The first crisis in the marriage, my husband chose to forgive me

That day when I returned to my accommodation from work, my husband's face was livid, his eyes were wide red and bloodshot, he looked like he wanted to swallow his life alive, and half of the plastic stool on the side had been smashed to pieces, and he grabbed the mobile phone in my hand and held it high and said, "What is the password?" I'll smash it without saying it."

It was the first time I'd seen him furious. After 2 years at home with children, I went to the city where he worked to find a job and ended the days of separating between the two places. He sensed my strangeness, took his mobile phone with him every day in the shower, looked at the mobile phone whenever he had time, and finally appeared in the opening scene after repeated questions without success. I was afraid of the way he would get angry, I was afraid that I would lose this home as soon as I said it, and after a struggle of ideas, I plucked up the courage to finally confess to him, and I had prepared for the worst in my heart: divorce.

"I can tell you the password, I can also tell you that I do have something to hide from you, you put down the phone first", after seeing me compromise, his expression eased slightly. "First of all I didn't have an ambiguous relationship with any man, I owed an online loan, a lot, I had nothing to say, everything was my fault, the phone password was XXXXXX, N you can look at it casually". After saying that, my heart is like a hanging, and my husband, who has always been diligent and frugal, knows that our marriage can still go on? "How much do you owe?" Write on a piece of paper, all of it, no more concealment, mobile phone password is not allowed to change, I have never thought of divorce, you do not have this thought."

I didn't expect him to be like this, and I was so touched that he went through all the loans I had listed and went all night without a word. He used to smoke much, and he smoked one cigarette after another. I looked at him and I felt bad and didn't dare to talk to him. The next day we went to work separately and he sent me a message "I'm sad, I don't know you anymore, how dare you borrow so much money, these are loan sharks, you're terrible." I was very panicked, and after work I cried and said that I knew I was wrong, you forgive me, I will not borrow again. My husband said that in order to go home early to accompany my children to save money, I did not dare to go to the hospital when I was sick, did you see the list I put on the table for hospital examination? Have you ever cared about me? You borrow a hundred thousand more to see if I go to jump off the building. I suddenly realized that it was not easy for him to work alone to support the whole family over the years, and I regretted it, one wrong step at a time, and I could only beg him to forgive.

My husband said, "I can forgive you, but you have to write a letter of guarantee and write clearly what happened, the salary is distributed by me, and you will be wherever I am in the future." He helped me pay off part of my debt and the rest was paid off by myself. It took me two years to pay off the online loan and the money I borrowed, I paid the price, and almost lost my marriage and family, it was my husband who did not give up on me, this matter I never dared to mention to people, there was no face and no courage, maybe one day our living conditions are good, I can be relieved, I did not marry the wrong person I am very warm in my heart. Everyone must cherish life, stay away from fraud, and stay away from online loans.