During that time I quickly realized that I had missed so many opportunities in my freshman year and sophomore year that I didn't deserve the next opportunity, and I had to rely on myself.
The roommates didn't feel the slightest nervousness, and even though they were in their junior year, they didn't seem to realize that graduation was not far away, and they were still useless. What do you do after graduation? The answer is to find a job, but what do you take to find a job, Internet café all-night experience?
I understand that I can only be alone, and although I don't know what to do yet, I at least have to correct my attitude first, stay away from my comfort zone, stay away from negative thoughts, and go to a place suitable for struggle - the library.
The library opens at eight o'clock every day, around seven forty o'clock has begun to queue, while queuing while endorsing, it is really not easy to get up in the winter morning, they are really powerful, I also want to be as strong as them, we can bear so hard, we will definitely be successful people in the future.
Yes, this is the place to chase your dreams, so start cheering today.
Such determination reassures me that I can have countless thoughts and plans, but only by moving can I get away from hallucinations and sleep well in reality.
In the first few days, I took a few books of our professional courses, thinking that this was the future job bowl, and I had to keep it steady. I regretted it again, when I first opened the course, I was in a trance, and finally the exam was wiped off, but now I have to do it again, which is really a sin.
However, I was really overestimating myself, and I felt that my brain was degenerating, resisting. It never wants to focus for more than 10 minutes, it reconstructs new illusions, obsessively imagines a better future, and always suddenly regains focus after a period of time to see how long the phone has passed.
How long has it been? When my phone finished browsing the tweet short video takeaway, I forgot that I just wanted to see the time.
I forced myself to quiet down, to quiet my brain, and even in the already quiet library, I wore sponge earplugs so quiet that I couldn't hear the sound of my own books, and I could occasionally feel my heartbeat.
It's the best time to learn, and I'm able to focus more easily, but still, not necessarily focus on learning.
For some time now, I changed a few books and didn't read them.
Of course, reading books is not OK, we have to practice engineering, I thought so, opened the online class, prepared a notebook and pen, and the computer screen writing interface.
I still can't concentrate on studying, every day I spend 11 hours in the library, my phone screen time is more than 8 hours, and I gradually hope that if someone can study with me, it will be much better to supervise each other.
After many, many such days, I felt that I didn't know what to study, that I had no motivation to learn. Because I don't know the consequences of my current professional ability to go to work, I haven't experienced a complete failure to dispel the illusion. And I didn't get phased feedback in the process of learning, which made me taste the sweetness, so I couldn't continue to learn.
Liu Cixin's work describes it like this: The cardboard box is a strong magnet, and I can try to turn the needle in other directions, but as soon as this effort is relaxed, the needle is immediately sucked back into that direction.
And I'm trying to point the needle in the other direction, hanging on to a breath, and I will suddenly be paralyzed.
I don't play games or watch dramas, I uninstall any distracting software on my phone, but I'd rather go through the phone settings page over and over again than learn.
I thought that in my freshman year, I would arrange evening self-study in my freshman year, and six people in the dormitory would sit in two rows and three people sitting closely. Among the teachers of a hundred people, I played with mobile phones, and I did not complete my homework for too many days in a row, and every night self-study was wasted. I was certainly able to realize that I couldn't, and I tried to keep my phone in a drawer away from my line of sight, of course not. I made up my mind to put the phone directly in the dormitory and did not bring it out, good guy, I looked left and looked, all night I was watching my roommate play mobile phone!
I can't say that the phone mistook me, I put down the phone and will only choose to be in a daze, Abba Aba...
What mistook me was that I didn't make a good start!
There is no course arrangement in the second semester of the third year, I think the intention of this setting is of course to hope for an internship as soon as possible, I am also working, hard to produce a one-page resume, as desired to get some interview opportunities.
What can be interviewed? I didn't have such a problem in my 60-point test paper, which was miserable and miserable.
I didn't pass any of the interviews!
The road is narrow...