Zhang Ailing, a very controversial figure in the literary world. Purely on talent, it can be said that it is a world-class wizard with far-reaching influence. Unfortunately, literature and politics are always inextricably linked.
Therefore, Zhang Ailing's humble love affair with Hu Lancheng, who has a problem with political tendencies, labeled her as a love brain label that does not distinguish between right and wrong, making her controversial and still despised by many people.
Why is it that Ming is so talented and beautiful, but he has to rely on an unreliable man?
Why do you know that you only need a little effort, such as writing an article, you can eat and drink, but you want to scribble your life, live alone at home with garbage, but refuse to write a word?
Zhang Ailing's later years can be said to be very miserable. Living alone in the United States, he was in extremely poor health after an abortion at an advanced age.
Every day with the TV set, and the TV set must be turned on 24 hours, the movement in the home is all from the TV set. Toilet paper was thrown all over the room and was a mess.
What makes a generation of talented women spoil themselves so badly? It has been said, "Happy people are cured by childhood all their lives, and unfortunate people have to spend their whole lives to heal childhood." ”
Perhaps Zhang Ailing's misery is because of the pain of childhood. A loveless childhood made her want to cling to every love, but the ending was not ideal. Like the characters in her book, love is difficult to complete.
Zhang Ailing, who is good at describing love, is sober and sharp in her works. But once faced with her feelings, she was confused and dull, so that her emotional road was not smooth.
Zhang Ailing was born into a famous family with an unattainable eminent family lineage, her grandfather was Zhang Peilun, a famous minister of the Qing Dynasty, and her grandmother was the eldest daughter of Li Hongzhang, a famous minister of the Qing Dynasty.
In such a big family, Zhang Ailing is not a little princess who is loved by everyone, but an air bag that needs to be observed everywhere in life to avoid blame.
The father was a typical deposed second-generation official, living by the family's estate, and was cowardly by nature, which was the complete opposite of the mother who longed for independence and freedom.
The mother bravely pursued her ideals and left the family directly to study in the United Kingdom. After returning from studying abroad, her stubborn mother became more and more disdainful of her father, who was not motivated. Finally, when Zhang Ailing was three years old, her parents divorced.
Because there is no affection between parents, Zhang Ailing is not a child born with love, so her mother's feelings for Zhang Ailing are extremely indifferent.
Perhaps I think that life after divorce will be a big burden if I take her, so my mother did not take Zhang Ailing away after the divorce. Zhang Ailing was kicked to her father like a leather ball.
After the divorce, her father soon continued, and Zhang Ailing had a stepmother. It is said that a child without a mother is like a grass, and a child with a stepmother is even more grassy than the grass.
The stepmother did not like Zhang Ailing at all, often abused her, and also filed a complaint in front of her father to frame Zhang Ailing. Therefore, his father, who was already weak in feelings, did not like Zhang Ailing even more.
Even once, her father and stepmother actually locked Zhang Ailing in the house and did not let her go out. The depressed home environment made Zhang Ailing breathless and wanted to go far away.
With her talent, Zhang Ailing was admitted to a British university and wanted to look for her mother. However, her mother was not willing to pay Zhang Ailing's tuition.
In desperation, Zhang Ailing had to go to find her father, who gave Zhang Ailing a tuition fee in a very reluctant manner.
In the end, because of the war, Zhang Ailing did not go to Britain, and finally chose to study at the University of Hong Kong. But he didn't graduate.
In the environment of lack of love since childhood, Zhang Ailing was disheartened and lonely. Therefore, Zhang Ailing has a criterion for finding an object, that is, the other party is older than herself, in order to expect that the other party can be more considerate and care for herself more.
During her time at the University of Hong Kong, Zhang Ailing met the personable Hu Lancheng. Hu Lancheng launched a passionate pursuit of Zhang Ailing, they watched the stars together to see the sunrise, talked about literature and wrote dramas, and were very like-minded.
However, these are only one of Hu Lancheng's sides, and it is true that he is talented and knowledgeable. But the other side of Hu Lancheng is the flower heart, eating soft rice, and being a thorough soft bone.
It is not enough to linger with Zhang Ailing, but also hook up with other female classmates everywhere, and even bump into Zhang Ailing face to face.
Obsessed women always hope that the amorous talent can change her mind. In the face of the scumbag who frequently seduced others, Zhang Ailing was still delusional that Hu Lancheng could return to her side.
In the case that Hu Lancheng did not have living expenses, Zhang Ailing also transferred her own writing fees to Hu Lancheng.
What is infuriating is that Hu Lancheng not only did not change his mind, but also used the manuscript fee given by Zhang Ailing to make a girl, and the degree of scumbag can be imagined.
Zhang Ailing, who mourned more than her heart, finally died and ended this relationship. However, this love affair has become a black history criticized by the world.
After sending his last manuscript fee to Hu Lancheng, it was like saying goodbye to the past. Zhang Ailing came to the United States alone.
In the United States, Zhang Ailing became acquainted with Laiya. Laiya is a mild-tempered American gentleman, and Zhang Ailing, who only wants a peaceful life at the moment, accepts Laiya, who is more than ten years older than herself, and soon the two are married.
Before marriage, 36-year-old Zhang Ailing was pregnant, but Lai Ya was more than ten years older than herself, already in her fifties, and simply unable to take care of the child, Zhang Ailing had to choose an abortion at an advanced age.
The roof leaked during the overnight rain, and not long after the marriage, Raya fell ill and was paralyzed.
In order to treat her husband's illness, Zhang Ailing had to start writing novels to earn contributions. While making money while taking care of her husband, Zhang Ailing's life is very difficult, but her husband still left due to illness.
Zhang Ailing, who completely lost her emotional maintenance, felt cold in her heart and began a life of isolation from others. Since then, I have never left the door of the apartment again.
At this time, Zhang Ailing is like Liu Xuehua, the first generation of Qiong Yao goddess in the recent variety show, who has not been out of the house for more than ten years, and the only sound at home is the TV set, which is open 24 hours a day.
The difference is that Liu Xuehua's life is regular, while Zhang Ailing is completely indulgent, sloppy life, completely unwashed, garbage thrown everywhere.
Zhang Ailing, who has not been in contact with anyone all year round, silently left the world in the room. It wasn't until the landlord inspected the house that she realized she was dead.
Zhang Ailing's tragedy may lie in believing too much in love. I believe that Hu Lancheng can give himself love, and Xiang Trust Ya can give himself companionship and comfort. After losing these pillars, Zhang Ailing felt as if she had lost herself.
Zhang Ailing is too fragile, although her love novels are thorough, but her life has not been practiced with this sober reason. She tries not to repeat the mistakes of the characters in the novel, but she is disappointed in the end.
If Zhang Ailing is stronger, she will be more successful in the literary world. If Zhang Ailing is warmer, her life will be happier.
By observing Zhang Ailing's painful old age, we must maintain an unquenchable enthusiasm for life and live eagerly. So how can you live eagerly? It is not to rely too much on others, and to love yourself at all times.