Wen | Gongziyi
20 years ago, reading the original book of "Condor Heroes", I read:
Hearing the sound of the boulder falling, the little dragon girl couldn't help but burst into tears and turned back. When Yang Guo waited for the boulder to fall about two feet above the ground, he suddenly made a move of the jade girl to throw a shuttle, and her body slid into the gap of these two feet like an arrow. The little dragon girl screamed, and Yang Guo stood up straight and smiled: "Aunt, you will never drive me out again."
Tears.
At that time, I felt that between Yang Guo and Xiaolongnü, it was a love that could be sung and wept, and Yang Guo loved Xiaolongnü and was willing to live and die with her.
However, after 20 years, reading this part of the content again found that in fact, Yang Guo and Xiaolongnü at that time did not understand what love was. Even if the two of them were together later, it wasn't because of love.
Lin Chaoying was bitterly in love with Wang Chongyang, but in the end he could not be consummated. Sad and angry, she made a door rule:
Whoever receives her true inheritance must swear to live in the ancient tomb for the rest of his life and never go down to Zhong Nanshan, but if a man willingly dies for her, this oath is broken. However, this matter must not be let the man know in advance.
Yang Guo didn't know this door rule of the Tomb Sect, but he was still willing to die for the little dragon girl, was it because of love?
Not at all.
When Xiaolongnü asked Yang Guo why she was willing to die for her, Yang Guo said something like this:
The world is only good for you to treat me, why won't I die for you?
When Xiaolongnü asked Yang Guo if he liked her, Yang Guo said:
Of course, you are the only one in this world who is my relative.
When Xiaolongnü continued to ask if he would like others if he treated him well, Yang replied:
Whoever treats me well, I treat her well.
At that time, Yang Guo didn't understand love at all, nor did he know what Xiaolongnü said about liking. When Xiaolongnü forced him to swear that he could only like herself, Yang Guo even felt that Xiaolongnü was confused, and there were only four of them left in this ancient tomb, did he not like Xiaolongnü, did he want to like Li Moxuan's master and apprentice?
Yang Guo completely regarded Xiaolongnü as his own relative, obeyed Xiaolongnü's words in everything, and did not dare to disobey it. And the reason why he was willing to die for the little dragon girl was only because the little dragon girl was good to him, and he felt that the little dragon girl was his dearest person.
Not only Xiaolongnü, but also those who are good to Yang, Yang Guo is not stingy with his life. Even guo jing and Huang Rong, because when he was a teenager, he had a period of nurturing grace for him, he was able to give up his life to save. What's more, Xiaolongnü taught Yang Guo martial arts without reservation, and was the most sincere to Yang Guo among the people Yang Guo met.
Yang Guo had never thought in the ancient tomb to marry Xiaolongnü as a wife.
After he and Xiaolongnü went out of the ancient tomb, Yang Guo never thought of marrying Xiaolongnü. Until Xiaolongnü was defiled, she asked Yang Guo what she did? Would you marry her?
Yang Guo said something like this:
You are my master, you have mercy on me to teach me, and I have vowed to respect you and listen to you for the rest of my life. You can't be my wife, how can I match? You are my master, my aunt.
The little dragon girl vomited blood and left. At this time, the original book wrote such a paragraph of Yang Guo's psychology:
He had been inseparable from the little dragon girl for several years, like both mother and son and brother, and suddenly, she was inexplicably desperate, wouldn't she tell him to cut off his liver and intestines?
At this time, Yang still hadn't thought of marrying Xiaolongnü. The reason why he was cut off because of the departure of the little dragon girl was that he regarded the little dragon girl as the closest person. The little dragon girl in this world was the best for him, and now that the little dragon girl was gone, the loneliness and loneliness of his youth had re-emerged.
In particular, after Xiaolongnü left him, he wandered into the rivers and lakes, and although he met Lu Wushuang, Guanyan Ping and others, he always hurt himself and felt that others looked down on him.
At the top of Mount Hua, there was heavy wind and snow, and in the middle of the night, he sneaked around the top of the mountain, remembering his lonely situation, and cried loudly.
And the most painful point in his crying was that the little dragon girl who was the best for him also left him for no reason.
Yang Guotai wanted someone to be good to him, would not look down on him, would not dislike him. Even if Yan Ping and Lu Wushuang would not look down on him and would not dislike him, his heart was already completely closed.
The hurts of his childhood made him feel absolutely safe only for the little dragon girl, who did not abandon him when he was down.
Therefore, whether The Little Dragon Girl wanted to be his master or his wife, he was willing.
Because he could no longer stand the feeling of loneliness.
Hero Assembly, when he saw the little dragon girl, he was suddenly willing to marry the little dragon girl as a wife. Never, he had long regarded the little dragon girl as his wife in his heart. Because before the little dragon girl left him, he always had only affection for the little dragon girl.
The reason why he was willing to marry Xiaolongnü was only because he no longer wanted to be alone and alone in this world.
And the little dragon girl was the only one who made him absolutely at ease.
The little dragon girl was defiled, and Yang Guo broke his arm.
They married in front of a portrait of Wang Chongyang. At that time, Yang Guo only wanted to return to the ancient tomb with The Little Dragon Girl and live this life as simply and happily as he did when he was a child.
Because, the best time when he was a child was the time when he was in the ancient tomb with the little dragon girl, no one looked down on him, no one hated it, there was a home, there were relatives, and there was the love of relatives. And all this is what Yang Guo's heart desires the most.
However, Guo Fu disrupted all this. The little dragon girl jumped off the cliff, while Yang Guo waited for sixteen years. In those sixteen years, Yang Guo let himself fall, let his sideburns be white, and let himself be like a wandering soul.
He really loved the little dragon girl, to such an extent, without the little dragon girl can not live?
Yes, he had fallen in love with the little dragon girl to the point where life and death depended on each other. However, this love is not love, but a stable, solid, and unchangeable affection.
And what is love?
Love is heartwarming, I saw you, fell in love with you, the heart is pounding, I can't control myself at all.
Looking at the original work of "Divine Eagle Man", I did not find a place, Yang Guo's heart for the little dragon girl. The most Yang Guo said to Xiaolongnü was: My aunt is the best person in the world for me, so should my aunt also abandon me? Only my aunt, no matter what I become, will not abandon me, will hurt me and love me.
For sixteen years, Yang Guo did not wait for the little dragon girl, Yang Guo jumped off the cliff. He no longer wanted to suffer in this world.
The little dragon girl was still alive, and the two of them met again after a gap of sixteen years, still the same scene as when he was a child. Those that touched his heart were still the pictures of him when he was a child, and the little dragon girl was dependent on each other in the ancient tomb.
Those memories were the most comfortable and warmest moments in Yang Guo's heart, and Yang Guo wanted to go back, and xiaolongnü returned to the ancient tomb, completely returning to the past, back to the time when he felt happiest.
Therefore, the Xiangyang War and the Huashan Sword could not be shaken, and he and the Little Dragon Girl returned to the ancient tomb with their hearts.
Yang lived this life too lonely.
He was born without a father, and his mother died when he was very young. He grew up alone, blinded, and rejected. And the people he met, Ouyang Feng was crazy and crazy, Huang Rong always had a grudge against him because of Yang Kang's death, and Guo Jing, because of Huang Rong, also took good care of Yang Guo.
Peach Blossom Island could not tolerate him, and when Guo Jing sent him to the Quanzhen Sect, he met someone like Zhao Zhijing who had a vicious mind, so he was disliked, bullied, and beaten.
He is too short of love in this life, so when he chooses a mate, he will not think about whether he is heartbroken, like it or not, the first thing he will think is whether she is good to me.
And because he was young and depressed, he was not kind to the world, so even if he became a talent, when he met a girl who admired him and liked him, he would immediately think that if I was a downcast, she would not love me.
Whether it was Guo Fu, or Lu Wushuang, or Cheng Ying and Gongsun Lucai, they had all been good to Yang. However, when these women treated him kindly and admired him, he felt not joy, but indifference, and he always felt: because I am now excellent, they will look at me more, and if I am downcast, they will not pay attention to me at all.
Yang Guo was too lacking in love and too insecure, so when others treated him better, he hated that he could not reward him with his life. And of all the people he met, when he was at his worst, the best thing for her was the little dragon girl.
Only the little dragon girl can give him that sense of security, only the little dragon girl will hurt him no matter how depressed, how ugly, even if he is a completely bad person, she will hurt him and love him.
A person who lacks love too much needs a lot of love, which needs to be inclusive, needs to be unconditional, and needs to be able to transcend the boundaries of life and death and time in order to make him have an absolute sense of security.
In a word, the choice of mate for this kind of loveless person is not that I like it, I am moved, but that you have to be good to me, only good to me, and good to me for a lifetime. As long as you can do this, whether you are my master or my wife, I am willing to die for you, willing to stay with you all the time, and never give up.
In fact, this view of mate selection is not good.
Because of this lack of love, this kind of mate selection, it will make people ignore right and wrong. The little dragon girl is a good person, what if the little dragon girl is a bad person?
For someone like Yang Guo, even if Xiaolongnü is a bad person, as long as she is good to him, he will marry her and be willing to die for her. Because, Yang Guo is too short of love, as long as he gets that love, he will completely ignore the others.
In real life, the girls in those patriarchal families, those children who grew up in the eccentric environment of their parents, will be because of the lack of love at a young age, and when choosing a mate, there is such a problem: I want to find someone who loves me and is good to me. Not what I love, what I love.
They regard the kindness of others to him, the missing love he feels, as his love.
But what exactly is love?
They may not understand it in their lifetime.
No heartbeat, no sweetness, not even necessarily appropriate. But because the other party gave him enough love and enough security, he was willing to stay by that person's side.
He will be good to that person, and he will be willing to live and die, but he has never been moved in this life.
Regrets?
If the other party is a little dragon girl, there is no regret. But there can be a few little dragon girls in this world. People who treat others as good to you as the only criterion for choosing a mate will probably be sad and desperate.
Because in this world, no one will be unconditionally good to you forever.