Love you, my eternal treasure

After coaxing Xiao Bao, seeing that she slept soundly, she carefully took the mobile phone from the bedside within reach, ready to look through today's WeChat group to see if there was important information that she had missed. Recently affected by the epidemic, a large number of purchase information, solitaire information, nucleic acid testing notices, receiving notifications, etc. every day, I feel that if I don't look at the mobile phone, something I need will slip away from my fingers.

I brushed my phone below, the top of the shelf bed was a creaking sound, too tired to talk, thinking about the big treasure above turned over and fell asleep on her own, just thinking, a black head with a messy long hair is now on the edge of the upper bed, just as my eyes can see, "Mom, I can't sleep, you hug me", she couldn't see her expression clearly in the dim, and the tone was full of expectation.

Thinking that my daughter asked me to sleep with her a few days ago, saying that I was partial to my sister, this would turn over, and then climbed up to the second floor lightly, my daughter happily gave me a little position, I slipped into her quilt, wrapped my arms around this little girl who was as tall as me, yes, she was also a child!

Because I was busy taking care of Erbao, I really ignored a lot, the eldest daughter was brought by me, until I was 10 years old, pregnant with Erbao, I picked up And dropped Off Dabao to and from school every day, and I still had to sleep with her in my arms every night, and I still had to accept her strange sleeping habit of pinching her neck until the birth of Erbao.

From the hospital to the confinement clubhouse, a month of time, every day telephone communication to learn, grading homework, she is very obedient to me, occasionally said that she missed me, that is because she knows that her mother gave birth to a baby can not go back immediately, on the weekend she will come to the club with her father, sleep with me for a night, very excited, and very lost, she is my treasure, spoil her for many years, and now, my mother has more than one need to take care of and pamper the little treasure, I am afraid that I can't do well, afraid of the big treasure is sad, afraid of her loss, more afraid that she will become selfish like some children in the second-child family, Stubborn, unreasonable.

However, now the big treasure in her arms, to the two relatives is still so quiet, I know, she likes her mother to accompany her, she said: "Mom, I am so hot, you hold me one and go down", she knows that I will definitely go down, do not want me to embarrass, I said wait a little longer.

She quickly pushed her pillow to my side, I said: you pillow, I use that big pillow just fine, suddenly found that the big pillow that usually blocks her bed head is missing, it turned out that at the first time I just came up, Dabao was afraid that I had no place to sleep, directly took the pillow away and put it at the end of the bed, she was so delicate and careful child!

I can't help but regret: how many times I lost my temper with Dabao because of irritability, treating her as an adult, asking her to understand me, understanding me, but not having much time to pay attention to her thoughts, chatting with her, playing with her, playing TV or games with her, she would play checkers alone, she always said "Mom, I can play chess with myself!" "How many times have I refused her to ask me to accompany her, and I would always say that my sister needs me now, she is still young, you go by yourself... I think, I broke her heart, she seems to understand, but that is not the real her, she wants to have all the love of her mother, but there is no way, her mother is not her alone.

She saw me looking for a pillow, immediately got up and pulled the pillow from the end of the bed, she was so cooperative with me, because at this moment, my mother is hers, she is also her mother, she loves my mother, and she will do everything that will make my mother comfortable.

I said, "Go to sleep, Mom's here to see your phone." I covered her with the quilt, and she closed her eyes and slept so soundly. Ever since we moved to the small bedroom, I slept with XiaoBao on the lower bunk, she slept on the top bunk, and I never went up to sleep with her once, because every time she fell asleep so fast, I was very relieved.

Today, lying next to her, looking at that familiar childish face, even breathing, a satisfied smile seems to be still on the face, my favorite baby, suddenly a burst of heartache, can't help but tears flow down, these two years of second treasure life, too much helpless, too sad, at this moment, the night has passed halfway, Dabao adjusted the sleeping position twice, Xiaobao also churned several times, and I, without any sleep, although tomorrow is still a bunch of things to eat and drink Lasa to do, but life is not like this?

In the new year, I want to plan well, I hope that my two treasures will grow up happily and healthily, I want to pay more attention to their needs (especially Dabao, how her needs are after all), I also have to care about my father who works hard for a family living outside, at the same time, I can't miss myself, take care of my body, after all, the coolies of the whole family seem to be made by me! How many stay-at-home moms like me will have this experience.