Today is the first day of the rest of your life, so how will you live?
In fact, every day is, the rest of life, life is always like this, of course, there will always be some changes, such as getting up early this morning, going downstairs to sell a morning newspaper, eating a sandwich or raw frying, and then sitting in the garden of the community to read the newspaper; or getting up at dawn in the morning and going out for a morning run, as the beginning of exercise, of course, every day, not just today; or starting to have nightlife on weekends, of course, long-lost nightlife, occasional debauchery.
Today is the first day of the rest of your life, except for the day you die. Of course, I don't know when I'm going to die, and I always fantasize about various ways to die, such as shooting, jumping off a building, or dying when I have sex to climax, or masturbating to the point of exhaustion?
Last night I went to the bar with my friends, and then I found that I knew so many people, and I never thought about how there would be so many people, I had never seen or seen them, or I forgot my name, but in the end, I just said a few words of greeting for the scene, and then I walked away and let myself go. I didn't think that in that situation, the first key face, and then I will recognize, in fact, even if I recognize, there is no change, after all, it will not be so easy to fall at first sight or other, at most look at the right eye, take home, wake up the next day, find a man who is inexplicably clothed and full of makeup, and then hear him say a sentence "Look at what to see, I haven't seen it" and then run out of the wine, or wake up the next day, next to it is empty, and I don't know when to leave.
I don't know what kind of person I'll be, at least not when the first, because I don't wear makeup. And it can't happen to me, I don't like men who wear makeup, even if they are beautiful.
Sometimes I wonder, how can I not live like a movie, but after all, the movie is a movie, two hours, and it is more than three hours to die, but your life is more than three hours. Life is like that, all kinds of joys, angers, sadness, helplessness, are presented one by one in a short period of time, and it is strange not to be tired. And some people always show only one expression to the fullest, maybe this is already a success. Always pretending, but also tired, crying when you can cry, laughing when you can, and ignoring those who don't have it, it's always good.
Too many times always worry about this scruples, to calculate this, but also to calculate that, or at least full, not as boring as I am, can only watch a movie to live, through other people's stories to enrich their own lives, suddenly remembered Osamu Tezuka's "Insects in the World", the actor is stealing other people's lives to survive. Maybe not, but it's the same thing. Like, when you eat Western food for the first time, you don't know which hand holds the knife and which hand holds the fork, you will see how the people around you are, and then you will know what to do, maybe it is stealing, just stealing without a trace.
Sometimes I feel that I have learned a lot of things that I should not have learned, stealing, cheating, lying, pretending, maybe just vanity, maybe just thinking, but I didn't think about not going on, because there was no going back.
Well, by the time you turn thirty, you may have been young enough.
Today is the first day of the rest of your life, except for the day of death.