About the Author:
Zheng Lili, a native of Rizhao, Shandong, pen name Shuliu Hanyue, is a member of the Municipal Writers Association, and her works have won many awards in national, provincial and municipal competitions.
Window of Prose:
In the blink of an eye, when you grow up and start a family, you will have less time to spend with your parents, especially if you add another child, you will go home even less. Leading her daughter back for a rare trip, after the meal, she inadvertently pulled up the topic of "the most frightening day".
My daughter squeezed into the arms of one of our adults and preemptively said: "The day I went to kindergarten was the scariest day!" Mom and Dad weren't there, and I couldn't find them. After school, I squeezed forward desperately, until I saw my mother who came to pick me up, and I didn't know that my parents still wanted me. The day was so scary. We were laughed out loud by what she said. I said that the most frightening day was to forget the time, to pick up my daughter late, and her father and I rushed to the child's classroom like rabbits, complaining to each other along the way, thinking wildly, until we saw the teacher leading the tearful child in front of us, and the heart returned to the stomach.
The child's father also nodded, agreeing with me.
Father sat by, taking a sip from his teacup from time to time, laughing and groaning as he listened to our idleness. Mother looked at him and said, "You asked your father to say, which day did he feel the most frightening?" My father touched the two sideburns of the white hair and said proudly, "I have never been afraid at such an old age." I don't know what it is to be scared, and what kind of person to scare. "My father was a soldier, his temperament was bold, his guts were warm, he was a standard Shandong han, and his courage was indeed great, which was recognized." The mother skimmed her lips: "Just blow you." Whose daughter cried like an old lady on her wedding day?! The father's face turned red at once, and he stood up and went outside: "There is still some work in the field, I will go and see." ...... Your wife's mouth is broken, and the matter of Chen sesame seeds and rotten grain, what is it for?"
Did my father cry on the day I got married? How did I not know? Really fake?
I leaned over while my mother was packing up her things and asked about it. My mother looked at me, smacked her lips, and stopped what she was doing: "The real thing, I didn't lie to you." I'm talking about it and slipping out of my mouth. Your dad won't let me say it. You said that you have your own ideas when you are young, and it is a worry-free thing to worry about, but this marriage matter is not much to discuss with us, and you have married yourself so quickly. Marry it, you look at the day you choose, it is Daddy's Day (on the day of marriage, Daddy doesn't see her daughter), and it's Daddy's Month (the new person doesn't return to the door this month of marriage). Say you understand things, really understand things, say you don't understand things, it is enough for people. Once in a lifetime, we old people are not good enough to refute your face..." I said sarcastically, not knowing how to answer.
Because I always thought my father didn't care about me!
The first child of my uncle's uncle's uncle's family was a man, but I was a handsome piece. This somewhat wiped my father's face. I saw other people's girls riding on their father's shoulders, shouting happily, I didn't once; I saw other people's girls with their fathers clumsily tied pigtails, I didn't once... I peeked at my father's discharge certificate, and in the children's column, the first child's gender was son, and I was obviously a daughter! How much does My father hate me?! Elementary school writing essay, writing his own good father, I actually only remember him fried three or two raw meat for me, I was very hungry to eat all, my mother came back he joked that his mother raised a snack bag! It's true, it's so fake. After my brother was born, I lived in my grandfather's house and rarely returned. Go home to see the father teasing his brother to play, more unwilling to be too close, the heart is very awkward, like the son is it, the girl is not worth it, I am not rare you! In this kind of psychology, I have doubted that the new school bag that my father bought for me and my brother was of good quality. Even if you marry far away in the future, the farther away the better, and never come back!
In the years that followed, the father-daughter relationship remained so deadlocked, faint.
If the daughter wants to get married, the mother will certainly be reluctant to do so, I believe. After all, mother and daughter are connected. I chose such a wedding day, somewhat of a taste of revenge, my father did not like me, simply do not even look at my marriage, three days do not go back to the door. The woman who married out, the water that was spilled out, finally stopped dangling in front of her eyes, and her heart must be happy and broken, right?
But what did his mother say about him crying?
"Your dad, when you were young, it was because you were a girl and awkward for a while. I know you hate him. But the older you get, the more he hurts you. Where can my own biological daughter go? You don't know, the first time you brought back your boyfriend, your father was more nervous than that young man, how to see how people are not pleasing to the eye. Talk to me about the girl is still young, anxious about something. He also said that the trustee inquired about whether the man's temper was good or not, the family was not tired, and did not lose his girlfriend. "That's right, inexplicably sadness in my heart expanded infinitely, and then swelled, stuffed heart ache, Father, I really don't know, you hurt me so much." I always thought you only had my brother in your eyes, not me.
"The night before you got married, your dad barely slept. Get up one time at a time, get up one trip after another. Check that your dowry is ready, and check that the seal box is strong. The devil seemed to be frightened, saying that marrying a relative and marrying a girlfriend are really different, and this married girl's heart was blocked. The next morning there was no meal, and it was very busy. When the firecrackers of your marriage rang out, he found a reason, saying that your uncles and uncles did not accompany you well, and a big man opened his mouth, crying tears and snot, and no one could persuade him... A big son looks at you as a girl, and he can't let you marry out beautifully. I've lived most of your life with your dad, and I haven't seen him shed a tear. ”
Oh, I'm sorry, Father! Father! My face was hot and my eyes were watery.
"Speaking of which, the most frightening day your dad found it was definitely the day you got married." He doesn't trust you more than I do. And worry about the stinky temper of his girlfriend, when he goes to people's homes, whether there will be someone to take care of; and worry about whether you love to sleep and sleep, and whether you will have no food when you get married; and scold me for not having a conscience, and find such a broken day for my girlfriend, so that he can't see the only girl who is married... You are married and don't know, he is at home chanting, one day old 10 years old!"
That's the way it is. It's not what I thought it was that day! My shame pervaded everything in front of me.
I imagined the real scene of that day, the real wedding day, how my father lived!
The daughter who was not welcomed by herself when she was a child is about to get married?! When I return to this house, I am a guest of this family and not simply my own daughter. Huang Jianxiang once said that one day when his daughter got married, he would like to beat the groom with a stick. My father, who is not good at expressing myself and feels guilty, how long did you endure it before you did not carry a stick to drive away the hairy boy who drove the wedding car to pick up his daughter? Flowers that have been raised for more than twenty years, picked for people, even the pots have been taken away, how much do you have to be unwilling and unwilling? Sitting in the wedding car, I still have a lot of resentment towards you.
You hear the firecrackers of your daughter's marriage, and you think that her life will be entrusted to another strange man, and her daughter is married, but the wayward daughter will not let you send it! In your eyes, the daughter who is still just a child is indeed married. You can't stop your daughter from marrying, and you can't stop your daughter from marrying. You know where the wedding car will pull your daughter, but you don't know what kind of life this wedding car will pull your daughter into. How scared you must be! How frightening! How tangled!
On the day of your daughter's marriage, you are so trembling and frightened. The only thing she can do is to pray silently, pray that God can give her a good luck and a good home, and will also give her a good mother-in-law, a good husband, and a good life. On this day, your daughter got married, and you gave your daughter to someone else, to this society. You think it's a horror movie anyway!
A cry when marrying a daughter did not defile the identity of the father!
Oh, Father, this only makes me know what a clever child I am.
I have long known that getting married is never just a festive thing, it also represents a separation, a separation between girls and their parents. But I really don't know, I also gave my dear father such a big fright, let him take my wedding day as the most frightening day of my life. Life is not indisputable, it will only silently arrange some small bridges to suddenly subvert the views I have insisted on for many years.
Don't wait to see the father of the daughter when she was a child, the married daughter is still so sad, the father of the world who originally loved his daughter, what kind of catastrophe should he have experienced in his heart on the day of marriage? Probably only they know!
Reviewed by Zhang Xuewen
Artwork illustration: Selected from the Internet
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