It has been unremarkable since childhood
When I was in elementary school, I didn't know what I was doing in school, and I didn't know what I was doing until the third grade of elementary school.
When I was in middle school, I didn't study very well, I only knew how to study, study hard, and at that time I wanted to get ahead and make my parents less tired.
I didn't get into the school, I didn't want to repeat it, I paid 8,000 yuan to go to the best high school in our county, and there was a lot of money in 2005, I didn't have much feeling at the time, and I didn't have a number, when I had so much money in my hand to give to the school, I felt a little reluctant, how could it be so much, how thick a bunch, how hard my parents had to work to earn so much, I vowed to study hard, take a good university, can't be sorry for my parents.
However, the first half of high school was bleak, and I felt a lot of pressure in my heart, because I belonged to the bottom of the class, and I never had such a sense of frustration, so I wanted to raise the rank, and every time I took the exam, the rank was moving forward. However, I am not happy, math scores do not know how, know how to do, a calculation is wrong, 1 of the 5 questions is right, do not know why it is wrong, where it is wrong, next time it is still so wrong.
I didn't dare to communicate with my classmates, and at that time I felt very inferior, inferior to others everywhere, and depressed every day.
Every weekend there are parents of classmates to come to see them, give them good food, classmates will also go out shopping, buy food, buy clothes in the middle of the day on Sunday afternoon, and I have not gone out once, until now I am not familiar with my county town, just graduated that will and classmates mentioned things about the county I am avoidant attitude.
High school winter vacation ended, this day I went back to school, my mother went out to work, early in the morning we sat on the bus, all the way did not speak, did not dare to look at my mother, passed by my grandmother's house, as soon as I arrived at my grandmother's house, I could not stop crying, or crying, my cousin looked at me, did not dare to speak, my grandmother did not care about me, secretly went out, I only remember crying very painfully, want to vent the same, crying for a long time. Crying out will really be much better, the heart is not so depressed, and then came to school, did a final sub-subject teacher, I did a particularly good math test, the math teacher was very surprised.
After the division, I studied the liberal arts, the grades improved a lot, in the top 20 in the class, to the third year of high school, there is pressure again, every day is like that, what I want to learn is not OK, a little irritable, learning progress is not very obvious.
After the college entrance examination, the exam is not very ideal, the admission notice has come down, I have been struggling, whether to go on, the exam is not up and down, and I don't want to re-read. At that time, my childhood playmates, they all stopped school early, went out to work, and told me some of their opinions, summed up that they did not want me to go. My parents couldn't give me too much advice, and they didn't understand it either. I thought about it, struggled for a long time, my head was going to explode, and finally decided that I was going to school again. Going to school was the only way out for me, not only to make money, but also to improve my own cognition.
On the first day of the college report, I almost made a oolong, and it turned out that a girl from a different major in the same department had the same name and surname as me.
In college, I didn't learn much professional knowledge, and I thought about how to make money every day, and in the end, I didn't earn money, and I didn't learn well. What I want to say is what to do at what stage, beyond the scope of their own ability can not do.
Looking at it now, what you experience, you will get, what you will feel, and experience is sometimes wealth!