When the meal was over, Xiao Xi's soy milk shop began to quiet down. Qu Wu went to the unit, and Lin Xiaoxi guarded the storefront alone.
Sometimes A maza sits in front of the shop and looks at pedestrians walking around, birds flying around, the scenery is the same, but the location is strange. Sitting and sitting, the mind will drift away and drift to the hometown of Shandong.
Are Mom and Dad okay, and are their former friends still working well? At first, she was away without hesitation, and the moth rushed to her love like a fire.
But it is really far away from the homeland, that kind of thought, really like a thin little rope, holding you all the time, as long as there is free time, it will run in that direction without choice.
That day, I met a person with a Shandong accent on this strange street and felt very kind. When the fellow sees the fellow, even if he is not excited to the point of tearfulness, his heart is always warm. People are still just here to ask for a way, not to buy soy milk, Lin Xiaoxi is eager to give people a cup, do not want money.
Ask people invariably, have you returned to your hometown, and have there been any changes there? In fact, when asked, Lin Xiaoxi also felt superfluous, just this two months of hard work, what earth-shaking changes can there be. Many cities are ten or twenty years old, repeating the same face.
However, this way of talking nonsense can even alleviate Lin Xiaoxi's homesickness.
At the beginning, Qu Wu stood in front of the second elder, holding Lin Xiaoxi's hand, looking at her father and mother very sincerely, begging them to agree to Xiao Xi following him back to Inner Mongolia. The old man's eyes flashed a trace of pain.
The girl is grown up, is going to marry, and has run so far. How can you give it up? However, the child chose it himself and decided that the parents have always been very enlightened and will not beat the mandarin duck with an inhumane stick. They knew their daughter too well, and they saw the things that the nine cows did not want to pull back, and hit the south wall without turning back to the Lord.
But then again, let the girlfriend run thousands of miles to him, how can the old man rest assured. When I look at my eyes, I am cold, hot, thirsty, hungry, unhappy, and home, and my parents. When I went there, I always stumbled and quarreled, and when I was wronged, what to do if my daughter was wronged, and there was no place to cry.
Therefore, Lin Xiaoxi's parents did not resolutely oppose it, but they also did not explicitly support it. They were looking at Lin Xiaoxi's attitude, and if the servants resolutely wanted to go, they couldn't stop them.
But the mother still put the ugly words in the front, Xiao Xi, if you want to go, the mother does not stop, but the words have to be opened. You are not a child, what decision to make should be well thought out, what is the reason for doing so, decided not to regret it in the future. The path is chosen by oneself, and any result must be endured. Of course, Mom wants you to have the happiness you want, but if it's not what you think, don't end up complaining that Mom didn't remind you. I don't object to your dad because I'm afraid that if you don't agree, you won't find someone you like in the future, and you'll blame us in turn.
Mom, I know, it's my own choice, no matter where I go with him and how my life goes, I don't regret it. Lin Xiaoxi wiped the tears from the corners of her mother's eyes, and her heart was also a little sour. Sometimes I wonder if I'm too selfish, abandoning my parents for love, so far away from them. Maybe she won't be able to come back once a year, but how much time she can spend with them in their lifetime.
Lin Xiaoxi pretended to calmly use the theory of "people move to live, trees move to die" to convince himself and comfort his mother. Stroking the white hair between her mother's hair, Lin Xiaoxi's heart was shaken. The most difficult thing for people to face is to make trade-offs, there are struggles, there are contradictions, there are concerns, but you always have to choose, people's hands are so big, you want to get some, you have to give up some.
However, giving up on either end is a pain.
However, in the end, Lin Xiaoxi chose to follow Qu Wu back to Inner Mongolia, because she knew that whether her parents were there or not, whether she came back or not, they would always be there and wait for her tired bird to return.
But love, no, no one will always stand where you are. You let go one moment, and maybe the next moment you'll never see it again. And in this era of fast food of love, it is really not easy to meet a man you are willing to follow him, even if he does not have a high-ranking official Houlu, no prominent power, no golden mountains and silver mountains, you will not doubt, you will firmly believe that as long as there is him, everything will be there.
This almost blind worship is the source power for Lin Xiaoxi to follow him with a dead heart. And she understands better that what she wants is the sense of security that stays by his side, the heart is solid, the sky is falling, you will not be afraid. Because of him.
The love of children for their parents will always be selfish, never will, and cannot be, as heavy as a mountain and as vast as the sea as the parents have given them. Inclusive of everything.
Away from parents, it is inevitable that you will not give up. For this reason, at the moment when they boarded the plane, Lin Xiaoxi did not see the figure of his mother, only his father's upright standing posture was reflected on the floor of the airport, and the waving hand was no longer so powerful, slowly, slowly, hiding how much sadness and loneliness.
Lin Xiaoxi was gone, and they were empty nests. The only girl went thousands of miles away, and there were only two old people in the family who looked at each other wordlessly, quiet to silence, silent to death, and each could hear each other's heartbeat. The little daughter who had been running back and forth in this room all day, jumping up and down, and whirring, was gone.
Lin Xiaoxi also repeatedly condemned himself in his heart, whether he was too cruel or too selfish. Just leave everything behind, go to that strange city, the future, happiness, will be like what you sketched. Suddenly, a little bit of dazedness, helplessness, and loneliness was added to my heart.
Although Qu Wu was with her, she had the sense of security she wanted by his side, but without her parents, her heart was like a missing piece, empty, and this gap was irreparable by love.
However, Lin Xiaoxi understands better that her parents want her to be happy. Even if she stays by their side, without the life she wants, her sullenness and unhappiness will only increase the helplessness of the old man.
A love separated by mountains and rivers can only shorten the mileage of thoughts as much as possible, staying with each other day and night, and the morning and evening are right.
When Dad turned to leave, Lin Xiaoxi was lying in Qu Wu's arms, crying loudly, crying so hard that her mouth was so open that she could stuff a crab into it with the inelegant saying that she often used to joke about Qu Wu's yawn. It made other passengers look at each other differently, and the airport staff came to inquire.
Qu Wu was a little embarrassed to explain that she had never left her parents and felt sad. But his heart is also very unhappy, he is also asking himself, is it too selfish, too cruel, let her leave the hometown where she lived for so many years, accompanied by her parents day and night. From then on, in that distant city, she was unaccompanied, and only he could give her a back.
But what if it weren't?
The love of soldiers is based on the separation of two places as the mainstream model. But that is all a last resort, if you can accompany, who is willing to suffer from lovesickness.
Seeing Lin Xiaoxi crying like a child, really like a child who had lost his mother, Qu Wu's heart was very sad. This, although she loves to cry, never makes a fuss, loves to laugh, but never argues, she will express her emotions, but never out of control, never hysterical, no matter what she will keep her ladylike state.
However, today, the moment she left her hometown, she had a feeling of being close to collapse, something that was torn apart from her heart, that pain, that expression, that he could never forget for the rest of his life.
He had no choice but to hold her tightly, humming the songs she liked to listen to, patting her on the shoulders like a little baby. Comfort her, Xiao Xi, don't be sad, when we settle down, we will pick up the old man.
When the plane flew steadily over the clouds, Lin Xiaoxi had entered a state of deep sleep, and there were tear marks on his face, like the bending traces of earthworms crawling after the rain. His mouth was pursed, only his hand was still tugging at the corners of his clothes, twitching his body from time to time, sucking his nose as if he had been frightened in a dream, and then leaning against his body.
She depended on him, like a child, and whenever she looked up at him with infinite admiration, almost admiration, his man's self-esteem and vanity were greatly inflated and satisfied. He told himself in his heart that no matter at any time, when he encountered anything, he could not fail her, did not make her sad, and let her live happily by his side.