Speaking of our acquaintance, it can be said that it is a kind of fate, but it may also be a coincidence, and I was overjoyed to learn that I was admitted to Henan Institute of Engineering on July 24. I can't wait to find the school's new student group from the Internet, where there are students from all over the country, and I am excited to add every friend. We've known each other since then, and in the beginning, I didn't talk much to her, just just a simple hello. But to my surprise, a few days later she took the initiative to greet me, and I didn't know where to get the momentum to be happy, carefully answering her every question. We had a good chat, for several days, she greeted me early, for a time let me feel that she is very special, let me add a little color to this boring work, over time, I actually fell in love with this feeling, day after day looking forward to her warm and moving greetings, I am afraid that one day this kind of greeting will disappear.
What makes her special is not just the daily greeting, but more that she likes to tell me everything, talk to me about her hometown, her relatives, and like to answer my "childish and ridiculous" questions. No matter how busy she is, she will also find time to tell me what she is doing, let me know her life every day, although she is far away from me, but "close at hand" and living in my mind. Sometimes, happiness comes too simply, maybe just an ordinary greeting "good morning, good night" is enough, it is her warm greeting, let me experience an unprecedented "sense of happiness", I always fantasize ~ love comes too suddenly. It may be funny to see this, but you don't know what a wonderful moment it is for someone who has never been in a relationship, and I only hope that time can stay so that I can save that good time.
From the factory to the home, we have known each other for more than two months, but our contact has never stopped, I like her beautiful voice, I don't know when, I have gradually fallen in love with the mysterious girl in front of me. Sometimes I always think with a pestle in my head, fantasizing about our future, our love. Some days after leaving school, I was thinking about the day we would see each other every day, and the anticipation was like suffering. Time is always fair, the day of our school finally came in our anticipation, everything was silent for too long, so I thought of all kinds of ways, looking for various reasons to see her, but every time I was politely rejected by her, I became overwhelmed, only bitterly waiting. Perhaps it was my sincerity that touched her, and she finally plucked up the courage to tell me that she wanted to see me, and at that moment, not to mention how happy I was, threw down the book in my hand, and trotted all the way from the library to the canteen, and in the noisy crowd, I still found her. In this way, the timid me met the shy her, in front of me, this girl did have some differences from what I imagined, at least the front of her was too shy, looking at her shy face, I didn't know what to say, I could only think of a word. In front of me, she panicked and the chopsticks slipped to the ground, and she was in a hurry, which was a little funny at the time, but more of a pity for her.
After that meeting, after another week or two, I felt that the time had ripened, so I decided to summon up the courage to confess to her that whether it was successful or not, I would try it too. After thinking about it, I decided to text her to confess, so I pressed the send button
"Double ~ you can't answer my phone, I can only express to you in this way, to be honest, I find that I kind of like you, I don't know why, I never really liked a girl, you are the first, this feeling makes me feel uneasy all the time, whenever I see you are not online, I will feel a sense of loss, every day I am looking forward to your reply, even if it is a short 'hey hey' I will feel very satisfied." 」 We've been talking for about two months, and it's no longer surprising that we like you. I don't use words, but I will do my best to make you happy, and I go to the music department for the main reason."
I waited a night, but I waited for her sad words
"I want to say ~ in fact, I have a boyfriend, he is in the fourth year of high school, he did not do well in the college entrance examination last year for some reasons, so I'm sorry, what I didn't give you before is because I don't want to tell outsiders too much... Hey hey, there's definitely something better for you than me~
Since then, no matter how I expressed my heart, she was indifferent, and I had told myself that I could not give up so easily, so I insisted desperately, fantasizing that one day she would change her mind and understand my pure heart. Sometimes I really feel very tired, during the day I am constantly busy with the club and the student union, I can't eat when I can't eat and go to class, and when I come back at night, I have to think about how to recover this hard-won love, but there is no direction and no future persistence that makes me feel very tired and confused. I didn't want to believe she had a boyfriend (as I knew her), but no matter what, everything was irretrievable, and I finally chose to let it go. That last message was sent.
"Shuangshuang ~ may not be able to call you that in the future, because at this moment I already understand that you are no longer living alone, maybe I should have let go." I thought that as long as I worked hard and persevered, you would accept me one day, but ideas are ideas after all. Every time I call you, I have a fluke mentality, always fantasizing that one day you will answer my call, but this time it is still wrong, for you, I find that I have become so numb, numb to not know what I am doing, perhaps too much to like you, so that I blinded my eyes. I was waiting for you downstairs that day, silly thinking that you would come down, watching one girl after another come downstairs, holding the boyfriend's hand and passing in front of me happily, at that moment my heart was instantly cold, I have been waiting, but what is waiting is people coming, but there is no figure of you. I was always thinking that anything was possible, but until yesterday my sister woke me up with a sentence from my sister, and she said (do you want to keep a little face?). Other people aren't interested in you at all!) That sentence came to my heart. Maybe I really don't have the right to have your love, I should have understood that in this way, it is a kind of helplessness for you, and it is even more a kind of harm to me. I will not be so stupid to entangle anymore, you are free, I wish you happiness ~ if one day he bullies you and hurts you, remember to tell me, I can't spare him, or that sentence, I wish you happiness and happiness ..."
Happiness sometimes comes too suddenly, and it comes and goes in a hurry, and may we all remember the girls we chased over the years.