On the stage of the Spring Festival Gala in 1998, a "health song" was popular all over the country, and its singers were not only the popular singer Xie Xiaodong, but also a female singer from Taiwan, and her very magical voice made the audience remember this cute girl - 21-year-old Fan Xiaoxuan.
Fan Xiaoxuan on the stage is sweet-looking and particularly likable, but in real life she is a rebellious girl.
After the Spring Festival Gala became popular, the "rebellious factor" that had been suppressed in her heart was finally activated. During the popular period, in order to declare her "independence", she shaved her head a lot, became obsessed with tattoos, and also hit the tongue ring and lip ring.
Under great pressure from the brokerage company and her mother, Fan Xiaoxuan began her wild life.
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In February 1977, a 17-year-old female singer in the bar gave birth to a girl named Fan Xiaoxuan, and her father was also a 19-year-old boy.
At an ignorant age, with no sense of family responsibility or financial ability to raise children, it didn't take long for the big boy to leave their mother and daughter.
The mother had to put her daughter in her grandmother's house, and she still sang in the bar to earn money to support the family.
When she was a child, Fan Xiaoxuan was still a "well-behaved girl" in the eyes of her mother and grandmother. Grandma went out to buy groceries and let her watch TV at home, and she sat motionless in front of the TV. Grandma laughed at her: You can still go to the toilet!
The mother hoped that her daughter would be able to take the path of music when she grew up, so she let Fan Xiaoxuan learn piano and flute at the age of 9.
Probably also understand that the mother's is not easy, the young Fan Xiaoxuan always carries a kind of maturity and restraint.
But she really didn't disappoint her mother. At the age of 12, she composed the tune part of the school graduation song "Talk to Yourself" and later filled in the lyrics for the song.
When she was 14 years old, Fan Xiaoxuan was favored by the advertising company and took a chewing gum advertisement. Since then, it has been out of control, not only shooting advertisements, but also becoming the heroine of major MVs.
In 1994, 17-year-old Fan Xiaoxuan partnered with Jacky Cheung to star in the movie "Very Detective" and was nominated for the Academy Award for Best Newcomer.
Compared with making movies, Fan Xiaoxuan's talent is still in music. Not only did she release two albums, but she also sang the theme song for the cartoon dramas "Cherry Pills" and "Doraemon", which were very popular.
The agency took advantage of the situation to include all the nursery rhymes she had sung on the album "The Magic Book of the Little Witch", which was launched strongly. Since then, Fan Xiaoxuan has become the "children's song queen" and "little witch" in the public's mouth.
At this time, Fan Xiaoxuan's everything went smoothly to make people envious, and even she herself doubted life.
A "Health Song" at the Spring Festival Gala in 1998 made her a household name in the mainland, and her popularity soared. Her girlfriend Xiao S once said: The combination of big and small S in the past could not withstand the popularity of a Fan Xiaoxuan... At that time, she was the favorite of all the boys and girls in Taiwan.
But Fan Xiaoxuan herself knows in her heart that making movies and singing children's songs is not what she wants, and her dream is to be a pure musician, not a gorgeous commodity that is packaged up.
She wants to transform and make her own music.
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After the Spring Festival Gala became popular, Fan Xiaoxuan was briefly silent for a while, and when she appeared in front of the audience again, it surprised everyone.
At this time, she not only shaved her head, tattooed her body, but also hit the tongue ring and lip ring. That exaggerated and wild image, and the previous sweet and cute little witch is almost like two people.
She rejected an album tailored for her by the agency and pushed for her new album, which resulted in dismal sales.
Fans who once supported her did not understand why she had such a transformation, could not accept her new style, and abandoned her.
The agency asked her to put on a wig, put on a puffy skirt, and continue the childlike, rambling "little witch" route, which she decisively refused: since it was to change, it was a complete change.
"A person who clearly has a fire in his heart, why do you have to play a little girl who sells matches?"
However, being a person who is "loyal to yourself" is not easy. The agency no longer supported her; her mother didn't understand her; fans doubted her; and the media described her as a "fallen girl." At this time, Fan Xiaoxuan felt helpless and painful, but his pain had nowhere to pour out, and he could only express his emotions through creation.
Albums such as "The Best of the World", "Pure Age", and "Fulu Shou" were created during this time.
But without the support of the agency, these albums could not be launched, and no one understood her hard work, and no one could understand her. Under great pressure, Fan Xiaoxuan suffered from depression, frequent insomnia, hallucinations and even self-harm and suicide.
If it were not for the company of her boyfriend who loved her deeply, perhaps there would be no Fan Xiaoxuan now.
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In 1998, Fan Xiaoxuan met Hong Kong singer Zhou Junwei. At that time, he was only 19 years old and was a fan of Fan Xiaoxuan.
The two established a relationship soon after they met, and were once known as "talented women with talents".
During the period when Fan Xiaoxuan suffered from depression, Zhou Junwei not only did not abandon her, but put down his work and accompanied her day and night. In order to enlighten Fan Xiaoxuan, Zhou Junwei also studied psychology.
Worried that Fan Xiaoxuan is lonely, Zhou Junwei will send her a bouquet of flowers every day; Fan Xiaoxuan is afraid of the cold in winter. Before going to bed, he would use a heater to blow the quilt warmer.
Fan Xiaoxuan's friend Aya said, "Zhou Junwei looks like her servant."
Under the care of Zhou Junwei, Fan Xiaoxuan gradually walked out of depression. And for her boyfriend who does not abandon herself, she takes the initiative to give up. There was no other reason, just because she felt like a bad girl and didn't deserve Zhou Junwei.
After breaking up with her boyfriend, Fan Xiaoxuan put all her energy into music creation and gradually gained the recognition of her peers.
At the turn of the century Golden Melody Awards, when Zhang Guorong announced the award for the song "I Want Us To Be Together" composed by Fan Xiaoxuan, she announced to all the audiences that "I am not singing children's songs".
Although she was recognized by the professional judges, she could not guarantee sales, and eventually she terminated her contract with the agency.
When her contemporaries Chen Huilin, Yu Chengqing, Wang Lihong and other artists had become famous, Fan Xiaoxuan was still running for her musical dreams.
But people with dreams will eventually have a chance to succeed, and in 2007, Fan Xiaoxuan formed a 100% band, which means that she is 100% in her own music world.
The band not only fulfilled her musical dreams, but also allowed her to meet a man who really understood her.
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In the 100% band, there is a guitarist named Allen, a young man from the mountains of Hualien County, Taiwan.
With a beard and tattoos on his arms, Ellen and Fan Xiaoxuan have the same hobbies and dreams. They all like tattoos, they like rock and roll, they are so outrageous.
Two like-minded people soon lived together. But Alan's family was not well-off, and his friends and mother did not like him.
Xiao S smiled and said to Fan Xiaoxuan: You actually like ugly men.
But Fan Xiaoxuan did not argue with them, she only knew that this man understood her and understood her, which was enough.
Both of them have a "Dink" outlook on family life. To this end, Fan Xiaoxuan made a surprising move, she cut off the uterus through surgery.
Someone asked her "don't regret it"?
She replied lightly, "There are no marriage and childbearing in my life plan."
Fan Xiaoxuan, who has returned to the music scene, has been reborn. Her album Breakthrough won the Best Orchestra Award at the 19th Taiwan Golden Melody Awards. Two years later, another of her albums, Naked Child, was shortlisted for the award again. The "Little Witch" of that year is now named "Rock Witch" by the media.
It took her ten years to finally break through herself and become her true self.
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In the program "Strange Life" hosted by her friend Aya, Fan Xiaoxuan finally got her mother's understanding. She said to her daughter on the phone: Mom wants to say to you, you are really great, at that time Mom did not support you, now and say sorry to you, I don't know if this encouragement will be late?
At this time, Fan Xiaoxuan was already in tears, she suppressed her inner excitement, pretended to be calm and said, "Mom, what you give me will never be late, this is very important to me."
She not only received the understanding and encouragement of her mother, but more importantly, she was also recognized by her fans, in addition to liking her music, her acting skills were also well received.
In 2011, when Zhou Xun was filming "Dragon Gate Armor", he invited his friend Fan Xiaoxuan to play a palace girl in the play. The image of the soft and weak drag oil bottle that likes to hide behind Zhou Xun is deeply rooted in people's hearts.
In 2019, Fan Xiaoxuan starred in the TV series "Drunken Dreamer", in which she had a neat short hair, and her smoking action was cool and handsome, like the once "rebellious" her.
Although the 44-year-old Fan Xiaoxuan has dyed pink hair and looks "rebellious" under the appearance, she has a soft expression and an extra gentle tone.
She is calm, young and bright in the shot.
In her 20s, she longed to be able to express herself out loud, hoping that someone would understand her.
Now that she has someone who understands herself, she doesn't feel important anymore. Because others don't understand you, you still have to live your own life.