"Dad, I want to die... I am the child you picked up, without you I would have died a long time ago, everyone says that I am a poor fate, let me be discharged from the hospital? ”
Eight-year-old She Yan lay in a hospital bed and begged her father, who understood that he could no longer afford to pay for her medical expenses, and begged his father to agree to her discharge from the hospital and take her home.
But how could the father bear to watch the disease take his daughter's life? He disagreed.
He said to his sensible daughter: "Xiao Yanzi, you can rest assured, the money for the treatment of the disease is ready for the father, you will honestly treat the disease in the hospital, and when you are well, the father will take you home." ”
Sensible Xiao Yanzi knows that this is her father coaxing herself, and she is not ready to give up her decision, so she secretly writes "self-yuan to give up treatment" from her father, and then accompanies her father back home.
After that, She Yan began to arrange the aftermath for herself:
"Put on new clothes again, take a beautiful picture so that Daddy will think of her later and can look at the pictures; let her continue to do housework, so that when I think of her again in the future, I will think that she is very well-behaved; when she dies, bury her on the back slope of the house, because I don't want to leave Daddy..."
After She Yan's death, only six words remained on the epitaph, which were her last words to the world.
What kind of touching story did the sensible She Yan write with her short life? What were her six-word last words?
Born abandoned, picked up by his father and brought home
She Yan is actually an orphan, and her father is not her biological father.
It was 1996, when She Shiyou of Yunya Village, Shuangliu County, Sichuan Province, was passing by a small bridge in Shenjiachong, Yongxing Town, when she suddenly heard a baby crying.
Following the crying, She Shiyou found a small baby that was frozen purple and dying. Looking around at no one, She Shiyou understood that this doll was an abandoned baby, so he quickly picked her up. I saw a small note tucked into the swaddling, which read: October 20 at 12:00 p.m. That was the doll's birthday.
This doll, which was abandoned at birth, is She Yan.
As for whether to take the child home, She Shiyou was very hesitant.
Because at that time, She Shiyou was 30 years old, but because his family was poor and had no culture, he had not yet obtained a wife. If you take this child home and raise it, then the matter of marrying a daughter-in-law will be even less shadowy.
She Shiyou put the child down again fiercely, but did not take two steps, listening to the child's gradually faint crying, he softened again.
"Then fight a lifetime of bare sticks!" She Shiyou thought, and his feet changed direction. He took the child back in his arms and returned home.
She Shiyou wanted to come and go, and gave the child the name She Yan, because she was born in the late autumn harvest season.
She Shiyou's home is a real sense of the family of disciples four walls, but the magic is that after Xiao Sheyan was carried home, she stopped crying, stared at a pair of big eyes, and obediently lay down.
She Shiyou was very helpless: "You see, there is only such a broken home, you can't blame me for treating you badly, you will eat what I eat in the future." ”
There is no breast milk, she Shiyou can not afford to buy milk powder, so She Shiyou used rice soup to feed Xiao She Yan bite by bite, at first the little guy was hungry and tight, and he ate very happily. But such a small child only drinks rice soup, ah, looking at the increasingly emaciated little She Yan, She Shiyou is anxious to turn around.
There was really no way, She Shiyou hugged Xiao Sheyan to the home of the newborn family, and found a mouthful of breast milk for Xiao Sheyan to drink, just like that, She Shiyou barely pulled Xiao Sheyan bigger.
Because of malnutrition, Xiao Sheyan's health has not been very good, but she is exceptionally sensible and can understand She Shiyou's difficulties.
When she was 5 years old, She Yan, who was not yet high on the stove, would already help her father brush the pots and wash dishes, and even cook. In order to make her father a little easier, all kinds of housework at home, Xiao Sheyan rushed to do.
She Yan
She Shiyou saw it in his eyes, warmed it in his heart, worked harder to earn money, and wanted to give Xiao Sheyan a better life.
When she reached the age of school, She Shiyou sent her to a nearby primary school, and she could not spend much money under the subsidy of the state's policy of two exemptions and one supplement.
Xiao Sheyan cherishes the opportunity to go to school, in terms of learning, she never let people urge and worry, every exam is firmly ranked first, most of the time, her exam paper is full of marks.
Everyone said that She Shiyou had picked up the treasure, and her daughter was well-behaved and sensible, and she worked hard to make progress, and She Shiyou listened to it and closed her mouth happily: "I have never seen a sensible child like Xiao Yanzi, and it is my blessing to have her, and I must raise her well." ”
Regarding her own origins, She Yan knows one or two, because the humble She Shiyou can't think of how to "trick" her that she does not have a mother, plus some words from the neighbors, She Yan probably knows that she picked it up.
Although she is very envious of other children having their mothers to take care of, but she also feels very satisfied that she has a father, she always said to She Shiyou very sensibly: "I think it is enough for me to have a father, my father will take good care of me, I will study hard, grow up and honor my father." ”
She Yan and She Shiyou
Despite the hardships of life, the father and daughter were relieved to be at each other, and life was still full of hope.
However, the hemp rope is specially picked and broken, the bad luck is specifically looking for the bitter person, and a sudden disaster has quietly descended on this family that only has the most ordinary happiness...
Bad luck struck, and unfortunately he suffered from acute leukemia
In May 2005, when Xiao Sheyan got up in the morning to wash her face, she suddenly felt that a warm liquid flowed out of her nose, touched a handful of bright red blood, and then looked down, and the clear water in the basin had become a basin of blood.
This is not the first time that Xiao Sheyan has had a nosebleed, since the beginning of the year, she has always started to have nosebleeds from time to time. At first, She Shiyou thought that Xiao Sheyan was because she did not keep up with nutrition when she was very young, and her health was not very good, so she would have nosebleeds, and then she also went to the village infirmary several times, and the doctor prescribed some medicine, but also stopped.
But this time, I tried everything, and the nosebleed still couldn't be stopped.
She Shiyou took She Yan to the hospital in the township for treatment, and as a result, even the needle eye began to bleed incessantly, and even large red spots began to appear on the legs.
"Go to the big hospital!" Don't delay any longer! The doctor arranged she Shiyou like this.
Therefore, She Shiyou quickly took She Yan straight to the big hospital in Chengdu, it was the peak of the consultation period, they could not line up for a while, they had to sit in the hall and wait for the call, She Shiyou found a basin for his daughter to receive nosebleeds, and in a short while the entire pelvic floor was covered with blood.
The doctor saw the situation and knew that the child's condition was urgent, so he rushed to make an emergency for her and arranged for her to go for an examination.
She Shiyou was waiting outside the inspection room with a cold sweat in his palms, he had never felt so scared.
The test results came out: Xiao She Yan had acute leukemia!
Moreover, Xiao Sheyan's state was very bad, and the doctor even gave a critical notice.
She Shiyou, a man of nearly forty years old, suddenly felt that the sky was about to collapse, and he looked at Xiao Sheyan, who had a miserable face but still had a smiling face, and felt that his heart was like a knife.
"Yan'er, my good boy, you will be fine." She Shiyou hugged Xiao Sheyan and couldn't help but cry, he didn't understand why God was so unfair, Xiao Sheyan was so well-behaved, but still let her suffer so much.
Despite the doctor's deep sympathy, he still had to tell She Shiyou that the treatment of this disease required a very expensive surgical fee, and at least 300,000 yuan was prepared first.
Three hundred thousand! She Shiyou's heart was half cold again, and he had never seen so much money in most of his life.
However, Xiao Sheyan's condition was very urgent, and he had no time to wait any longer, so he had to call his sister to help take care of She Yan and go home to collect money.
After going back, She Shiyou went door to door to borrow money, and the villagers and neighbors also knew that it was not easy for the father and daughter, and they more or less paid some money, but everyone was also a farmer who had been eating from the field all his life, so they couldn't come up with much money at all.
She Shiyou handed over all the money to the hospital, but it was still far from 300,000.
Looking at She Shiyou, who had spent a night whitehead for Xiao Sheyan's medical expenses, She Yan's aunt couldn't help her brother: "Otherwise, put Xiao Yanzi in the hospital, and the hospital will definitely not ignore her." ”
She Shiyou looked at her sister in surprise, not believing that these words came from her mouth: "How sensible are we Yan'er, how can you say this?" ”
The aunt was anxious: "Of course, I know that Xiao Yanzi understands things, she is like this now, can I, as an aunt, not be distressed?" But what can be done now? Where do we go to get so much money to see Xiao Yanzi? ”
How does She Shiyou know where to go to get so much money to see She Yan, if there is a way, he will have gone a long time ago, but even if there is no money, he still has to guard the most sensible daughter: "Yan'er was born, she has been abandoned once, no matter what, I will not let her be abandoned a second time." ”
As for the medical expenses, he had to go home and think of a way.
She Shiyou decided that he was going to sell his and Xiao Sheyan's home, which was the only thing they could exchange for some money. However, this small mud house is not worth a few dollars, and it is not cared about for a while.
Desperate She Shiyou did not dare to go back to the hospital, did not dare to look at Xiao Sheyan's eyes, and he cried helplessly when he knew his destiny, which was the biggest obstacle he had encountered for most of his life.
After a lot of crying, he went back to the hospital, knowing that his daughter must still be waiting for him.
Sure enough, the pale-faced and extremely weak Little She Yan lay on the hospital bed and did not rest. After seeing her father, She Yan laboriously squeezed out a smile, but this laugh made she Friendly tears that were not easy to suppress, and instantly flowed out.
She Shiyou wiped a handful of tears, came to the bedside and sat down, and said painfully: "Why don't you sleep?" Go to sleep. ”
She Yan took She Shiyou's hand and cried, "Daddy, I want to die..."
"Don't talk nonsense!"
Really, Dad, I'm the child you picked up, I would have died a long time ago without you, everyone says I'm a, I can't afford this disease, let me be discharged from the hospital?
She Yan had never seen her father shed so many tears, she was more afraid of her father than the physical pain, and she knew in her heart that her father had been worrying and worrying about his own treatment.
Xiao Sheyan was too sensible, so sensible that She Shiyou didn't know how to face her.
On June 8, Xiao Sheyan decided to give up treatment, and she wrote on her voluntary renunciation of treatment commitment: "Ziyuan gave up the treatment of She Yan. ”
After that, Xiao Sheyan and her father returned to their dilapidated home.
Xiao Sheyan has always been sensible, very considerate of her father's difficulty, never opened her mouth to ask him for something, but after arriving home this day, she thought about it or made a request to She Shiyou: "Dad, can you buy me a new dress?" I want to take a picture with you, and when I'm gone, if you miss me, look at my picture. ”
She Shiyou's tears rolled uncontrollably, and he cried and said, "Buy, Daddy buy you the most beautiful new clothes, let's go take pictures together." ”
The next day, she Yan, who had a miserable face, smiled very happily in the photo studio, but She Shiyou cried into tears again, and the owner of the photo studio couldn't help but cry bitterly when he looked at Xiao Sheyan's smiling face.
On the way back, Xiao Sheyan "arranged" She Shiyou again: "Dad, autumn is coming, I was picked up by you in autumn, I want to leave in autumn, then you will bury me on the back slope of our house, I don't want to leave My Father." ”
Xiao Sheyan also said: "Dad, when we go home, you don't let me rest, I'm not tired, I still want to work like before, so when I leave, you will think of me, you will think that I am good." ”
The most sensible child, warmed by the world and warmed the whole world
Xiao Yanzi was so sensible that Fu Yan, a reporter at the Chengdu Evening News, noticed her, and then Fu Yan reported On Xiao Yanzi's deeds, the title of which was "An 8-year-old girl arranged her own affairs.".
Soon, Xiao Sheyan's story touched the people of Chengdu and touched the people of the whole country, and countless caring people were heartbroken for poor Xiao Sheyan. In order to keep this weak but warm little life, the relief funds from all directions were continuously remitted to the name of She Shiyou, and in just 10 days, the total amount of donations exceeded 560,000 yuan.
After the fundraising stopped, there were still donations that continued to pour in, and people were eager to donate a little bit of effort to rekindle the fire of Xiao Sheyan's life.
After the cost of the operation was enough, Xiao Sheyan returned to the hospital for treatment.
Surgical treatment is another difficulty for Xiao Sheyan, but no matter what kind of pain she encounters during the treatment process, Xiao Sheyan clenches her teeth and can't help but feel pain when she sees it.
Once, when the doctor checked the bed, Xiao Sheyan's miserable white face was a big smile again, and the medical staff intuitively felt a pain in their hearts after seeing it, and the doctor couldn't help but choke: "Child, it's okay, you don't have to laugh like this, if it hurts, you can shout, scream..."
Later, the attending doctor Xu Ming really couldn't help but feel sorry for Xiao Sheyan, she came to She Yan's bed and said kindly: "Xiao Yanzi, will I come to be your mother in the future?" ”
Under the touch of Dr. Xu Ming, Xiao SheYan obediently shouted: "Mother." Immediately, she burst into tears, which was the first time Xiao Sheyan felt the feeling of maternal love.
Netizens have also given a different kind of "maternal love", they left a message like this:
"She Yan, my dear child! I wish you a healthy exit from the hospital; I pray that you will return to school smoothly; I hope you grow up safely; I fantasize that I can happily accompany you to marriage. She Yan, my dear child..."
Xiao Sheyan's life was warmed by a strange but sincere warmth, and everyone was looking forward to the miracle happening, looking forward to god being able to leave this sensible child behind.
Xiao Sheyan also showed an extreme desire to survive, whether it is septic shock, sepsis or hemolysis, gastrointestinal bleeding, etc., under the doctor's strong treatment, Xiao Sheyan used her strong will to break through one "ghost gate".
However, unfortunately, the disease is too difficult, and in the end, Xiao Sheyan still left this world...
This little girl, who has only stayed in the world for 8 years, walked quietly, and her epitaph has only six words: I have come, I am very well-behaved.
She's really well-behaved, but if you can actually everyone wants her to be naughty, really, Xiao Yanzi, you don't have to be so sensible, so well-behaved...
Sensible, she also left a suicide note that warmed the world:
Goodbye, we'll see you in our dreams! Aunt Fu, my father's house is going to collapse, let my father not be angry, do not jump off the building! Aunt Fu, you have to look after my father... When I die, give the rest of the money to patients like me to make their illness better...
She warmed the world again, she left a suicide note, she wants to share the cake of hope in life to everyone, she said: she hopes to share the rest of the donation to other children who are also sick and need treatment.
In the end, these donations were left to 7 children who also suffered from leukemia, and they regained hope for life.
In addition, Xiao Sheyan's encounter has also aroused the attention of the whole society to children with leukemia, and accelerated the establishment of children's medical insurance in Chengdu.
postscript:
Xiao Sheyan also left a poem called "My Way":
"My path is not on the little road that children walk,
My road is not on the wide road where the car runs.
I like to walk my way when I go up the mountain,
I sang with the birds as I descended the mountain.
If you are willing to walk on my path,
You will hear me and the birds singing.
Listen to the song and go forward,
The road is long,
I don't feel tired either.
I love walking my way. ”
This sensible little girl's life path is only a short eight years, but her path has always had its own warmth, and I believe that heaven will be more beautiful because of her.