes.
In fact, as bystanders, we cannot distinguish between true and false.
Pang Mai Lang could not do anything about this.
He said in the documentary that he can only hope that those negative effects can pass and let everyone have a new understanding of him.
At the same time as speaking, the hands are constantly in the air, revealing panic and cramping.
In the face of ridicule and insults from the outside world, it is still difficult to hide the loss in my heart.
Only when it comes to music is he confident.
Always emphasize their artist identity, emphasize that their music is novel and unprecedented.
He hopes to bring good music to his fans, as well as good-looking shows.
That's what he should do as a singer, and it must do.
It was also a dream he would never give up.
"Make music, be an artist."
In the eyes of many people, Pang Mai Lang is talented.
He can express his heart with the help of words.
However, he has never received a professional music education and is limited by basic musical literacy.
The clumsy and inflexible voice inadvertently seems to hit people's hearts with the purest sincerity.
Is it genius, or a clown.
No one can say for sure.
What is certain is that to this day, Pang Mingtao is still a nameless person.
People only know the controversial Pang Mai Lang and his weird skate shoe song.
In fact, he later released many songs with the help of Bai Xiaobai.
It's just not as hot as the first one.
Among them, there is a very tender slow song "Where I will stay", and Uncle Yu is very impressed.
The song reads:
It was one night, and I left my hometown
It was a night, and I was at the end of the Cape
Can you tell me how far away the future and reality I envision?
Can you tell me if the future I'm looking forward to has shifted?
I don't know which harbor my heart is anchored in
I don't know if my heart will ever come back
Apparently, he knew himself well in the song and knew he would never go back.
There is no way to return to normal life, and there is no way to reach the top.
Falling into madness seems to be the only ending.
Someone asked who had driven him crazy.
But perhaps, he took the initiative to meet all this.
In the eyes of others, madness may be a disease.
In his eyes, madness is still a struggle.
With madness, he seemed to be able to have courage.
To continue to resist his own smallness and humility, and this world that he could not understand.