Gillian cried: I'm just trying very hard to live!
The first mainland variety show "Because I'm a Friend", co-hosted by Joey Yung, Chua Cheuk-yeon (Asa) and Chung Shin Tong (Ah Jiao), was a huge hit and set off a lot of discussion. In the latest episode of the show, they continued to enjoy the trip with their good sister Zheng Xiyi (Yumiko) and manager Huo Wenxi (Mani), in the process, Gillian talked a lot with Mani about a lot of inner talk, Ajiao blew herself up in the tragic encounter of childhood, heard Mani can't help but cry, but also made many netizens feel sad.
In the whole program journey, although Mani is not fully involved, but through the program can know Gillian's movements, found that she is often unsociable, like to be alone, just like Asa, Joey, Kenny (Guan Zhibin) dancing together, Gillian sat alone in the back and did not dance with everyone, when everyone went swimming together, she stood alone next to Xie Tingfeng, and when everyone went fishing together, she stood alone and watched, etc. These actions of hers made Mani quite worried, so when the two sat down to talk, Gillian spoke a lot of inner words to Mani.
It turned out that Gillian's incompatibility was due to her own insecurity, all because the unhappy experience of childhood left a shadow on her, and she choked up even more when recalling the unhappy past of childhood: "I didn't want to express it before (why?). I was afraid, I felt that the person next to me would harm me. When I was a child, my mother took care of me to different families, and I was more ethereal. He kept knocking me on the head in the family who took care of me, and when I told my mom that she didn't believe it, no one believed it without parents. Finally I went to my uncle's house, and it was three of my cousins, and they washed me with the water from the bath." Finally, he said, "I'm just trying to live," which was rather frustrating. After listening to her childhood story, Mani also said with wet eyes: "I feel it, so you are not easy, it's okay, you have us." 」
In fact, Gillian once said on the show that she almost had no childhood, and she didn't find a sense of belonging until she entered the company: "I almost didn't have a childhood, I can say that I started my life when I entered the entertainment industry." 」 My mom didn't take good care of her either, and my dad wasn't there. She (mom) is not a bad person, she already had me when she was very young, and she didn't know how to take care of a little friend and educate a little friend, so a lot of things, I also slowly learned after entering the entertainment industry, I am a person with no sense of security." It is conceivable that her childhood experience had a great impact on her.
Fortunately, after entering the company, she met good sisters Joey and Asa, and she thanked them very much for helping her a lot: "Their small action has been a great help to me. When I was very helpless, she was with you, and slowly I let myself go, and I felt that I was now starting to make friends with this society." I hope Gillian can live happily, because there are still many fans who love you.
