Even the most beautiful flowers will fade their color, layer by layer on the dust of life, gray and old, and gradually lose their former brightness and vitality, flowers will be grateful when they bloom, only the fruit is real. --Su Qing
As one of the several talented women in the Republic of China period, Su Qing is not as famous as Lin Huiyin, Zhang Ailing and others in the works and articles, and it is not as lucky and courageous as they are to fall in love when they meet people, but there are all kinds of regrets and regrets in su Qing, who is mediocre, let history flow, and posterity recalls that it is still necessary to sigh fiercely!
In the Republic of China, it is not uncommon for women to read, and it is not an easy thing to occupy a seat in the literary world, such as Zhang Ailing and Su Qing, who combine women's gentleness and sharpness into one, in order to write words and stories that can be sung and wept. Coincidentally, in the era when there were not many young girl writers, Zhang Ailing and Su Qing happened to be a pair of good girlfriends.
Zhang Ailing and Su Qing are like a pair of twin flowers, in terms of cultural attainment, the two people go hand in hand, no matter how up or down. But when the sun shines on the two of them, there is eccentricity, Zhang Ailing is an unfailing flower, and Su Qing has become a real fruit. Zhang Ailing dared to love and dare to hate, and in her later years, she moved abroad without worrying about eating and drinking, and in her later years, Su Qing once watched the gate to live, did not see the style of female writers in the past, was overwhelmed by a dollar, and even hoped and longed to die and be liberated as soon as possible!
In 1914 in Ningbo, Zhejiang, a small girl in a large family fell to the ground, with a pleasant appearance and a lot of love, she was a famous bridesmaid who was held in the palm of her hand - Su Qing. Su Qing's family foundation is not bad, her grandparents were in business in their early years, the money they saved was enough for a large family to consume the rest of their lives, and Su Qing's parents were still cultural people, his father studied overseas, and his mother studied in the Normal College, which is a serious scholar.
Under such an atmosphere, although Su Qing was brought up by his grandmother, his upbringing did not lose any of the big girls' show, and Su Qing's enlightenment was early, and he was one step faster than others, and when he was six or seven months old, he could clearly shout "Mother", amusing Grandma to praise, so it seems that the aura on Su Qing's body came from childhood, and his talent was blessed.
Childhood in her grandmother's hometown, Su Qing was carefree and wantonly happy, but at the age of 8, her life was much more "difficult". When she was eight years old, her father finally returned from studying abroad and settled in Shanghai, and the family moved to a new home to reunite, and Su Qing, who should have been greedy for the warmth of this family, felt suffocated.
Missing the most precious eight years of accompanying the child, Su Qing's parents are bent on trying their best to make up for it, and they do not hesitate to spend a lot of money to send her to various cram classes and training classes, piano, chess, calligraphy, painting, music and dance are not left behind, therefore, Su Qing in addition to the time to go to school is arranged to be full, there is no freedom in the past.
It is often said that things must be reversed, and Su Qing was bound tightly by these classes, and he was also bent on escaping. In the past, the boldness in the countryside was "exposed" at this moment, and she often skipped class under her mother's eyes, either playing with the servants or playing hide-and-seek with the coachman, reading in the Su Youth Chronicle, and her mother had no choice but to let it go.
Perhaps when the life in the countryside is more suitable for Su Qing, not long after in Shanghai, his father's bank collapsed, all kinds of debts followed, in order to solve various problems, his father was busy every day, and he also suffered from serious illness, and then died. Losing her dependence, her mother could only take Su Qing back to her grandmother's house, and this always rebellious "Su Qinghua" came to the fertile land of dreams and bloomed freely.
Just like her beloved exquisite appearance when she was born, Su Qing from childhood to adulthood is a true beauty, with a gelatinous skin and peach blossoms, and the men who favor her in school are in long queues. Unfortunately, Su Qing in middle school had no heart to fall in love, and her grades were excellent, and both parents and teachers had to praise her, so Su Qing tiexin wanted to be a female literati at that time.
But Su Qing completely ignored a problem, that is, her family was in the middle of the road, and the conditions could no longer support her and her brother to study in college. It just so happened that at this time, in the performance of the age of middle school, Su Qingyan, who appeared as the finale, became a character who was looking for a daughter-in-law.
Among them, her classmate Li Qinhou has a deep family foundation, and her parents are also very satisfied with her and take the initiative to propose to her, and they also hope to get a good marriage. Su Qing did not want to get married so early, and there were great rivers and mountains, and a lot of beautiful conditions that he had not experienced, how could he marry a human wife and spend all day with chai rice, oil and salt?
Su Qing was entangled and in a dilemma, she did not want to get married, but the family life and her brother's study needed this expensive dowry. Under the negotiation of the two families, the Li family finally agreed that even if the two married, they would respect Su Qing's decision to study, and took the initiative to help her complete her studies! With such a regression, Su Qing had no reason to refuse, and soon after the two were married, warm for several months.
After the honeymoon period, Su Qing reorganized and went to Nanjing University, when she was 19 years old, her face was completely full of collagen, if not, who can suspect that she already has a family? Due to the university regulations, afraid of affecting the study style, Su Qing entered the university to hide the fact that she was married, and she still played with her classmates, just like a child. But soon after, Su Qing was pregnant, this child came too coincidentally, Su Qing did not want to lose touch with the university, so she tried to cover up.
In July and August, Su Qing's belly was so big that she couldn't hide her wide clothes, and her classmates around her pointed out, plus her in-laws asked to go home to raise a fetus, So Qing could only take the initiative to quit school and return to Li's house.
Waiting for pregnancy in a courtyard all day, Su Qing was bored, and perhaps the boredom and disappointment of this marriage had arisen from this moment. Pregnant in October, Su Qing finally gave birth to a girl, just when she was overjoyed, the in-laws swept in cold eyes, and it turned out that it was Su Qing's sin to fail to continue the incense for the Li family for the first child!
Having just given birth to such a cold eye, Su Qing was physically and mentally exhausted and powerless to resist, waiting for her husband and mother-in-law to change their minds. Unexpectedly, the husband never waited to see the intensification, picking flowers and grass outside, making Qinggao as her Su Qing always felt that the throat was stuck with sharp melon seeds, and she couldn't spit out and had to swallow it in pain!
Son preference is a common phenomenon in the old era, Su Qing is not strange about this, but her husband cheated on her very uncomfortable, staying at home without warmth only boredom, simply as the Li family's young grandmother, she went out to find a job to eliminate some of the boredom of life.
According to people everywhere, Su Qing found a job that met her requirements, that is, as a teacher in a primary school, and her knowledge was also useful. Dealing with innocent children can make Su Qing temporarily forget the barrenness of life, but some students' parents are unreasonable and insulting, which makes Su Qing annoyed and soon resigned and went home.
In the face of the erected wall, Su Qing deeply felt that the days were boring, picked up a pen and began to write, she wrote her own experience "Birth Girl" and submitted to Lin Yutang, did not expect this article to be greatly appreciated, Lin Yutang personally revised and published, ushered in a piece of readers praise and praise. Su Qing's writing can be said to be thick and thin, not luck. During the study period, Su Qing is a proper lover of words, often writing to dispel time or record life, so the writing is excellent and can stand out.
Once famous, Su Qingda could take this opportunity to break away from this distressing in-laws' marriage and become a female writer who was high in her own ranks. But if it really develops like this, then the Republic of China will come up with two Zhang Ailing. The most different thing between Su Qing and Zhang Ailing is here, Zhang Ailing fled from the original family that made her resentful, Zhang Ailing bravely pursued her beloved, su Qing compromised again and again, and the sun closed the petals before the sun set.
Su Qing, who was 21 years old and famous at the time, not only gave up the olive branch thrown by Lin Yutang and others, but also returned to the side of her cheating husband Li Qinhou and accompanied Li Qinhou to Shanghai to start a business, living on a shoestring. Poor life is more likely to make people feel sorry for each other, Li Qinhou who came to Shanghai has converged a lot, and the relationship between husband and wife with Su Qing has gradually eased, but unfortunately Li Qinhou is too mediocre, not seeking progress, the family invited servants to serve but can not afford to buy rice, can not open the pot!
In the face of Su Qing's blunt point out of the poverty of life, the servant has been standing on the sidelines to observe the color, as the male host, Li Qinhou's face was damaged for a while, and he angrily accused Su Qing, and also slapped Su Qing in anger, threatening that Su Qing was capable, why didn't he go out to earn money himself? This fiery slap woke Su Qing up, obviously a talented person, why should she be this man's rice worm? Why make fertility tools willing to become appendages?
Su Qing concentrated on writing, picked up the lost dream of a writer before, and sure enough, there were shortcuts wherever capable people went, and soon Su Qing was self-reliant, and he could also take money to support his family. On the other hand, Li Qinhou, with a slight improvement in his career, stinks and recurs, hooks up with a young woman, and in the face of her husband's cheating, Su Qing can no longer bear it and takes the initiative to divorce.
Living with three children, Su Qing's life is not tight, and at the age of 30, she befriends Chen Gongbo, the mayor of Shanghai. Chen Gongbo is her loyal reader, so she borrows the power of this rare female writer, and the friendship between Su Qing and Zhang Ailing is also his connection, in short, Su Qing has never been short of money.
It was just that she did not expect that the situation would change in only a moment, and Chen Gongbo turned to Wang Jingwei and became a traitor that everyone shouted and beat. Su Qing is the well-known confidant of Chen Gongbo, and the relationship is close, perhaps the two have long had the work of invisible people, or perhaps Su Qing is also a big traitor who cannot see the light.
It was 1945, Chen Gongbo's identity as a traitor was exposed, and Su Qing was scorned by everyone, like a street rat, and all the previously published publications and books were abandoned by readers. Even so, Su Qing did not compromise and retire or change his name, but ushered in another creative climax.
In 1954, it was her brilliant moment, and her changed drama "Qu Yuan" was staged more than 300 times a year, and everyone applauded. I thought that Su Qing had successfully reversed the deadlock, but he could catch Su Qing off guard with a head-on blow. In the special period of 1957, Su Qing, as a literati, and even more as a stigmatized literati, was the first to be criticized, educated and rectified. Su Qingzhong went to prison, searched for a living, and became a useless person watching the gates of the theater. In his old age, he did not have a comfortable environment in his life, and he and his daughter and grandson were crammed into a dirty and cramped ten-square-meter room.
The ten years of imprisonment and hard work made Su Qing seriously ill, and she couldn't even afford to ask a doctor who came to her door for a dollar when she was bedridden. Su Qing had a hard time, and was still tormented by illness, and the most accumulated in her heart was probably why a good card was played by her into what she is now? In 1982, Su Qing fell ill and vomited blood to death at the age of 69.
The piles of her pen are all the mundane things of men and women who eat and drink, and after she confides, they are extraordinary and life is harmonious. ——Jiang Xiaoying, "Su Qing: The Wind Comes from the Sea"
Looking back at the life of the talented woman Su Qing, after several falls, it was originally the life of a mediocre woman, but because of the existence of her words, it became unusual, attracting readers to explore more of her privacy and life. Maybe from the moment she befriended Lin Yutang, she stepped into writing, then there really will be someone better than Zhang Ailing and Bingxin; maybe from the time she was in college, she would be self-sufficient and do carefree rural wildflowers, maybe she would be born like a summer flower, brilliant and not withered...
Among the countless possibilities, Su Qing chose to bear the real fruit, Xiangfu godson, chai rice oil and salt. She is an ordinary woman in life, and she is also an extraordinary woman evaluated by Jiang Xiaoying. Read her books, forget her regrets, and remember only the humor of her life.
Text/Nangong Qin