Will literature fail us? If literature has failed me, then it must be my problem, not the literary problem.
Dostoevevsky's life was so miserable, he was always tormented by epilepsy, but he was always trying to choke the throat of fate and control his life, and literature did not fail him because he never failed literature. There are many more rational elements in the works written by men, unlike women who have been addicted to pain and cannot extricate themselves.
The scenes depicted in "Fang Siqi's First Love Paradise", those events. Disgusting, beautiful, we can all see from the pen that the author is a slender person who pays great attention to beauty and shows beauty. People who have always been addicted to beauty cannot see the essence through phenomena. Imagine a little girl who loves beauty so much, she loves her beauty and literature more than her own life, when her beauty is destroyed and her literary faith collapses, how can she survive?
I can actually imagine Evan as an adult, she is thinking of redefining the words she used to be defined by Li Guohua, but she finds that her real life is worse, she can't explain everything that happens in her own literary language, and she can only let herself indulge in pain and immerse herself in the world of literature.
Lin Yihan's life was wrong from the beginning, and one mistake after another was connected. Until this mistake became so big that she could not digest it herself, she thought that it was all her own fault. Lin Yihan committed suicide on April 27, 2017, and "Fang Siqi's First Love Paradise" was published in February 2017, and he married Feng Xuanye in 2016.
Lin Silently supported alone, took Siqi and Yiting, entered the marriage, and became Evan, but sadly, the marriage was darker and became a lock, trapping Evan inside. Evan is Lin Yihan when he grows up. Faced with a beautiful woman with trauma, she carries with her past male aggression history, she has a highly talented knowledge. But in the end, she could not live as happily as the princes and princesses in the fairy tales. Evan could finally move out and be with Mao Mao. But Lin Yihan's husband could not be, if he was Mao Mao described in the text, then Lin would not have committed suicide.
The most likely explanation, the most realistic situation, is that Feng Xuanye is a combination of Mao Mao and one dimension. Because man is often a superposition of humanity and animalism, especially in the face of the weak. Growing up, Lin Yihan did not understand why people showed a joke attitude towards a victim. Even animals know how to lick wounds alone when no one is there, how could she not know this? Her vocals made her like a warrior, the first to raise a high torch, even though many people shouted that they would hang this red-faced water directly.
Fang Siqi went crazy at a very early age, Yiting survived strongly to replace Siqi, but later became Evan after entering marriage, only to find that the sad fate of women is a fate that cannot be escaped. Growing in the mud in pain, growing up hard, walking so far to find that there is still no light. The most terrible thing about being alive is that you already know that there is no road ahead of you, you have nowhere to go, nowhere to escape, this is a big reason why Lin Yihan is determined to die.
People sympathize with a weak person, always in person with her, and stab her in the back. Only those in the same situation will encourage each other and cheer each other up. The evil of human nature is, "You got what I didn't have, and I said bad things about you behind my back." "I can say that you, red face, can say that you are shameless." "I can also nail you to the pillar of divine shame and then strip you of your clothes over and over again and judge you." All the acts that satisfy human lusts and curiosities are happening, and they think of themselves as morality, they think of themselves as public opinion.
It is too easy to judge a person openly. It doesn't have to be in court, it can be a bedroom, it can be a park, it can be a café. But when a person tears a hole in the coffin with death, they immediately realize that things are going big. It turns out that she is also kind, she is not like a prostitute, she is not a BZ and she has to set up a torii. She was the most pitiful person in the general public.
Lin Yihan's life is in the early stage of entering literature, and it is cut off by the whole waist. Her mind was broken and connected with false branches. This period of values is distorted, and she is trying very hard to constantly correct the memories of the past mistakes, tear herself apart like surgery, see what is wrong, and then cut that part of her life directly, and then sew it herself.
Man is a bottle full of memories and memories. Dark people touch dark memories, and bright people touch happy things. When Lin Yihan, who grew up, faced with marriage, Evan's direct miscarriage was like the destruction of Fang Siqi in the past. Destroy, it's all over. Freshman, how can there be a new life? Around the corrupt lilies and the orange juice crawling with worm eggs can only be a more tragic and dark life.