The person who hurt me the most in the world is gone

In the morning 659 received a call from my mother, my father was not OK, a moment of scalp tingling, last weekend ming was still in the hospital to take care of him, the situation is not very good, but it is not so bad, with the husband baby driving back to the hometown, it took more than an hour, the father belongs to the grumpy people, but the heart is actually very painful me and my sister, never beat us, the previous year when the house was 100,000 difference, the father did not say two words to let the mother return the financial products to me, 16 years dad did lung cancer surgery spent money, The unit insurance reimbursement also immediately let my mother transfer to us, as a child in fact, in fact, in the economy has not done much filial piety, just every New Year's Festival to buy something and wrap red envelopes for him and his mother, but every time he talks to his father is impatient, because his physical problems are always arguing with him, because his father is very much like the child's self-control is particularly poor, and I can not be as patient as he is with his own children, always count him out of a word, how can I not tolerate him a little more, be patient and listen to his complaints, When I was hospitalized with my father on the weekend, I cut my father's nails for the first time and helped him rub his body lotion for the first time, so many first times, how did I behave as a child for so many years, so I regretted it and felt guilty. But God will not give me another chance to compensate, the person who hurts me the most in the world is gone, remembering the father who once knelt down to beg for help me adjust the file (later listened to my mother) remembering the tears that my elderly father had quietly left because of my marriage problems. My heart was like an empty piece.