I've found that as we get older, we like to put obstacles in ourselves more and more. While isolating ourselves from vulnerability, we also differentiate those who matter. In the face of lovers, we are less and less good at being honest with our friends, and we are less and less able to push our hearts. In the face of our parents, until now, we have not learned how to express our love for them. Remembering the Mid-Autumn Festival last year, I did not return to my hometown because of work, and I was eating the mooncakes sent by the company, when I suddenly received a call from my father.
He just said she was watching the moon in the garden of the neighborhood, that tonight's moon was so bright, and told me to stand by and look at the moon from a distance with him. But the house I rented at the time was in a bad location. Even though I was a little crowded, I couldn't see the moonlight for half a year that night. Although my dad regretted not being able to talk to his daughter on the phone to watch the moon, he was happy to ask me questions. I also told her everything was fine and hung up the phone.
It's just that I miss you too much. Dad always talked about it. Why didn't he dare to say? I remember a writer who once thought that the expression of love should be subtle and hazy, and she would rather be translated as tonight's moonlight than the blunt I love you, but the more I grew up, the more I felt that if the way of expressing love could be more direct and generous, maybe there would be less regrets. Just like my sister thought of my dad telling me to look at the moon, I was a little sad. He should have missed me that night. If I say this generously, I will miss you too.
Letting your parents feel your love is really just a word away. Well, I still remember watching a movie at Jia Ling this New Year. Hello, the protagonist of Li Huanying's movie is Jia Ling's biological mother. His mother died unexpectedly when he was 19 years old. This incident became a regret in her heart. He was always thinking about the big refrigerator with the double doors and the green fur coat he had bought for his mother. He's gone. After watching the movie.
The fear of losing powerlessness struck suddenly, and I remembered that I had never given my parents a hug, never been wronged, missed, and even before the holiday blessings were delivered on time, I always felt that it was all formalism and unnecessary. I thought that even if I didn't express it, my mother would understand my thoughts, so all these years I only cared about how high I could fly and how far I could run, but if we never had a complete past, I loved you and thought of you. In fact, we have become heroes and we will regret it for the rest of our lives. As Mao Yi once told us in his life, after his mother died, the most regrettable thing for him was that he never expressed his love for his mother.
After his mother's death, he could only write down his thoughts about his mother and his feelings for me. In this song, when I was in middle school, I watched a movie called "Keep Walking." There is a line in it, both shoulders are always helpless, most people will be helpless when they die, but it does not mean that their aging or death has something to do with them. It's like a sore throat to me. At the time I didn't understand what that meant. I just thought it was the person I loved who would eventually leave us, but then I realized he said it too late, just like Jia Ling didn't come to buy her mom a double-door refrigerator, and Mao couldn't wait to talk to her.
Mom listened to her own songs, and their regrets told us that life is full of steps, don't wait too late to regret it. Maybe you're really busy and your life is a mess, but the opportunities to show love are really slim. I hope you can overcome those embarrassments, show your shame, and don't save your regrets until next year. There's a lot of romance and tenderness in our lives, but you have to remember to leave a copy of them and don't let love wait too long.