Author: Insight Annabésu
Fate showed me my claws, and I grimaced at him.
On the first day of 2022, many people were immersed in the strong atmosphere of the New Year, and a 31-year-old man from Ningbo was diagnosed with new crown.
His flow trajectory has poked at the weakness of countless people.
In the nearly two weeks before his diagnosis, he lived 7 to 9 for 10 days, taking only one day off, or going to the hospital.
The doctor said that his liver disease was somewhat serious and had to be hospitalized, and he also found out that he was infected with the virus when he was doing nucleic acid before hospitalization.
Suffering from liver disease, diagnosed with new crown, unable to work, hands and mouths, thinking about it feels sad.
This 31-year-old man is the most ordinary of the tens of millions of workers.
He works in a garment factory, his salary is calculated according to the piece count, every day he leaves early and returns late, and he travels back and forth at two o'clock and one line, and he does not dare to ask for leave or get sick.
Some netizens said with emotion that now he can finally rest well.
But I thought, if I were him, how could I want this unexpected accident to come?
After all, if you delay a day's work, your family will have one less source of income.
The child's tuition, daily expenses, which one, is not waiting for him with a big mouth full of blood?
In the adult world, every step is like stepping on the tip of a knife, and the slightest movement will seep blood from the wound.
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The man's situation reminds me of several other circulation reports some time ago.
Last December, Shaoxing, Zhejiang.
A 52-year-old taxi driver leaves the car at 6 a.m. every day and doesn't pick up the car until 2 a.m. the next day.
Every day, 20 hours are spent in the car, passing by fast food restaurants at mealtimes, rushing to grab a few bites of rice, and then re-merging into the traffic and running to a busy life.
Wind and rain, all year round, no one knows how long he has lived on such a day.
Last August, Zhengzhou, Henan.
An elderly pregnant woman who teaches in a middle school was still on duty at school for 3 days before her diagnosis, and occasionally went out to eat, either Lanzhou ramen or Shaxian snacks.
During the 14-day trip, her only leisure was to walk around the shop at the entrance of the community and go to the fruit supermarket to buy some food.
The unit, the child, the life, pulled her hands and feet.
There is a 58-year-old uncle who just sent his wife to the ICU on the front foot, but he was on the way to get the case and unfortunately became infected.
Not far home, he was reluctant to take a taxi, spent an hour or two, and reversed 4 buses.
Even though he was so messed up, life still hadn't spared him.
In July last year, Shenzhen Bao'an, 64-year-old Liu's mother-in-law, was still working hard in the year of Hua Jia.
Go to the hospital in the morning to take care of the sick wife, take the subway to the daughter's restaurant to help at noon, and can't go home until the evening to rest...
In her 64-year-old daily life, there is no morning tea, no mahjong, no square dancing, just countless responsibilities, and day-to-day labor.
It is said that there are hundreds of forms in the world, but the adults under this flow clearly live the same life:
Family, unit, and vegetable market are three points and one line, hard work, tired to nowhere to breathe, no way to retreat.
Behind the cold numbers and unfamiliar place names is everyone's real and rough life.
Those taxis that are reluctant to stop, those who can't rest for a while, we may not have experienced them all, but we can feel it.
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Some people say that the true face of the city is not in the rows of tall buildings, not in the busy roads, but in the daily life of every ordinary person.
Under the prosperity of the city, the life trajectory of ordinary people hides the difficulties of all adults.
I have seen an uncle pulling a tricycle, waiting for a red light, actually dozing off.
Does he not know the danger?
He was just too sleepy.
Life is spinning, the energy that is gradually fading, and the time that is constantly passing, so that he can only race against the clock to seize the time to rest.
Otherwise, there will be no way to pick up the spirit and continue to carry all kinds of difficulties in life.
I've seen the staff in the scorching sun, and the heavy clothes made him breathless, and finally he couldn't resist the sweltering heat and slowly fell down.
Even though he was exhausted, he still didn't take off his hood, not because he wasn't important, but because work was more important to him.
I've seen "trapeze artists" high in the city, uprooted, sleeping on hard, cold bunks, and eating the cheapest meals.
I was so tired from work that I lay down in mid-air and slept on the spot.
They look up at the vast expanse of the sky, and they lean over the traffic of the city, but they are carrying the burden of responsibility that cannot be unloaded.
Back to the 51-year-old Ningbo man above, back to every circulation report, a hard and real ordinary person, let us see clearly, the adult world, there is no years quiet, only the weight forward.
Milan Kundera wrote in Immortality: "Life is the way I walk through the world with pain." ”
Ordinary people have reached a responsible age, and they really dare not get sick, dare not ask for leave, and dare not cry out in pain.
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Earlier, I saw a question in Zhihu: Adult life is not easy, what is supporting them to continue to move forward?
The thousands of answers pieced together are the difficult but happy daily lives of each of us.
On the sidewalk of the street, a couple took advantage of their free time to dance happily.
At the last moment, they were ordinary and toiling earthly people, with old people to bear and children to be raised.
But the next moment, the days seemed to gradually become lighter with the footsteps of dancing.
Life is hard, but the years cannot be let down.
A 9-year-old boy, crying at home late at night, the cry alarmed the neighbor, and after the neighbor called the police, the police arrived.
When the police were about to call the child's mother, they were stopped by the boy:
"My mom is at work, don't call her, she won't get paid if she doesn't have enough time to run."
The boy said that although his mother came home late every day, he could understand her.
"Although she ignores me at night, she takes care of me in the morning, and she also cares about me in life, but she is busy at work."
You see, although life is hard, that little man understands all your sorrows and joys.
On the busy bridge, the man flipped over the railing, and the passing police officer flew and hugged him tightly.
At that moment of near-fall, the life of one stranger was salvaged by another stranger.
Life has sludge and gullies, but these tiny rays of goodwill paint a bright undertone for our tired lives.
The world is in ruins, and there are always people who share your sorrows and joys.
No matter how far and long the road ahead is, the road on earth must be walked slowly.
Because, this is real life.
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Sometimes I feel like I'm in a trance, as if the 2021 that has just passed is just around the corner.
This year, floods, epidemics, many people after parting never to see.
This year, people have been difficult and disappointed, but they have always had hope.
Although the world still has wind, frost, rain and snow, fortunately, there is a little gentle enough to heal.
Guo Guoliang, a reporter from the Southern Metropolis Daily, said a passage when he left this world:
Fate showed me its claws, and I grimaced at him.
Sometimes I feel that I am almost unable to hold on, but please remember that there is nothing shameful about a temporary break, no need to be strong. ”
When you are tired, lie down, and cry out when you are sad.
Don't be discouraged, everything will be fine, don't be disappointed, life will give you wind and frost, and will eventually give you honey.
"At the end of the long day, I stand before you, and you will see my wounds, and you will know that I have been wounded and healed."
Only those who have experienced, persevered, and stood firmly can really see what life looks like.
Give it a thumbs up, to every ordinary person who swims against the current, to send the courage to grow to the sun, the warmth of unexpected arrivals.