Flowing years, the sadness of the green years

Scene by scene, one by one, in front of the eyes, if there is a seemingly innocent presentation, a familiar face appears in front of the eyes.

Although I can't remember your face for a long time, your bright smile is imprinted in your mind incomparably clearly.

I always feel nostalgic so easily:

Hearing some songs, those sad love songs, and then can't help it, thoughts are flooded!

So nostalgic for that green time, so nostalgia for that period of time.

I remember how good you were at that time, how attractive you were, but I was just an inconspicuous ugly duckling, even if later you accepted me because you were moved, just because you were moved, maybe for a little sympathetic reason, and then it was not separated, a very bad excuse: my parents did not agree.

In fact, I didn't really like me, I didn't put in too many feelings, so I wouldn't be very sad to get out and leave.

Fortunately, I actually knew that it would be such a result, so I could also accept such a result, although it was very sad, but fortunately it was not deep, fortunately, the time together was not very long, the feelings were not very deep, I had the name of self-knowledge, separation is the best ending.

It's just that so many years have passed, and I have always been obsessed with you, not still in love, but because you were the first boy I liked, so I always remembered.

The time in the green years is always poignant, always painful and sad.

At that time, I didn't go to school because I was sick, and I lay in the hospital bed all autumn, and at that time, I was eager to die like that, and at that time, I was disheartened, and I felt that the whole world collapsed and fell into a darkness.

I lost the organ I cared most about, the window of my mind. It is a kind of hidden pain, and people who have not experienced it will never be able to experience that kind of skin pain, it is worse than death.

Whenever I recall the past in the hospital, I always can't remember that memory, which is very vague and far away.

It turns out that anything that is extremely sad, the brain will automatically delete and filter it out. It's just that the pain that still stays in the mouth of the heart, and when you think back, the sadness spreads and the pain persists.