"Camel Xiangzi" is a novel by the People's Artist Lao She (Shu Qingchun, 1899-1966), which describes the tragic fate of rickshaw pullers during the warlord melee in the 1920s.
Xiangzi spent three years of hard work to buy a car, was robbed, and after escaping from death, she was tricked and seduced by Tiger Girl, because she found that Tiger Girl was not a virgin, she was disgusted with her, and wanted to cut it in two, so she went to Cao House.
Mr. Cao and Mrs. Cao are very kind people. Shoko can eat a good meal every day, and there is also a spacious room, and Shoko has a very smooth life. It was just the woman, the tiger girl and the little money, that made him uneasy, and his heart was like a green leaf, wrapped up in a worm, ready to be cocooned.
Because of her concerns, Shoko sometimes pulls the cart and cannot concentrate. One night, Xiangzi pulled Mr. Cao home, the road was open, there was no one, a slight cool breeze, he ran hard. His feet seemed to be two springs, almost about to bounce up, and Shoko ran very happily, as if the troubles in his heart had disappeared. However, due to running too fast, he was inattentive, hit a pile of rocks, clicked, and the handlebar was broken. When he looked back, he saw that Mr. Cao had blood on his hands, and his heart was extremely guilty, so he hurried to his home and wanted to ask his wife for medicine.
When he got home, Shoko was already covered in blood, he looked at himself and began to feel pain, but he didn't care about this at all, and looked at the broken handlebar, which seemed to be inserted into his heart. At this time, Gao Mama came out and called him, Gao Mama was a thirty-two or three-year-old widow, clean, cheerful, and careful in her work. Shoko entered the room in frustration and whispered, "Sir, find someone else!" This month's salary, you keep to repair the car."
Shoko's mood dropped to the extreme, a puller, fell on people, touched the car, and had no face to pull the car again. Shoko almost cried out, quit her job, don't pay, in Shoko's view, it is almost equivalent to suicide. But responsibility, face, at this time seems to be more important than life. He hated no one but his own life. I even thought of switching careers from now on. But pulling a cart is his ideal profession, giving up this is equivalent to giving up hope, he feels that his life will have to be mixed up.
Mr. Cao did not dismiss him, but gave him some medicine, repaired the car, and did not deduct his wages. Shoko did not mention the resignation again.
Xiangzi has experienced many unfortunate things before, met Mr. Cao so good to him, Xiangzi is grateful to Mr. Cao from the heart, in this case touched Mr. Cao, there are fierce ups and downs in the mentality is normal, he is young after all. Just like a lot of students who have just come out to work, due to the difficulties encountered before, the mind is not mature enough, after making efforts, doing the wrong thing or the work is still not improving, it is inevitable that there will be self-doubt, why is the work so difficult, life is so unsmooth, maybe I am doomed to achieve nothing, and even like Shoko, consider changing careers, in fact, it is not necessary, maybe I am a little standing and talking without waist pain, but life will continue. In the past, when I encountered difficulties, my mentality fluctuated violently, self-doubt, and extreme annoyance. Later, I found out that Confucius was right: "Do not complain about the heavens, do not distinguish people." Yes, complaining, self-doubt does not solve any problem, but only increases the annoyance. It is better to analyze the reasons, increase the ability, do not make the same mistakes, and make yourself better day by day.