Osamu Dazai, a writer like a mystery, Ken Okuno commented on Osamu Dazai that "Dazai's vivid depictions will go straight to the soul of the reader, making it impossible to escape", in his pen can always bring one story into the abyss, born from a rich, famous family, and he is the lowest status in the family, he has taken drugs all his life, participated in villains, and messed with flowers, some people say that he is a madman, japanese writer Yukio Mishima commented on "weak", people are also very annoying" But even so, his position in the Japanese literary scene is still unshakable, so that many female moths are willing to fight with him, take sleeping pills, jump into the sea, hang himself, and his young life in his thirties finally ends in a river jumping into a river with a female reader.
Before his death, he wrote himself as a large court leaf treasure into the semi-autobiographical novel "Human Disqualification", as the name suggests, the name of the novel means to lose the right to be a human being, through the readers of the novel, through the readers of the novel, behind the world's Dazaiji behind an incomparably humble and fragile heart.
Like Osamu Dazai, the protagonist of the novel, Ōtoya Yezo, was also born in a rich family, in order to get the attention of his family and school teachers and classmates, he has always been ugly and funny, on the surface he is liked, but behind the scenes, he is treated frivolously by his subordinates, which makes him develop a depressed mood, and his heart has been tormented since he was a child. When he grew up, he met Horigi, who studied painting with him, and began a prodigal life of becoming a member of the underground party and mixing with various women in bars, and was imprisoned for his hospitality with the bar Ginza, and after his release, he severed ties with his family, and after living in Shizuko's house and seeing the innocent mother and daughter and the little white rabbit, he was ashamed to leave Shizuko, who was willing to take him in. Leaving the family, he can only survive on the support of women, and when the only wife who finally brings him warmth is also defiled, in order to escape from the human world, Ye Zang uses alcohol and poison to push himself to the Jedi.
Life is a gorgeous robe, which is full of lice Ye Zang's life is like this, even if there is a rich living environment, extraordinary talents, and the handsome appearance of countless young girls when they grow up, but these can not make Ye Zang have a little sense of excellence.
Childhood is everyone's character formation period, and from Ye Zang's childhood is doomed to his tragic life, the family brought Ye Zang is not the warmth we feel, although he is a member of the family, but he has always been an indispensable existence, his home only has a gloomy environment and those unfathomable family, in order to reduce this atmosphere, in order to win the happiness of the people around him, Ye Zang has been a smiling tiger role since childhood, he is naughty and funny in the eyes of adults, but all this is to please the family pretended, Children are originally a symbol of innocence, but Ye Zang began to have a deep city government at a young age, he put on the mask of a clown for himself, and when he grew up, he wanted to tear it off but it had grown into the skin with blood and flesh.
When Ye Zang was very young, he already knew that everyone who came to the family who insulted his father behind his back was ostensibly like a smiling tiger to meet his father, and this hypocritical nature of people who sought profit and avoided harm made Ye Zang have almost suffocating pain at home every day, but he also learned a skill of camouflaging himself from these people, and later Ye Zang also performed this skill so that he could not find his true self in the end.
Although the original Ye Zang was no longer like a normal person, but at the beginning of man, the nature was good, Ye Zang's starting point at the beginning was kindness, Ye Zang's flattering psychology made him sacrifice himself to make others happy in order not to disappoint his family, he did not have the right to choose what he liked, and those things he did not like had to force himself to accept. He is like a container, which will only keep accommodating and not rejecting, so that in the end it becomes deformed. His childhood experiences at home made him desperate for self-exile.
In Ye Zang's view, he didn't deserve friendship at all, because at school and at home, he always pretended that the clown couldn't be honest with anyone, so when Takeichi first found his flaws, he was afraid all day and tried to bribe Takeichi.
Since meeting Bo Mu, a playboy, a rogue in the world, but let him have the feeling of meeting a confidant, this is also the sad point of Ye Zang, although Ye Zang was good at disguise, but his behavior was not extreme, if he met a good person, maybe Ye Zang could open his heart and return to the right track to be a man again, and Bo Mu pushed Ye Zang into hell.
In Horiki, Yezang found a sense of existence for the first time, so even if he knew that Horigi was just using him, knowing his ugly face, he was still obedient to Horigi, and in the underground party where Horiki lured him, he could become one of them, enjoy the pleasure of being valued, and with Horiki he could escape from school without having to be frightened every day, and every time he finished drinking, he paid for it, and he had no complaints.
When he broke off relations with his family, the frustrated Ye Zang ran to Honmu for the first time but was ridiculed and disliked by him. In the face of repeated betrayals, Ye Zang still carefully maintained that humble friendship, and he was willing to use his wife's clothes as money to drink with Horiki, so that when Horiki and the others jointly sent him to the neurology hospital, Horigi could easily deceive Ye Zang.
Just because of his gentle smile, I was completely defeated and then forcibly buried from this world.
Those who lack warmth are often too easily impressed, which allows Ye Zang to be toyed with by so-called friends at will. Ye Zang thought that a person like him only deserved such a friend, because in Horiki he had learned to face the complex human nature and learn to sink completely, so he was always honest with Horiki, but when he was near hell, Horiki just pushed Ye Zang, watched Ye Zang sink into it and then turned away.
Japanese critic Katsumi Togo said that "Human Disqualification" describes the story of a man who was born because of a woman and perished because of a woman. Ye Zang was surrounded by a group of maids at a very young age, and those maids not only caressed him on the surface, but also violated him behind him, and encountered such misfortunes when he was still young, making him numb to women and love, so in the future, there were constantly women who admired him, he would accept it on the surface, but inside he was extremely disgusting.
But it is precisely because of his "timid" personality that he is liked by most women, because those women can be with a person who has no feelings for him without a little worry, which also makes Ye Zang willing to support him wherever he is.
There were so many women in Ye Zang's life that he had no relationship with him, so much so that he forgot the name of his first martyred lover, but even so he still did not have the courage to accept true love. Perhaps it is the kind of personality that he grew up with, for the girls he hates, he never refuses, and for the girls he likes, he does not even dare to like.
Cowards are afraid of happiness even coming, and they will be hurt when they touch cotton, and of course they will be hurt by happiness.
He thinks that people like him are not worthy of love, and sleeping with poor people or women under his identity that others dislike will feel at ease, because he thinks that he is only worthy of being with such people, and he has a deep understanding of the loneliness, inferiority, and loneliness of the poor, so the first lover Changzi who committed suicide with him and his feelings are not the love of men and women, but the same fate.
It is precisely because of this relationship with women for a long time, Ye Zang has forgotten how to love and be loved, when he perceives that there are women who are really good to him, he turns away, he does not want people who like himself to be hurt by himself, from here it can also be seen that Ye Zang's kind nature from childhood is still there, but he is silently buried in his heart.
Even if he and Ryoko live a normal life after marriage, he still has to destroy his happiness with his own hands.
If you can avoid the fierce joy, naturally there will be no sorrow.
This is Ye Zang's view of love.
Haruki Murakami's "Colorless Tasaki Sakura and His Year of Touring" In Which Tasaki Saku, like Ye Zang, once committed self-decadence and even committed suicide in order to forget the pain of the soul, but he finally walked out of the chaos with the help of his girlfriend and dared to face the past. Ye Zang was so cowardly that he didn't even believe in love, and the psychology of wanting to love and not daring to love made him think that if he didn't love, he wouldn't be painful, but the pain brought by not daring to pursue love was more deeply rooted in the bone marrow.
There are three kinds of people who see human nature too early, and the first kind of people, even if they know the ugliness of the world, will continue to live, and this kind of person belongs to the thousands of people in life. There are also people who will bravely fight against those dark sides, and when they succeed, they will become heroes who dare to say and do, and are admired by all people. And the last kind of people is the saddest, they see the ugliness of those people in the world but can not be freed from it, Ye Zang is the most sad kind of person, the absence of his family in the process of growing up from childhood, making him extremely sensitive, so when people enjoy life, he sees the nature under everyone's skin, he did not experience the happiness that life brings him, he can only rely on alcohol to maintain that half-drunk and half-awake state, and finally let himself become a person who will never be recovered.
In "Human Disqualification", Ye Zang's experience and psychological changes are surprisingly consistent with Osamu Dazai, and the advent of this work allows Dazaiji to completely dissect himself in front of the eyes of the world without any concealment. "Don't despair, say goodbye here" is dazai's last words left by his life, from which it can be seen that he has fallen into a complete despair about life, although many Japanese novels have this kind of mourning plot, but other writers are only struggling on the brink of pain, and Dazai is completely sinking.