The scars in my heart hurt all the time

My father-in-law's anniversary is coming! The thought of going back to that home makes my heart shudder namelessly, and yes I'm afraid! I can't forget the hurt that family has done to me for a moment, it can be said that it is a contradiction between mother-in-law and daughter-in-law, coupled with the husband's inaction!

In the beginning, I loved it there and loved everything there! I do what I have to do conscientiously, and I am obediently filial to my in-laws! Looking forward to a better life.

Maybe the big truth is for the disadvantaged people to hear! Trampling on your dignity and saying this bullshit truth, so that they are all justified, and I am the most wronged one. This society will never pity your efforts, but will only enjoy your fruits, and the slightest carelessness will be added to the reputation of being disrespectful.

The past is vividly remembered, and my heart can no longer be at peace. Now my mother-in-law has limited mobility, but she needs my care, at first I was a hundred disagreements, forced by my husband's helplessness and helplessness, I can only reluctantly agree. But every moment she was around, I was extremely uncomfortable in my heart, but I had to endure the disgust to take care of her.

But there are also times when the heart is soft, thinking about her current difficulty, she is now pitiful, really can't bear it, the heart began to forgive her, but the scar in the heart is always pulling my heart, making me breathless in pain, often let me linger on the edge of forgiveness and anger, why not say hate here? Because I couldn't hate it at all, I was angry at her injustice to me, I was angry at her kindness and love for others, and I forgot all about her kindness! For the other one, it is loudly and dare not say it, for fear of upsetting the other party! And I'm nothing.

Persimmon picked a soft pinch a little bit, just because I am too weak, always think that home and everything is happy, endure a bear, let a let go, plus the husband hangs on the lips of the side of the mouth do not like her, he is such a person, all the way to the soft creep to today's like this, but also blame themselves not strong enough, she looks down on you, will not care about your life or death.

If you want to live your dignity and not be bullied, you must first have the ability to protect yourself, otherwise you will only let people trample on it arbitrarily.