In 1942, Huang Zongying was 17 years old.
She is small in stature, but she has an apricot face and peach cheeks, and her lips and teeth.
She was selected to star in "Sweet Sister", and since then she has become popular and swept old Shanghai.
A pair of water spirit eyes, provoking the fans to be overwhelmed.
She was born in Beijing, but she is more like a piece of Jiangnan pu jade.
Her voice is gentle and her appearance is beautiful.
In that era when the drama was despised, Huang Zongying was an exception in the hearts of the people.
She loves literature and loves writing.
While waiting for the scene backstage, she had Gorky's Mother and Dostoevsky's Crime and Punishment in her hands.
Such a woman, at the time, was simply a shocking existence.
The audience loved her, loved her smiles and smiles.
Outside the theater, the young master driving the car and the housekeeper holding flowers were waiting for Huang Zongying to appear.
But at that time, she already had a heart.
She fell in love with the conductor of the troupe.
A man named Guo Yuantong.
At the age of 18, he proposed to her.
In a short time, the news spread all over the place.
This stage star, who is sought after by thousands of people, has become a bride waiting to marry overnight.
She was in front of the mirror,
Carefully put on the wedding dress,
I envision myself as a human wife.
On the wedding night, Huang Zongying sat in the wedding room.
Guo Yuantong came slowly.
The outside of the room is bustling with people, and everyone is happy with the wedding.
But that night, the groom, Guo Yuantong, suddenly went into shock and was taken to the hospital.
The groom's family told Huang Zongying that Guo Yuantong was too nervous, causing him to faint.
The 18-year-old girl believed.
Until 18 days after marriage, Guo Yuantong fainted again.
This time, he didn't wake up again.
This young girl, who had just opened her heart, became a widow.
At that moment, Huang Zongying understood——
The dream marriage turned out to be just a conspiracy.
Guo Yuantong's parents concealed his illness in order to give their son "Chong Xi".
The drama of life begins with a tragedy that cannot be concealed.
She was 18 years old, bizarrely like an absurd drama.
However, Huang Zongying at that time did not know.
Her life is actually a legend.
18 years old, originally a fancy year, a wonderful spring day.
But for Huang Zongying, it is depressed and unhappy, and it is the sadness of the widow.
She couldn't face the stage anymore.
In the past, she and her husband performed on the same stage.
There are silent eyes, there are clusters of applause, there is joy, there is laughter.
However, since the death of her husband.
Those memories became a sharp pain in the cone.
In order to alleviate her grief, she often goes in and out of a back hill in Beijing's Xiangshan Mountain.
Holding a book, she saw from day to night.
Sometimes sad,
Joy sometimes.
From time to time, there were bursts of sobbing.
For most of the year, she wandered out of life.
Someone once asked her: "Do you still have expectations for love?" ”
She was just silent.
Huang Zongying's brother saw the situation and asked his classmate Cheng Shuyao to help.
Cheng Shuyao was the president of the Nanbei Drama Society at that time.
He is 9 years older than Huang Zongying.
Long ago, Cheng Shuyao had heard about Huang Zongying.
He invited her to join the troupe, enjoy the play together, and discuss acting skills.
Cheng Shuyao is a fool.
I once jumped on the windowsill of my home for a scene of jumping out of the window, so that I could remember that feeling.
The blood in Huang Zongying's bones was also gradually awakened.
In life, Cheng Shuyao's care for her is also meticulous.
She encouraged him to re-act.
Consider the script and the characters for her.
This kind of big brother-style intimacy instantly infected Huang Zongying in the haze.
In 1946, Cheng Shuyao proposed to her, promising to take care of her for the rest of her life.
At that time, Huang Zongying was 21 years old.
Although she suffered emotional injuries, she was still an ignorant big girl.
She didn't know if she loved him.
However, the Cheng Shuyao in front of her made her feel at ease.
"He's been very nice to me, I think it should be love."
This thought continued to reverberate in Huang Zongying's heart.
But this second marriage is still not so beautiful.
Cheng Shuyao grew up in a feudal family.
There are many rules.
Every move is tied down.
After Huang Zongying married in, he was like a golden bird being watched.
How to eat,
How to walk,
Can't speak loudly.
......
These rules often overwhelmed Huang Zongying.
She is free-spirited and unrestrained by nature.
Eat without eating, sitting without sitting.
With any child, she can play and make trouble.
To take Huang Zongying's own words to describe it - "I am a person who belongs to the clouds." ”
In this way, she is destined to love wandering and love freedom.
It coincided with 1947 that she received an offer for the film Rhapsody of Happiness.
From Beijing to Shanghai, she went without hesitation.
And this time, Huang Zongying's ears quietly played a love march.
In 1947.
Zhao Dan, the famous actor in the movie, saw a photo of a woman in the window of a friend's house.
A pair of pretty eyebrows.
The bridge of the nose is high and straight.
The eyes are just soft.
"Isn't this the heroine that Director Chen Liting wants in his mind?"
He hurriedly asked, "What is her name?" ”
"Huang Zongying, a well-known drama actor in Beijing."
By chance, Zhao Dan and Huang Zongying had their first encounter.
It was early autumn.
Huang Zongying was dressed in a blue cheongsam and had curly black hair.
She came to Shanghai.
He was picked up at the station.
Recalling that moment, Huang Zongying's eyes narrowed into a slit.
"I knew he was a big star, but I didn't expect that there was no shelf at all, very simple."
On the day of the meeting, Zhao Dan was wearing a shirt.
Unfortunately, his button was wrong.
Huang Zongying smiled when he saw him.
"A silly man."
This impression was infused into Huang Zongying's mind and has not changed for a long time.
But as soon as he arrived on the set, Huang Zongying found zhao Dan's "crazy" side.
They have a lot of opponent scenes in the film.
One is a shoe shinemaker who is forced to live.
One is a young woman who has been taken over by hooligans.
In the play, they spark.
Outside the play, each other is also emotionally excited.
One day, when Huang Zongying was wearing makeup, he found Zhao Dan in the mirror.
He stood outside the door, staring affectionately.
Huang Zongying showed shyness. Nod and smile.
But at that time, Huang Zongying only felt that Zhao Dan was friendly to him and had no other intentions.
Until one day after the night show, a car came to pick everyone up and take everyone home.
But the car was very small, and Huang Zongying did not squeeze in.
Just when she was overwhelmed.
Zhao Dan pulled her over the skinny one and sat on his lap.
To her surprise, her body didn't resist anything.
Inside, a few jubilant birds ran out.
They are like girls with spring hearts.
Jumping, twittering and laughing.
At that moment, she suddenly felt love.
She was 22 years old and married.
Zhao Dan is 32 years old and divorced.
Later, Huang Zongying also starred in a play directed by Zhao Dan.
On the stage, the two seemed to be a match made in heaven, entangled.
And at the end of the last act, Zhao Dan suddenly said to Huang Zongying:
"We're about to part, but you shouldn't leave, you should be my wife."
Zhao Dan's sudden confession startled Huang Zongying.
"I always felt that our love was not unfolding, and he said that he wanted to become a couple.
I don't know if he really loves me or if he's talking about playing. ”
Huang Zongying did not agree.
At that time, she was still Cheng Shuyao's wife.
He bid farewell to Zhao Dan and returned to Beijing.
See Cheng Shuyao again, and return to the cage-like home.
Life is as calm as water.
But there was a lot of longing in her heart.
She said to her friend:
"Cheng Shuyao came home from work at 5 o'clock, I started to be nervous at 3 o'clock, my heart beat faster, I felt that we were not suitable."
After struggling for a long time, Huang Zongying filed for divorce from Cheng Shuyao.
Cheng Shuyao did not ask much.
After signing the divorce agreement, Huang Zongying was relieved.
In the winter of 1947, she was constantly preparing to leave Beijing.
In her heart, there is only one destination - Shanghai.
That day, she bought a train ticket, but she couldn't.
I bought a bus ticket and sold it out.
She was impatient.
In order to get to Shanghai as quickly as possible, she bought a ferry ticket.
At this moment, Zhao Dan in Shanghai had already rushed to the Sixteen Shops Wharf.
Maybe it's a trick of fate.
Wind and waves are sudden, wind and rain.
Huang Zongying's boat encountered wind and waves on the way, and once again delayed the trip.
Zhao Dan held up an umbrella and waited for her at the pier for 3 days.
When familiar figures come in the night.
Zhao Dan ran to greet him.
When they met, he hugged the petite Huang Zongying and read in his mouth:
"I go to the church in Xujiahui every day and pray for our love."
Oh, yes.
At the age of 18, Huang Zongying encountered fate.
At the age of 21, Huang Zongying encountered kindness.
At the age of 22, she finally met love.
A year later, the two were officially married on New Year's Day.
But the test is still coming.
Zhao Dan once had a marriage with Ye Lucy.
They also have a son and a daughter.
After the divorce, Zhao Dan took them around.
When the 23-year-old Huang Zongying married, he took on the responsibility of these two children.
Zhao Dan's son, who fights all day long.
Huang Zongying apologized one by one.
Zhao Dan's daughter learned ballet.
Huang Zongying spent the whole night sewing clothes for her.
So much so that when Zhao Dan's daughter recalled Huang Zongying, she said:
"I want to remember this mother for the rest of my life, and manage me like a mother."
Even if the worldly gossip spreads more, Huang Zongying is smiling at it.
She never developed impatience.
"That Zongying mother is always gentle and loving, but at the same time does not lose her childlike heart."
In those years, Huang Zongying felt happy.
Not just life, but career.
She has created many classic roles in film and television.
Movies such as "Beauty Walk", "The Crow and the Sparrow", and "Nie Er" caused a warm response at the time.
Zhao Dan and Huang Zongying became classic couples on the screen.
Enviable.
However, after entering a special period, the two were also unfortunately affected.
Zhao Dan was imprisoned for 5 years.
Huang Zongying kept an empty house alone and raised 5 children alone.
Because she was Zhao Dan's wife, she was assigned to do the dirtiest and most tiring work.
After waiting for 5 years, Zhao Dan was finally released from prison.
But at that time, his career was frustrated and his temper was grumpy.
That gentle husband is gone.
But Huang Zongying never complained a word, nor did he say that Zhao Dan did not say a word.
During the downturn, Huang Zongying encouraged Zhao Dan to study painting and write calligraphy together.
As the days went on, Zhao Dan's state of mind gradually relaxed.
He returned to the film industry.
However, 3 years later, fate once again teased this pair of bitter Mandarin ducks.
In 1980, Zhao Dan was diagnosed with cancer.
Huang Zongying's hand trembled, which was really unacceptable.
At that time, the cancer was advanced.
On October 10 of the same year, Zhao Dan died in Beijing.
At the age of 65, he went far away.
Huang Zongying, 55, trembled and was powerless to follow.
Halfway couple, the one who is left behind may be the most difficult.
Since Zhao Dan's death, she has often stood on the windowsill and fallen into contemplation.
Since then, Huang Zongying has also chosen to accompany the pen and no longer act.
She said to her friend, "If I live, Zhao Dan will not die." ”
In the second half of her life, she began to write.
Between the lines, there is zhao Dan's shadow.
She occasionally reminisces about the past in her pen.
Non-stop lamentations:
"When I was young, although we often talked about it, when he left, he more deeply realized the depth of the feelings between us."
Huang Zongying said:
"I think the right thing I did was marry Zhao Dan."
Every word is deeply meaningful.
In those years, when the media interviewed her, she loved to ask:
"Do you want Teacher Adam?"
Sometimes during interviews, she was sick and her head was groggy.
But never forget to say that:
"He's alive forever, not a question I don't want to think about. I have Zhao Dan in any of my anthologies, and I have made up my mind since I was a child, and I will not be able to swim with me. ”
At any time, Huang Zongying is a kind eyebrow, warm as water.
Eyes bent and smiling.
Obviously full of wind and frost, but let people suddenly feel that the years are quiet.
In her old age, she continued to study.
Learn to play the piano, learn to dance, practice words.
She didn't stop, she didn't stop, she was always looking for more possibilities.
Friends advised her to find another wife and have a dependency.
Huang Zongying said:
"I once married the sea, will I marry The Creek again?"
In this life, she is no longer willing to marry for the sake of marriage.
If you meet love again one day, Huang Zongying said that he is willing to continue to love.
Even then, she was almost at the age of ancient rarity.
Meeting Feng Yidai may have been something that Huang Zongying himself did not expect.
After the "sea", there was another forest.
Feng Yidai is a well-known translator.
His literary achievements were admired by Huang Zongying.
In the early spring of 1993, they began to exchange letters.
From a small bungalow in Shanghai to the residence of Xiao Xitian in Beijing, there are postmen every day.
They write a letter a day.
Sometimes even three times a day.
In the letter, she called his second brother.
He called her Little Sister.
Feng Yidai Rhubarb Zongying is 12 years old.
But in the letter, the two old men felt sorry for each other.
"I wait every day for the postman to come and read his letter. I know, I'm already in love with him. ”
A twilight love, on that spring day, was planted with seeds.
When winter came, it immediately took root and sprouted.
December 1993.
Huang Zongying went to Xiaoxitian in Beijing, where Feng Yidai was located, for love.
She was dressed in pink.
A head of white hair, it looks particularly quiet.
Feng Yidai and his children went to greet him.
They shyly held hands and hugged, like the posture of a young couple.
In the restaurant, Feng Yidai held a family banquet, and the two exchanged glasses sweetly.
In the days that followed, they supported each other.
In the study, there is often one in front and one in the back.
Writing, reading, translating...
It is worth mentioning.
Since the death of Mr. Feng Yidai's beloved wife Zheng Anna in 1991, he has been in grief for a while.
For two years, it was at a low level.
Until she met Huang Zongying, she opened his heart.
Huang Zongying and his friend went shopping for flowers, and he also followed closely.
He was no longer trapped in the study.
Life has come alive a lot.
But Huang Zongying knew.
In Feng Yidai's heart, the most important position was reserved for Zheng Anna.
Just like in her heart, Zhao Dan will never have anyone to replace.
Although they loved each other, in each other's hearts, they still loved the original person.
Sometimes, Feng Yidai was reading in the study, but he would suddenly shout "Anna" to Huang Zongying.
But Huang Zongying didn't mind.
Just like Zhao Dan's birthday, Huang Zongying wants to write something.
Feng Yidai will also help her to deliberate on words.
They are in love with each other, but they are also two separate souls.
As Huang Zongying said:
"Under the semicolon of fate, love continues."
The sunset is infinitely better, just near dusk.
During the Mid-Autumn Festival in 2005, 92-year-old Feng Yidai drove the crane west.
Huang Zongying, 80 years old, with weak legs and feet, was left in the human world.
She wrote the memorial with a pen:
"Dear ones, we will hug each other tightly in printing presses, binding machines, and envelope machines, in front of readers who love us, in front of relatives and friends. Are you happy? Kiss you. ”
Drop the money - "love your little sister more and more".
Since then, she has been in love with books and pens.
Mr. Huang Zongying has suffered from separation all his life.
Her face was always full of smiles.
Friends say that she is the most innocent person in the world.
So, in her room, there are always dolls, flowers, books...
She was not aggressive and gentle all her life.
Even at the end of her life, she would still say:
"If a person thinks about others more, he will not grow old."
December 14, 2020.
Mr. Huang Zongying died at the age of 95.
On the hospital bed, Mr. Huang Zongying left a sentence at the last moment.
"I'm gone, and I love you deeply."
A generation of legendary women, this is the end.
And I prefer to believe that she has become a cloud in the sky.
White, beautiful.
All the time, projection between the hearts.
Author: Fish Sweet