Hearing the feeling of this song, Dai Yutong's "Late"

Hearing this song reminds me of him in high school. In fact, the xiangqin in reality is not liked by anyone, right? It's stupid and slow, and it looks average.

This life has hurt a boy who is full of my eyes, I remember reading that time, this boy and I were at the same table, the relationship was not very good at the beginning, and I went closer to another boy, although I knew that I liked each other, but at that time high school did not dare to fall in love, and did not dare to confess, because I was a girl who looked very grinning, but she was actually a very shy and very homely girl, and the grade was within 25 in the class, so there was still some self-pity, because there were too many people who were better than me. Fear of rejection for everything.

I began to pay attention to him at the same table, I remember there was a small accident, that is, I came, and then the class was not good to ask for leave, and it was the class teacher's class, I held it until the end of the class, thinking that it would be more than 10 minutes to insist on it, and when I saw that the chair had a little red after class, I casually threw the bag on it, thinking of coming back to deal with it, and then a look let my classmate walk behind me to block me to go to the bathroom, and when I came back, I took the clothes tied to the waist and blocked the pants, and when I was ready to deal with the things on the chair, I found that it was not there, But the same table sat in his place and did not go out, he looked at me at that time, in fact, he and I understood that he had dealt with it, at that time he was actually afraid that he would laugh at me, laugh with other boys and look at me like other girls, but he didn't, he was very mature and sensible, at that moment he found that he was so white, so tall, and his eyes were so gentle...

Once in physical education class, the teacher just said disbanded, a few girls in the third class came over and blocked me behind the flowers, saying that my relationship with the table was not very good, whether he liked me, I was afraid and anxious, I knew that I was going to be beaten, because I personally witnessed them beating other students, and then the mouth kept saying, No, I will not like him, if you like I can help you chase ah, can help you pass letters (because then we don't have mobile phones, at most we go to the Internet café after school to put on the Q buckle, even so, Not everyone dares to go up, because being met by classmates or teachers is to be invited to parents), and then the leading girl said this is good, that said you have to help me catch up with him, and then please eat candy. After returning to the classroom, he just looked at me at the same table and prepared to say something, so I yelled over, don't talk to me, don't say anything later. He was shocked by what was wrong with his expression, and then said, what's wrong? I said, "What's wrong?" "Do you know that today because of you, I was almost K by a few girls in class 3, and just ten minutes after the gym class was disbanded, they pulled me into the flowers... They like you to do something about me, I really don't think you're good, if they like it, they chase after me, why do they want to beat me, and the position is the teacher who transferred you over and I don't have to sit with you (although I know that saying these words is very hurtful, but I just don't want to have anything to do with him, I'm afraid of being beaten again) and then look at him with an angry look, I can't manage so much, maybe I'm selfish and timid.

As soon as the bell rang at the end of the class, he ran in the direction of the third class, I thought that usually his courage was to speak under the national flag, I did not expect that he would go directly to the girls of the third class, I was afraid to rush and run over, only to hear his voice in the third class classroom was particularly loud (who I walked close to, and who had a good relationship with that was my business, if there was another time I heard who was going to intimidate who was not allowed to talk to me and so on, I was not welcome... Then he rushed out, seeing that he came out, I quickly hid behind the tree, thinking that this time they had to beat me up, what to do, now both sides have offended. After this incident, I and my table mates talked less, and every time I got out of class, I would find my classmates to go home with me, but after several weeks, the girls did not come to me, and this matter slowly passed.

In the second year of high school, we were about to take a vacation, and we knew that he was going to transfer schools at the same table, because his parents' work was transferred to another province, and he also had to follow the past to study, at that time, there was actually a little bit of reluctance, but I didn't know how to say it, but it was impossible for him to know, because he was the top student in the class, a good example of speaking under the national flag every week, Mandarin was standard, sports was not the first or the second, thinking about how he might intersect with him! But after one thing after another, in fact, the eyes will quietly stop on him, when he and the girl play basketball, in fact, I will be unhappy, lying in the corridor to watch him play ball is actually just to sneak a look, but unexpectedly by the classmates to pull and say go to watch them play, at that time I actually have some refusal, because I know that I like a person, I dare not have eye contact with him, afraid of being discovered, I don't know if you have the same feeling. When my classmates dragged me step by step to the basketball court, I saw the sweat on his face dripping down one by one, and some classmates handed him water, and he took off his short sleeves after drinking water, and wore a vest inside. The skin is so white, next to the classmates with me said a word, and then then immediately said that he walked towards us eh, I thought you are joking, and then he walked to me with his right hand and handed me the short sleeves, the classmate next to me covered his mouth with both hands and was surprised, said quickly to take his clothes, I didn't know what was wrong, turned around and left, the clothes were not picked up, in fact, I know that I don't want to be told that the grades are not good and still fall in love in high school, and I feel that I and him are not all the way people, There are so many girls with good grades in the class, how could they possibly notice me! My classmate chased after me with his clothes, and kept saying something that I didn't actually listen to at the time, and I was very panicked, and I didn't know what happened after I left. He sat quietly next to me after the class bell rang, and I could clearly smell the sweat and panting on his body. I didn't dare to look at him, because I knew the meaning of handing clothes to a girl on a basketball court, and I was afraid of everyone's eyes, and I was even more afraid that he was teasing himself to find fun... Halfway through the class, we didn't say a word, it seemed that the three-eight line played a role between us, no one crossed the line, but it was broken by a note that broke this calm picture, he handed it over, until now I still clearly remember that there was a big word written on it " I "I", I did not know what this word represented, until after class, he said he wanted to borrow my language book, I did not lend it to him at the time, but a girl lent it to him later, and he wrote two words like on it when he returned the book. The girl showed it to me at the time, and I think he must have liked her, otherwise how could he have written these words in her book? Everyone would have thought so at the time, after all, that was his handwriting. Yes, it is indeed self-inflicted sentimentality! Since then, I have spoken less to him, I don't watch him play, I will walk away when there is a topic about him, in fact, I have cried at night, thinking about why I am not so good to stand by his side.

That day, it was the evening self-study class, it was not yet class time, I and a girl after eating slowly walked by the flowers, the flowers were full of clover, at that time we believed that finding the four-leaf clover was a lucky arrival, and then I sat on the edge of the flower bush and began to look for the four-leaf clover, looking for it, someone suddenly almost knocked me down in the flower bush, I turned my head to see him, my face suddenly turned red, Pretending that nothing had happened, he turned his face and sat down on the other side of the clover slowly and carelessly, deliberately looking for the four-leaf petal clover, and then heard him say sorry in the back, it was my classmates who pushed me, it was his iron party, now think about it should know that he likes me to push it deliberately. I said, "It's all right", and then he sat next to me, and the girl with me said very flirtatiously that I wouldn't bother you when I left, and she ran, and I was so panicked that I was going to die and ran with it, and I scolded my classmates while running, are you going crazy? Why did I do this, in fact, my classmates know that I like him. That's why I said that on purpose. So at the time, I didn't know that it would be embarrassing for him to stay there after being said this! The class bell rang, the first session was a self-study class, the time was already 7.30 p.m., the second session was the class teacher's class, so many students in the self-study class changed their positions, I remember a girl who liked him and sat in front of him, kept turning her head to talk to him, the girl had a good grade, just came back and didn't talk to those of us with average grades, let alone those classmates with poor grades, I remember a boy chasing her and being counted down in front of the whole class. She and him were discussing the topic, I felt that I was superfluous at this time, so I also changed the position to read the topic with my female classmates who had a good relationship with him, and I only returned to the position after class, and just sat down he asked you why you changed the position? I said, me, and picked up the book on the desk and put it in the drawer, but found that the part of the book that was closed had a you word written, and I thought it was written by my classmate who had changed positions, and I didn't care too much. The second class teacher came to class, and he quietly handed over a note that said: "I wrote that word", and I replied at that time, "Why do you just draw my book"? Then when the teacher turned his head to write, he hit his leg hard, at this time he grabbed my hand, quickly put it in his drawer, no matter how I broke free he did not let go, at this time I was more afraid, afraid of being seen by the teacher, and afraid of the classmates behind him to see, and then my chair moved to his side to block me and his hand from the students behind him to see, the head also lay on the table, with a voice that he and I could hear: "You hurry up, otherwise I will pinch you" He still did not let go, One hand grabbed my hand, and the other took notes the teacher had taken on the blackboard. I saw that he did not let go of his intention, so I squeezed his hand hard, he was in pain and quickly let go of his hand, and then pointed to the place where the deep crescent bend said to me, see no, this is what you left, you are so fierce. The next day I asked the teacher to adjust my position (in fact, I regret it now), and I don't know why I did it at that time, maybe I was really self-compassionate, I think there are so many good-looking girls in the class, how can he look at you? So stay away from him. In this way, you will forget more quickly, and your mind will be fully focused on learning. Talent is getting better and better, thinking that if there is a chance, the university will get along in the best way to meet... Oh think about it a lot

Just changed the position to see him look at me angrily, he sat in the second row of the leftmost positive number, I adjusted to the rightmost positive number of the first row, in fact, this position is still not very satisfied, because once a week to change the position, to the next week he changed over to the position of only one person away from me, but it is better than sitting next to him. I threw a blank stare at him triumphantly.

One afternoon, after the first class, the sun was very big, everyone did not want to go out to play, they were lying on the table in the classroom to sleep, I sat on the edge of the window, the sun directly hit my position, but the drowsiness came too much and fell asleep directly on my stomach, after the class bell rang, I opened my eyes hazy and saw a hand on my head, and when I saw clearly, I found that he was holding a book blocking the window where the sun shone on my face, I don't know how the people in the class at that time looked and thought, but he did it. And it was to hear the same table say that he had been holding out for a long time, and when he sat down, I quietly looked at him and thought about why I wanted to change positions to make him unhappy, and why I had to use so much force to pinch his hand... And then that lesson was actually a bit absent-minded

Soon Christmas Eve is coming, I don't know now your student era is still popular for students with different surnames to each want 1 yuan to buy a peace fruit has not, at that time we were like this, to the class of different surnames of students are asked for 1 yuan each, because this represents 24 different blessings, and then he also gave me a dollar, I want to know that he bought the apple does not know who will give it to, good hope is their own, in fact, this time feel like a person is really happy, even if he does not know, Although sometimes it is sad, and I know that maybe he is not yours in the end, but this liking does not want to be hidden all the time. The day after Christmas Eve, some students received apples, but I did not receive them, did not buy them, and did not give them to anyone. After school, it was time for us to clean up, he cleaned with us in a group, thinking that it was almost a holiday, my heart was a little empty, because I knew that he was going to transfer, when I was cleaning the corridor, the girl who had changed the position before and discussed the topic with him suddenly came to me and told me, have you received an apple, asked in a conspicuous tone, I said no eh, he said you see Zhang Cheng sent me one, she said he said he, I didn't say a word at the time, think about it is ridiculous to think that he likes himself, The girl said and left, I turned my head and threw the broom into the classroom, I had unspeakable grievances in my heart, I wanted to find a corner to crouch down, and then I went to the direction of the position to prepare to take the bag away, he saw that it was not right and asked: "What's wrong with you"?

I said, You me! He looked at me with very sincere eyes, and his eyes seemed to be a little red, and he shouted, "Why can't I take care of you?" What on earth am I not good enough for you to take me so seriously? Am I not making it obvious enough? "It's him I haven't seen before, and he looks so scared. At this time, the few students who were also cleaning were frightened, and they all quickly walked out, and they also knew what was happening, and then he said something iron, well said, we are waiting for you outside!

At this time, I felt that I was more aggrieved, and while sorting out my school bag, I shook it back: "Yes, you are obvious enough, is it that I think too much, you wrote on Chen Xue's book that you like two words is not like her?" Isn't your Christmas Eve apple given to Li Wen that means you are interested in people? What are you going to make me think of you? Yes, I am not as good as them myself, but why do you want to be nice to me and let me misunderstand? In fact, what you do is not my business at all", after saying this, I picked up my school bag and prepared to hold back the tears and flee in a panic... Then I heard the sound of a chalkboard scraping on the table from behind, and I turned my head to look at him with red eyes and shouted, "I wrote like..."

"Who do you like I don't want to hear, it doesn't matter to me" I turned my head and ran straight out of the classroom after saying this sentence, I didn't dare to see his eyes red with tears and say what he liked me, I was afraid that I was serious, I was more afraid that he would be more upset when he told me that he would transfer schools immediately after telling me...

The next day, most of the class knew about me and him, and Li Wen didn't even dare to look at me, because the apple was Zhang Cheng who asked her to hand it over to me, and she didn't dare to panic. But I no longer had any contact with him, and he probably thought I had rejected him outright. On the day of the final exam, he did not come to the exam, because he transferred schools in advance, but when we were about to finish the exam, he watched us outside the window, I thought I would never see him again, but I still saw this last side, after the exam, I walked with my classmates on the way home, he and he and the Iron Party have been walking behind us, I know that he is accompanying me to the last time to send me home, because his family does not live here, in fact, at this moment I want to turn back and talk to him, but I am afraid that people are not walking behind me, My classmate kept saying in my ear, "He's been walking behind you, he's been looking at you, don't you really stop talking to him?" I said, "No, after all, I don't know if people are taking this road for me, are they?" "Suddenly I felt that the first way home was so short, and I saw that I was going to reach my house after a turn, so I convinced myself to look back at him, only to see that he had been looking at me, and then smiled and waved at me, turned around and left, and at that moment I looked at him stupidly until he disappeared...

In fact, later I tried to find him, even if the network is now developed, there are previous class groups, but he is not in the group, I WeChat, Q buckle have searched for this name of the person, but it is not him, in fact, I know that no one will use their real name to do the network name, how to find him?

If you meet a person with such a name, he is now 28 years old, his name is Zhang Cheng, his family lives in Chongqing, he once studied high school in Guiyang, he transferred to school in the first half of the second semester of junior high school, he has done a lot of things for a girl, that girl's name is Kang Yutong, then please tell him, she regrets it! Thank you for being nice to her when she was not so good, not so perfect, and still didn't paint when he still felt that she was unique...