The warm afternoon sun gently shrouded Fan Xiaoxuan's body like a mother's embrace, and she rested peacefully on the green rattan chair, slowly flipping through the book of reviews that reflected the history of rock and roll. From her eyes, which are full of traces of time, we can feel the unique charm that the years have given her, and although her short hair has been dyed with white frost, it still can't hide her former style.
When she raised her deep eyes and stared at the world outside the window, it was as if she had traveled through the long river of time and returned to that era full of passion and challenges. What is revealed in her eyes is nostalgia for the past and anticipation for the future. The corners of her mouth rose slightly, with a hint of self-deprecating smile: "Yes, I have gone through the twists and turns of life, when I was young, I used to be reckless, rebellious, and even did some 'deviant' things." ”
Her gaze gradually dimmed, and she seemed to be a little lost: "But now, I have lost the sharpness of the past, but I have reached a reconciliation with my inner self and lived the way I yearn for the most." Before the words fell, her eyes became firm again, and the corners of her mouth were filled with a confident smile: "It is precisely because of this that I can truly live my own life, and this is the wonderful life I pursue." ”
Back in 2007, Fan Xiaoxuan and her new boyfriend Allen appeared in public. They have an amazing understanding of music creation, co-founded "100% Band", and released two critically acclaimed albums - "Breakthrough" and "Child".
During the campaign, the intimate interaction between Fan Xiaoxuan and Allen attracted attention. Allen was dressed in a rebellious outfit and had a full beard, but she looked unusually quiet and gentle beside Fan Xiaoxuan, as if she was just her foil. However, Fan Xiaoxuan didn't care about this and devoted herself to music and stage performances.
Allen has always been a staunch supporter of Fan's opposition to marriage and childbearing. In 2004, with Allen's encouragement, Fan Xiaoxuan resolutely chose to have her uterus removed, a decision that caused widespread controversy in all walks of life at the time.
In the face of various doubts and criticisms, Fan Xiaoxuan has always remained calm and firm. She doesn't care what others think of her, she only sticks to what she believes in her heart. Her relationship with her mother was also at a low point, but during the recording of a TV show, Fan Xiaoxuan was deeply touched by the rich and diverse culture of the local area. She plucked up the courage to call her mother, and finally succeeded in resolving the conflict between mother and daughter, so that her mother could understand and support her better.
In the field of film, Fan Xiaoxuan is definitely an outstanding talent! Not only has she established a deep and sincere friendship with giants in the film and television industry such as Zhou Xun, but at Zhou Xun's wedding banquet, this close friend could not suppress the tears in her eyes and expressed her affection.
Looking back, back in 1998, 20-year-old Fan Xiaoxuan made a sensational and bold decision. She resolutely cut off her original pretty short hair, showed off her "rebellious" hair, and even tattooed eye-catching flower arms on her body, and wore a controversial tongue stud.
In this way, she completely subverted the image of a "good girl" in the past and transformed into a typical "deviant". When she twisted her sexy waist and strode into the door of the company, the agents and staff present were all shocked by her new image, and couldn't believe that the unique "wild child" in front of her was actually Fan Xiaoxuan they were familiar with.
In the face of her new image that is so out of the ordinary, the company is helpless and can only let her develop freely.
As expected, Fan Xiaoxuan quickly released a rebellious rock album "Darling", trying to take this opportunity to completely get rid of the "well-behaved" image of the past.
Although the album was perfect in quality, rock music was often seen as a symbol of "rebellion" and "decadence" in that relatively conservative era, so the album was immediately criticized and questioned by all sectors of society as soon as it came out.
For a time, major media criticized and accused Fan Xiaoxuan as a "negative teaching material".
However, these criticisms and accusations are exactly what Fan Xiaoxuan was looking forward to. She hopes to prove to the world that she is not a so-called "good girl" through practical actions. During this period, she even made her relationship with male singer Zhou Junwei public in a high-profile manner, and the two soon entered the palace of marriage hand in hand.
Zhou Junwei is two years younger than her, but he has always firmly supported her "deviant" decision.
However, the huge pressure brought by the family and society made Fan Xiaoxuan feel tired at that time. Deep down, she longs to return to her true self, but the people around her expect her to continue to play the role of a good "good girl".
This contradictory and tangled predicament caused Fan Xiaoxuan to fall into a trough of extreme depression, and her mood almost collapsed, and she even walked to the edge of the roof of a high-rise building, trying to jump. Fortunately, at that critical moment, Zhou Junwei hugged him tightly from behind with keen observation and extraordinary speed, thus saving a terrible tragedy. At that moment, Fan Xiaoxuan was just a young child. She was born into a single-parent family and was raised by her mother, DD, who worked hard alone.
Despite the difficult living environment, Fan Xiaoxuan showed amazing musical talent at a young age. She was introduced to music at the age of three, at the age of seven she entered a professional music school for systematic training, and by the age of nine she was able to master the flute virtuosity. The god of fate opened the door to success for Fan Xiaoxuan when she was 14 years old. One day, while she was strolling through the streets, she was discovered by a discerning talent scout. The scout was so impressed by her freshness and beauty that he immediately invited her to participate in the shooting of an advertisement.
As soon as this advertisement was broadcast, it immediately aroused an enthusiastic response. As a result, major advertisers have thrown olive branches to her, and countless endorsement opportunities have come like a tide. In the face of such a rare opportunity, Fan Xiaoxuan did not hesitate to seize it. At the age of 17, she set foot in the film field for the first time and starred in her film debut "Extraordinary Detective", competing with many well-known actors such as Jacky Cheung and Zhou Haimei. Although she was still new to acting skills at the time and could only cope with it by rote memorization, she managed to be nominated for the Best Newcomer Award for the film with her outstanding performance.
The company took advantage of this opportunity to quickly launch her first solo album "RAIN", and since then, her singing career has officially set sail. However, what really made Fan Xiaoxuan famous was undoubtedly her second album "Talking to Myself". Once this album came out, it shone like a bright pearl, which made people have to pay attention to it. It is said that even the actress Zhou Xun is a big fan of this album.
It can be said that the phrase "debut is the peak" is appropriate for Fan Xiaoxuan at that time. Various honors and awards have come one after another, and her fame has climbed to an unprecedented peak.
After that, the famous animation masterpieces "Cherry Maruko" and "Doraemon" also invited her to sing the theme song. Those innocent years that once haunted her heart were reinterpreted by her sweet and moving voice, and quickly swept the streets and alleys, and Fan Xiaoxuan also became the queen of children's rhymes.
The company knew that this was a once-in-a-lifetime business opportunity, so it did not hesitate to shape Fan Xiaoxuan into the image of a "little witch", and carefully created an album called "Little Witch Magic Book" for her.
During the promotion of the album, Fan Xiaoxuan devoted herself to the world of magical elements: gorgeous costumes, magical magic brooms, and unique pointed hats, all of which were eye-catching. The album sparked an enthusiastic market response upon its release, setting a record for sales of an impressive 1 million copies.
In 1998, Fan Xiaoxuan appeared on the stage of CCTV's Spring Festival Gala for the first time and sang the well-known "Health Song" affectionately. Her sweet and beautiful singing voice is accompanied by a simple melody: "Three circles on the left, three circles on the right, twist your neck and twist your buttocks, go to bed early and get up early, let's do sports......" The national audience was all fascinated and left a deep impression on this lively and lovely "good girl".
However, at this flowery moment, Fan Xiaoxuan's heart was full of loneliness and melancholy. The label of "well-behaved" is just an expectation imposed on her by the outside world, not a true self-expression of her heart.
She was tired of performing on stage, a lifestyle that didn't fit her personality. Over time, she began to develop strong feelings of disgust and resistance.
Eventually, at the end of a trip, she mustered up the courage to confide her grievances to her agent. But the agent's rhetorical question deeply stung her: "If you don't sing "Health Song", what else can you sing?" As a 20-year-old girl, such a question is undoubtedly a denial and blow to her creative talent.
In the conversation that followed, the company made it clear that it still insisted that she continue to go the cute route.
Everyone longs to have their own piece of pure and free sky, where they can soar to their heart's content and be free from any constraints. However, at the same time, we are full of fear and confusion about the unknown future.
Fan Xiaoxuan's life can be called an inspirational legend of overcoming obstacles and forging ahead bravely! She has experienced the ups and downs of life, and has shown her willful and rebellious spirit in her youth, and even made some "exceptional" actions that have attracted the attention of the society, such as decisively cutting off the delicate green silk, inoculating tongue nails, openly opposing marriage and childbirth without fear, and even resolutely deciding to remove the uterus.
These seemingly crazy moves undoubtedly attracted widespread attention and fierce controversy from all walks of life at the time. Some people hailed her as a "maverick" who pursued individual freedom, while others condemned her, accusing her of "deviant" and blaspheming motherhood. However, Fan Xiaoxuan didn't care about all these doubts and criticisms, she always firmly chose to stick to her heart and live her true self. As she herself said: "Now, I no longer have the sharpness and edge I had back then, but I have reconciled with my inner self and lived out the way I yearn for the most." ”
Indeed, instead of playing an empty supporting role on the stage of other people's lives, it is better to bravely pursue yourself and live the life you yearn for. That kind of life can be called the most wonderful chapter.
Fan Xiaoxuan's deviant life course shows a wonderful experience that is difficult for others to achieve. It's not because of how brilliant she's accomplished, it's because she's truly lived her life. Maybe in the eyes of some people, she is a "madman", but for Fan Xiaoxuan herself, she already has the most precious treasure - freedom.