"The other person is typing..." is a prompt that is often seen when chatting, sometimes editing for so long, but sending very little. Because some words are spoken to those who understand, some words can only be silently collected into the heart.
Tonight's night reading, to those who are tempted to choose words and sentences, to write and delete the tangle, to want to say and stop the loneliness, can not be outsiders of the truth -
"Yes, I know everything
Know how to get tired and how to fight
How numb how to be awake
But I never knew
You will be willing to listen
Is the most authentic me?"
01
A man wandering away from home
Sleepy and persistent, confused and stubborn
Greetings in the face of parental concern
Although, you want to send a message
Confide in deep troubles and tell the unsatisfactory experience
You want to tell Mom and Dad
It turns out that life is really not easy, and I almost have no strength to resist
You want a gentle comfort and a childhood hug
But a second before sending
Delete them all
(Sent out message)
▼
All was fine
02
You long to see him
But you never ask for it
You are afraid of creating disturbances, afraid of waiting to refuse, afraid of being complained about not being independent
You think paranoidly
It only makes sense to meet him when he also wants to see you
It is the decency and pride of love
Although, you want to send a message
"Hi, are you available? Come out and meet us. ”
"I'm thinking of you, can I see you right away?"
"Now I need you very much..."
You're busy
03
You know, how to hide your grief in no one's land
How to dissolve yourself without being silent, like an adult
You know, what you say may not be understood
Not adding to trouble is the tenderness left to others
Face a friend's inquiry
Even if the emotions pile up
Even if you don't want to spit out or say unhappily
"I've been having a bad time lately, very badly..."
"I don't seem to have the motivation to move forward."
"Can you listen to me for an hour?"
I'm fine
04
Maybe you've changed the design to 11
Countless finalizations were overturned
Maybe for the long front of the project
I have been working overtime for a long time and staying up for a long night
But the results are still not ideal
Faced with a flood of revision opinions
You said calmly on the surface
“ok”
But the heart has long been @#¥%... &*
You want to desperately let go of all your exhaustion
Be an indisputable deserter
Roger that
05
Even if there is the pain of "tears melting away the fine sand"
There are endless grievances and heartaches
You swallow
In the silence, a man contracted tolerance
Bystanders are not worth it for you
Although you have 100,000 reasons to justify it
But the words come to the lips
Forget it
06
When your whole being is a little indescribably mournful
When something goes wrong in your life that no one knows
At least not as free and so good as everyone else
Face the lively news of the group
Although you can't lift the enthusiasm to participate
Despite what you want to say
"I'm not going."
"I'm not in a good state, it doesn't affect everyone."
Haha good
07
You're good at hiding inner storms and tsunamis
But they can't learn to export their true thoughts
You care carefully about the eyes of others
But they forget their own needs and feelings
Confront those who are unnecessary and irrelevant
You have a lot of opportunities to refuse
Both
There is a fire in everyone's heart
People passing by only saw smoke
When to start
When we grew up, we began to be silent
Muffled to digest emotions
We are always competitive
Ignore your own weaknesses and exhaustion
When did it start again
We copy the promise
Let the real personality be invisible
In the sea of life, there will be some difficult moments
You don't have to hold up the night alone
There is no need to deliberately look for masks to hide real emotions
Give yourself more moments to release your sensibility
Believe that in this world —
Someone understands your sensitivity and gives you gentle care
Someone can see through your disguise and embrace your vulnerability
Hope everyone's heart speaks
It can all be delivered smoothly in the end
- end -
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