Many of us think that feelings can be perfect, but sometimes we are too naïve.
Love is sometimes so vulnerable, love begins with hope, but also ends from despair, because someone has betrayed our promises.
Sometimes separation is the graveyard of marriage, and for couples who are often separated, such marriages are more challenging.
No matter how much you fell in love with each other at the beginning, no matter what kind of mountain alliance and sea oath you said at the beginning, when you are really facing separation, no matter how beautiful the vows are in the face of marriage, they cannot withstand the destruction.
My name is Zhao Jie, I am 32 years old, I am the sales director of a pharmaceutical company, and I have been working in this company since graduating from college.
I went from being the most basic salesman to the supervisor, and my road was smooth. I also have a good salary, but one of the fatal drawbacks of my job is that I often need to travel, and the longest time I travel outside for two months.
Affected by the epidemic, all walks of life are not easy to do, and our company is also on the verge of fierce market competition.
In this case, I was able to eat in this company, and I was already thankful. Although I don't want to travel on business, I have been sticking to this company for the sake of life.
My wife's name is Xiao Yue, she is 36 years old, we met through the marriage advertisement, after the first meeting, I have a good feeling for her.
Later we often talked until late at night, and I often took her out to dinner, and then we became lovers who didn't say anything.
At that time, I had just graduated from college, I was born in a rural area, and my parents did not have the financial ability to buy me a car and a house.
Xiao Yue did not dislike my poor family conditions, she did not care for me to ask for a bride price, nor did she ask for a house and a car, so she married me unconditionally.
I have always been grateful for Xiao yue's approach, and after marriage, I have always been very kind to her. I thank Xiaoyue for giving me a complete family and putting an end to my wandering life. So I think our love is great and our marriage will last forever.
In the first year of marriage, she bore me a beautiful daughter.
Seeing the crystallization of our love, my heart is extremely happy and happy, since I have now become someone else's father, when I am happy, I also feel the pressure brought by life.
So at work, I work harder, and I just want to give my wife and children a happy life.
When the child was born, my parents were not in good health and their legs and feet were not very convenient, and they could not help me take care of the child.
Forced to resign my wife and work as a full-time wife at home.
Because my wife can't bring financial resources to the family, our family income is much less than before, but in order to let my wife and children live a down-to-earth life, I work harder than ever to make money, and I have since opened a pattern of frequent overtime.
I even took the initiative to propose to the leader to go outside for business, because when traveling, the company will give us a lot of subsidies.
Because I travel a lot for business, I spend less and less time with my wife.
I've been asked which of life's stresses and feelings is more important, and I don't know how to answer because there are many times when we have no choice.
So I often travel alone outside on business, although a person's life outside is also very wronged, but for this family, let me pay more, I am also willing.
Every time I travel for business, in the evening, I videotape my wife.
Through the video, I can feel the strong love between our husband and wife.
Time is like water, my daughter went to kindergarten, seeing that she looks so beautiful and has a healthy body, I am full of infinite gratitude to my wife, it is his hard work to buy our happy family.
This time I was on a business trip and completed the task given to me by the company ahead of schedule, so I returned home five days early.
In order to surprise my wife and children, I did not tell my wife that I would come home early.
When I flew home, it was already 11:00 p.m., and my heart was filled with great anticipation and excitement.
However, when I pushed open the door of the house, the beautiful picture did not appear in front of me.
There was only one sleeping daughter in the living room, and she was curled up alone in the living room, and cartoons were on the TV.
As I walked up to my daughter, I could see the tears in her eyes.
Then I went to every corner of the room and I didn't see my wife.
So I woke my daughter up, and I asked her, "Where has Mom gone?" ”
When my daughter saw my arrival, she was very excited and excited, and she ran to me with an arrow and asked me to hold her, and my daughter kissed me for a long time.
When I asked her where her mother was, she pouted and said to me, "Mom went out with my uncle and won't be back tonight, my mother told me to keep it a secret, and no one should tell me, and then my mother would give me ten dollars of pocket money." Dad, don't tell Mom I said it. ”
I don't know who the man my daughter said was, but it was already eleven o'clock in the evening, and my wife told her daughter not to go home at night, and asked her daughter not to say anything to anyone.
I had an ominous premonition in my heart, my wife had put a hat on me, this was the picture that had been in my mind, I was gasping for air, the more I thought about it, the more angry I became, I even wanted to hit someone.
I tried to silence myself, I called my wife, and I said to her politely, "Honey, where are you, I miss you, can we get a video?" ”
My wife said to me with some unhappiness: "Of course I am sleeping at home with the child in my arms, you are about to stop making trouble, the child is asleep, I am also sleepy, rest early!" I love you, husband, bye-bye! ”
After saying that, my wife hung up the phone, which made me very unhappy.
So I dialed my wife again, and I said to her a little angrily, "Are you really at home?" ”
My wife's voice trembled a little, and she said to me a little weakly, "Well... Yes, yes, I'm sleeping at home with my kids in my arms, husband, don't you believe me? ”
I could clearly feel that my wife's words were very weak, so instead of speaking, I hung up the phone.
I carried the child to my room to sleep, I don't know how much my baby daughter has been wronged during my business trip, her mother is so disappointed in me, Angry I am gritting my teeth.
It wasn't long before my daughter fell asleep, but I couldn't sleep for a long time.
An hour later, my wife came back, her hair was very loose, and I could tell that she had some messy makeup on her face, and it seemed that she must have been carefully dressed before going out.
My wife saw me, she was very surprised, she looked a little tired, she walked to my side with her head down, she asked me in incoherent words: "Husband, you, you, how, how did you come back?" Why didn't you tell me in advance? ”
I didn't speak, I walked gently to her side, I sniffed it with my nose, and I could distinctly smell the strong smell of smoke.
But my brain exploded, and the green tendons on my forehead came out of the air.
I didn't speak, I was afraid of waking the child up, I grabbed my wife's wrist and dragged her hard to the door, my wife did not react, so she fell, and I dragged her hard to the door, her legs were also scratched with blood, but she did not dare to speak.
She looked panicked, and she didn't dare to say a word, so she lay on the ground.
Maybe what I did scared my wife because it was the first time we had a fight after marriage, and the first time I had done it to her.
I yelled at her, "Tell me honestly, why did you go tonight?" Why lie to me, why leave the child alone at home? I can forgive you, but you can't cheat on me, I don't like people lying to me the last thing in my life! ”
My wife suddenly cried, she knelt up for me from the lying position, and then my wife said to me in a trembling voice: "Husband, I'm sorry, everything is my fault, I don't want to lie to you, I went on a date with a man, he also came to our house, please, there will be no next time, I was wrong!" ”
After saying that, my wife slapped her face vigorously, and I did not obstruct.
I have completely broken down, I myself have cried out, I for this family, no matter how much grievances I have suffered outside, I will not take home, one person carried everything, but my wife put a hat on me, my heart is broken.
I wanted to beat her and scold her, but she betrayed me and became a fact, and we never went back.
Watching my wife kneel on the ground and cry, I love and hate, but think of my sleeping daughter, I don't know how I should go in the future?
Betrayal is a permanent pain for marriage, even if your mouth says forgiveness, but will your heart really forgive her?
Will not forgive, even if you forgive the other party, often can not go back to the past.
I'm not weak, and I'm not spineless, but it's still hard to make decisions for the sake of my children.
Divorce is the biggest harm to the child, after all she is innocent, and such a life goes on, for me there is a kind of suffering.
If we still have feelings, I can only give time to heal my wounds.
If we don't have feelings, I'll let go, because she's responsible for what she does.