I've said thousands of lies, but that one I love you is true.
Today we're going to talk about the same-sex biographical film I Love You Morris, starring Kim Carey and Ivan McGregor.
The protagonist of the story is named Steve Russell (Kim Carey), he is a paid adopted child, in order to find out his biological parents, he became a policeman, but finally found his mother, but the mother's denial... Steve also has a happy family, he and his wife are a pair of devout believers, pray daily, and the two have a lovely daughter... Yet these are just appearances, in fact, Steve is a homosexual who has deceived everyone with endless lies. Finally after a car accident, Steve had an epiphany about life and decided to live the life he wanted, he disclosed his sexual orientation and began a life of luxury enjoyment with a gay man, the days of perennial deception created Steve's extraordinary ability to deceive, soon after the fraud crime East Window Incident, Steve was imprisoned, but in prison met the love of his life Morris (Ivan McGregor), Morris's fiery love made Steve crazy, he gave morris all his passion and courage, The couple's escape from prison left a legendary story.
It's hard to imagine that the protagonist of this movie is real.
Smart, confident, and brash, Steve is a sweet lover, but also a hypocritical, liar-mouthed, crazy criminal.
Under the blessing and shaping of Kim Carey's acting skills, Steve is also good and evil, eye-catching, he is strong and fragile, a dangerous person who understands people's hearts, and looks like a hairy boy who fights for his lover.
Full of contradictory three-dimensional characters, people love and hate and pity, coupled with the existence of archetypal characters, I can't help but want to analyze Steve's various behaviors and the real world story outside the plot timeline of the movie.
1. Childhood trauma that accompanies a lifetime
The theory of childhood trauma has been repeatedly mentioned over the years, and people need to trace the source when analyzing an event. The source is naturally the childhood of irrationality, independent personality, high dependence on others, but already having a basic consciousness of the world.
As a child, Steve is told by his adoptive parents that he is an adopted child, and the adoptive father smiles and tells the truth that his biological mother gave up on him because of a bag of money
Young Steve was hit hard, but his performance was an oath to be the best person he could be. To be the best person, the best standard here is determined by the adoptive parents, by the wife and daughter, by the society, Steve has to do all is to play, a kind smile is often on the lips, a respected police identity, a good husband with a happy family.
Steve, who is happy in the eyes of others, struggles and pains inside. The trauma of being abandoned by his mother tormented him all the time, and becoming a policeman was only to use his position to find his biological mother and ask her why he had given up on him.
This obsession made Steve always have a fear of abandonment in his heart, and the most common thing he said to those close to him was: It is good to know that you still care about me. The desire to be cared for, after meeting Morris, became the desire to be dependent.
2. The bigger the balloon called the Lie balloon blows, what happens in the next second?
Morris's presence escalates the magnitude of Steve's lies and crimes.
Steve, who has a clever mouth and a low sense of morality, will not mix too badly wherever he is. Getting close to the person you like and getting the other person's favor is like probing for something. Next, he began to change a single cell for the person he liked, exchanged letters every day, and finally disappeared for 20 days, and then suddenly became his roommate, and then completed the strategy and took down the lover.
Prison is a closed little society in which Steve seems to be omnipotent, and Morris's adoring and attached gaze is the most seductive poison, and Steve is intoxicated and unable to extricate himself. He longs to be depended on, and being depended on means never being abandoned.
So he disguised himself as a lawyer and successfully parole morris out of prison. Defending Morris's friends, luxury cars, yacht islands, countless honey poured down, Morris seems to be Steve's canary, and Steve seems to be in the initiative in this relationship.
3. How to love yourself? How to love others?
The balloon explodes, and Morris is angry at Steve for concealment and hates Steve for cheating. The seemingly strong Steve bows down in front of his lover and asks for forgiveness. In fact, from the beginning to the end, Steve never overcame his fears.
Hide your true self and live like the people you care about. As long as you want, I can be anyone, a devout believer, a funny lawyer, a rich cfo... Become whatever you like, alone can not become myself, just as Steve can give his lover a luxury car yacht villa, alone can not give sincerity and companionship. Because I don't know myself either.
When disguise becomes a habit carved into the blood and bones, lies become as natural as breathing.
As the two separated, Morris bowed his head and asked Steve sadly: I can't even figure out who you are, how can I love you?
When everything you describe, even you yourself, is just a dream woven by layers of lies, how can I love you?
Does Steve love Morris? The answer is undoubtedly love. It's just that Steve doesn't know how to love. Because he did not receive it, he could not give it.
Steve, sentenced to life in prison, has 23 hours of solitude a day, and in the long rest of his life, Steve may be able to find his true self, but he can't say to his lover again: I love you, Morris.