#2021生机大会 #
Everyone is learning, both passive and active. Even if the world seems to others to be the kind of people who are not self-motivated and choose to end their own lives, we see as a negative attitude toward life.
But it is undeniable that everyone is improving, only some people are extremely slow and occasionally pause. Some people move forward at a uniform pace, and some move forward fast and slowly. It is undeniable that everyone is progressing and moving forward, no matter how others deny you, or deny others, I can absolutely tell you that he is progressing.
Of course, this progress doesn't necessarily meet most people's expectations. It may even be controversial, but it must be progress or for yourself.
People may summarize their own experiences because of the guidance of others. It may also be my own perception when reading.
And these words are always so fascinating, for me, it can even be said to be intoxicating. The feelings you bring to yourself must be wonderful and unforgettable.
But I know that everyone has a different view of the same thing, and there is no need to be too attached to some perceptions and words. Everyone's life experience is different, the same words, and there may be countless people who have said the same things in the same way, words, or in different ways and words.
So what I'm sharing is not unique, but it's given a different story because of different people. Maybe there's a different taste.
That was when I was still in junior high school, very naughty, and had conflicts with my parents. Although I have not skipped school, on weekends, after studying in the evening, I climb over the wall, or go out early and do not go back to the dormitory to go to the Internet café to surf the Internet.
It is always the thought of a child, and also because of the educational ideas of good people under the golden stick. He is often beaten, and he is afraid of his parents from the heart.
Also because my sister is younger than me, and her personality is a bit miao, that is, a little unreasonable and noisy. But as long as she cries, it is always my problem, so from the bottom of my heart, I feel that my parents are eccentric.
In the communication with parents, parents will always be very powerful. And I've become less and less talkative for all sorts of reasons like this. There are many stories, and people at this age today who read the stories that are written and those who are not written out certainly do not have so much feeling.
Because of my curiosity and some of my own experiences, I especially liked to discuss feelings and so-called life problems with my classmates during that time. But because of the insight and the limitations of his own knowledge, he could not come up with a reason that particularly convincing him.
I wonder what you choose to do when you face such doubts?
At that time, I began to slowly contact QQ, which was a platform for me to reach more people. Although for me now it has been abandoned.
At that time, when I went to an Internet café all night, I would choose to use conditions to find friends who added a lot. Maybe it's the reason why there are more people of the same age. I've asked many, many people this question, even for me today, if I have something I can't figure out, I'll ask a lot of people.
It's just that the older you get, the harder it looks to open your mouth. This makes me feel sorry. But there are many times when you break this self-limitation and ask others.
Of course, not all confusions and questions will be answered. Some may be because of work experience or technical questions that others are reluctant to answer; some may not be able to give me the answers I want because others do not have enough language skills to organize teaching. But most of the questions can still be answered.
I am delighted by all this. But something to be said today. It was when I was still unruly and mischievous.
I look for countless people on QQ to ask for love and ask for perfection. Love, this question, even today I dare not give myself a perfect answer. Or not finding the answer to all love.
But by chance, when I was about fifteen years old, I found the answer to the perfect life. It was a feeling of real understanding, it was a feeling of coral empowerment. I understand that even if I have achieved nothing today, I am very grateful for her conversation with me that day.
Although thousands of miles away, her care and wisdom inspired me to be a person who may have suicidal psychology. In this way, I can face life with a relatively relaxed attitude most of the time in the future.
The pain was still accompanied, but the smile also climbed more on his face. But it is also more able to face the problems that you should face, and you can really appreciate some of the current things.
I don't tell my story bit by bit. I'll roughly describe the feeling in my heart in the hope of being able to express everything I want to express more accurately.
In fact, I basically want to get the approval of my parents. As well as having some hobbies, get the respect of parents. And my parents' evaluation of me is often more demeaned or accused. As a result, self-esteem is hurt and less and less confident.
Table tennis, chess, two of my favorite sports. And badminton, of course. I remember once i bought a pair of ping-pong balls to go home. And Mom and Dad accused me of being a plaything. And I gave my racket to someone else without my permission or notice.
Perhaps for this reason, I especially hope to be a very well-behaved child. Be a child that parents especially like. Be a child who can be praised by his parents.
Of course, I've done a lot of bad things. At least at that age. Some things, even at today's age, are also bad things. Specific things, I will not go through them one by one. Of course, there are also some things that are chosen to be done out of a sense of revenge.
From today's point of view, it must be naïve. But in my perception, I have thought deeply that if time were to go back to the past, I might still make the same choice. Because I knew that the choice at that time must be in line with my mentality at that time.
So I'm constantly pursuing how to be the perfect kid. From my own thoughts, I think that a child who does not make mistakes, a child whose academic performance and other behavioral habits meet the expectations of his parents in all aspects, is a perfect child.
It's like a broken mirror. After all, there are cracks. So in my own perception, an object that has not been destroyed must be perfect. But at that time, I didn't know that life could not be without mistakes.
But I really worked hard and wanted to be an obedient child with relatively good grades. I didn't get it, I don't know, what was the specific reason I did those bad things? Maybe I've forgotten today.
But I always remember that I kept asking people what perfection was. Ask others, what kind of person do you think is perfect?
At that time, I also started watching TV, and there would be news. But I don't chase stars. The ones on TV that sound like they're successful, the ones on the Internet that sound rich may be in my heart, they're perfect. Maybe those star characters are perfect. And the scientists, and the heroes on TV.
I don't know if this is my inner expectation or what?
Until that day, I was online. She was ordered to persuade me. I have lost her contact information. Maybe I won't be able to do it in this life, but I am grateful for the words she brought me. And the attitude she brought to me. She spoke to me as an elder, on an equal footing.
She didn't blame me, I went online. She didn't really make me an elder either, full of regrets.
She also talked to me about studying. Until I asked her a question. What is true perfection?
I can't remember the rest of the chats. I can remember it now. Only this one sentence. Life is perfect, not because there have been no mistakes, in fact, a life that has made mistakes is perfect.
I didn't understand, and maybe I didn't really understand. Even today, I blame myself for the mistakes I made. I will also try to correct the mistakes I have made.
But I also understood that I was no longer demanding of myself and did not make mistakes. But I will correct my mistakes. I don't want to be afraid of my mistakes.
I'll be upset because I made a mistake. But I will choose to face my mistakes. And go to the advice or study, and correct it. I know that what I'm doing isn't perfect. Because there are some things that I haven't really corrected completely.
I get it. Because I know that joy, sorrow, sorrow, and fear are part of life in themselves. Maybe a person who does not make mistakes, and who lives his whole life, is a kind of perfection. He was perfect because he didn't make any mistakes. There is nothing to blame for being perfect. But isn't it a flaw? Because he hasn't experienced all that life should have.
Making mistakes is part of what a person might experience. Even in this world, there is not a single person who has not made a mistake. People who have experienced everything in this world. Isn't it a perfection?
He was perfect without any piece of the puzzle of life. This is the perfection that belongs to him, and it is also the perfection that belongs to you and me.
Maybe it was because I was making mistakes at the time and wanted to be recognized by others. But I don't admit that I am a person who is making mistakes. Maybe it was because of this experience that I really understood this sentence. Thus also feel the recognition of others.
But at the time of writing this, I have to say that I once only read part of it. But today I want to tell the reader, you.
You and I are unique, and this phrase is not new. But maybe there will be a new feeling. Because it is unique, it is perfect.
I hope that the perfect you can have a happy attitude to face this hard-won life and life. Know that everything you experience belongs to life, everything belongs to life. Are writing your perfect chapter.
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