Xu Xiaojuan, who arrived in Wuhan, saw that there was no one on the road, the door of every household was closed, it was not like the New Year at all, and the hospital had already been in the city, seeing the "fully armed" workers, her thoughts quickly flew to before New Year's Day, as early as that time, Xu Xiaojuan, as a doctor, felt that this year was not very "peaceful", with the understanding of pneumonia and the "SARS" war of the year, she instinctively bought several batches of disposable masks on the Internet, and the price of masks had risen slightly. But she didn't care too much, and she scattered the masks she bought to her husband's side, several families on her side, and Grandpa Xu's house next door. This is just a normal exchange between relatives and friends, but she does not want to be sneered at by several relatives, she remembers that the sister-in-law who has a mouth as fast as a knife laughed at this: "Oh, I really can't imagine ah, a hair can't be pulled out of the 'iron hen' actually lost its own hair, everyone said, this is really a new thing!" When saying the word "one piece", the voice was deliberately accentuated, and the gesture was added, as if afraid that others would not know that Xu Xiaojuan was very picky, there were many people around at this time, Xu Xiaojuan was very unhappy after listening to it, only to hear Xu Er say: "Okay, her sister-in-law, you don't want to hone your mouth, who doesn't know that your strength is to damage people?" Besides, Xiaojuan is a very famous local doctor, and there must be a reason why she let us wear it. Li Si said, "Yeah, just save your poor spit!" The sister-in-law said, "Huh? What's going on with you, why don't you get sick? Grandpa Xu said: "Okay, everyone don't argue, or be more careful, I also saw it on the news, I heard that some people in Wuhan eat bats and get a more difficult to treat infectious disease, it is estimated that it is because of this reason, right?" Right, Xiao Juan? Xu Xiaojuan just wanted to nod her head in agreement, but she heard her sister-in-law say: "Well, they ate us and didn't eat, besides, Wuhan is 18,000 miles away from here, and when the infection comes here, won't most of China die?" Do you want me to say that you, the doctor, are in trouble and want to go through the back door or what? Grandpa Xu said angrily, "Your mouth, can you say a few words less?" Xu Xiaojuan desperately suppressed her anger and quickly said: "Okay, everyone don't argue, if you doubt, put it at home for the time being, in case it will be used one day?" You're right? I still have some things, let's not bother everyone. Xu Xiaojuan quickly left this place after saying it, but her heart was very sad, you said that it was normal to buy so many masks at once without being understood by others, but she did not think that her sister-in-law actually doubted her personality. And this side of the people are gradually scattered, people while walking while talking about the sister-in-law, the sister-in-law is very unhappy, back home she threw the mask on the sofa, scolded and grinned: "Really everyone has, actually let me be an evil person once, get, now it's good, you have to arrange a place for them!" ”
The next day, Xu Xiaojuan they made a rough "visit" to the entire hospital before work, saying that it was a "visit", in fact, in order to have a deeper understanding of the local epidemic situation and the busyness caused by the epidemic to the hospital, in the process, they found an extremely terrible phenomenon, this time the rescue mission made the medical staff dare not eat and drink, because the fully armed protective equipment will often be "retired" because of a small "private life", and replace a new batch, although there are directional ones from all over the country A single source of supply, but it is still relatively tight for the huge, day and night rotation of all medical staff.
Facing the patients on the hospital bed, Xu Xiaojuan's heart was very painful, and she really did not know what kind of words to use to comfort them. Seeing her heavily armed peers, she herself felt very scared, she couldn't see the other person's face, and she could only know the other party's surname and name through the Chinese characters behind her. Everyone is very busy, and patients lying in hospital beds are constantly being pushed from one ward to another.
During the senior grade of primary school, Xu Xiaojuan began to contact a special "composition" written by herself and approved by herself, the diary, and since then she has slowly cultivated the habit of writing a diary every day, which has been retained until now and has not given up. No matter how busy or tired you are, every day before falling asleep, you will pick up a pen or a signature pen to write. However, the content of the diary has changed and enriched, during the school period she only truthfully recorded her day's "itinerary", but when she arrived at work, she no longer recorded this assembly line of personal life, but focused on recording the patient's state, psychology and even desire, she found that this is worth recording, profound significance of the "schedule", she recorded the diary every day also unconsciously rose from more than 100 words to a thousand words.
On the evening of Han's first day of work, Xu Xiaojuan still picked up a pen and recorded yesterday and today's situation in her diary:
This is the first time I have gone out because of work, and it is a long journey spanning hundreds of kilometers, and I have a general understanding of the new crown epidemic through the news and the explanations in the hospital every month before I set off, but yesterday I arrived in Wuhan and today I "visited" the hospital that will be supported by us, and found that the epidemic is far more serious than I thought.
The New Year was supposed to be the reunion day of ten thousand families, but they could not go back after the twenty-ninth day of the 29th lunar month. Coming from all ages in the land of China, they want to spend a special closed year in the tongqu place of the nine provinces, which no one can imagine, including myself. What made me "unexpected" was that the New Year should be full of lights and joy, but Wuhan, which was in the middle of the New Year, was extremely deserted and cold. I wonder if someone who is not familiar with this place and has not read any news has just come here, would he think that this is a modern metropolis that has not been inhabited for a long time?
What I "didn't expect" was that during the New Year's large-scale reunion festival full of joy, the hospital, which should have been cold and deserted, appeared "lively" at this time, which made people feel a kind of out-of-place resistance in their hearts. On the beds of the hospital lie patients of different ages, different positions, and even from different regions, they all suffer from the same disease, this disease was just discovered some time ago, the state named it "new crown pneumonia", this disease is essentially pneumonia, but it is far more serious than the general pneumonia. This can't help but remind me of the SARS virus 17 years ago, its Chinese full name is "SARS pneumonia", which was originally found in Guangdong and gradually spread to Southeast Asia and even the world, which is very serious, but I never imagined that its severity was far less than this year's new crown virus. For ordinary people across the country, this year has been "home isolation" since the beginning of the New Year, but they do not know when they will be truly "liberated". After the year, the resumption of work and the start of school are estimated to be postponed.
From the eyes of these patients, I can't see the New Year's celebration at all, but what I see is despair, even guilt, is knowing that I have this disease, and the results can be imagined, so I am desperate? Or have you struggled for a fruitful year, ready to go home to honor your parents and reunite with your wife and children for the New Year, but now you feel guilty about lying in the ward doing nothing because of this disease? Or do you still not know how much "blood" you have to "waste", so desperate? I can't really say. I don't know about the specific plan for treatment costs, because the country has not yet issued relevant policies, but it is certain that whether it can be reimbursed will be largely linked to medical insurance, which will not change. However, there are also a group of "special" patients here, they are not Wuhan natives, not even Hubei people, they are migrant workers from all over the country and in Han, the vast majority of them have not paid social security at all, so this is also a "roadblock". But I myself feel very sad, as a doctor I have no choice but to minimize the tragedies that may occur.
After writing this paragraph, Xu Xiaojuan, who was lying on the bed, could not sleep for a long time, and her thoughts quickly flew to the student period decades ago, she herself was an authentic rural girl, and she knew better than anyone about the fatigue of rural people, the hardships of her parents, and the "high-level" reunion of her family almost once a year, so in the countryside, the New Year was far more important than the Mid-Autumn Festival of "Thousands of Miles together". Extremely poor rural people seem to value money the most, so every time they call, they will hear the mothers' dissatisfaction with their men, there is a telephone contact point next door to her house, the tile houses in the countryside are relatively dilapidated, there is no sound at all, and she knows the quarrels in this regard very well. However, only during the New Year, I rarely hear quarrels about money, more of a celebration of gathering together, and my mother-in-law and daughter-in-law, who have been discordant for many years, can also sit at the same table and share food. When she grew up, she gradually understood that this is the eternal and unchangeable belief of the entire Chinese nation, everyone is inseparable from money, and may quarrel because of money, but few family ties become broken because of money. Although it was very poor at that time, it was far stronger than the current New Year atmosphere, and the neighborhood was very harmonious. In contrast, although the standard of living is getting higher and higher, the divorce rate is rising year by year, and neighbors who live on the same floor all year round and even door to door do not know what the name of the other party is...