In the melodious music, I expressed my admiration and longing for Mr. Liang for the first time, and he grabbed my hand and told me: In fact, I have always liked you. That night was the first time I didn't go home at night, and it was also the first time I paid for it. I thought we would always be happy, who knows, a change made him become cold and heartless, even disregarding the flesh and bones I had in my belly, mercilessly abandoning me!
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That year, we were in our third year of high school, and there was still a semester to go to the college entrance examination, and everyone was racing against the clock to study and prepare for the exam with heart, and I was no exception.
The math teacher in our class had a car accident at this juncture, broke his left leg, had to be hospitalized, and had to stay in bed for several months, so that he couldn't continue to teach us, and everyone was anxious.
The school soon arranged for a new math teacher to come over to substitute for the class, surnamed Liang, I heard that the principal had spent a lot of money from other colleges and universities to dig up, and was a handsome man with both strength and appearance.
The first time I saw this math teacher, I was attracted to him, he had thick eyebrows, white skin, a straight posture, a loud and magnetic voice, and a funny and humorous speech, which was completely different from the old-fashioned and boring teacher before.
In order to get acquainted with us as soon as possible, Teacher Liang invited us out to eat after class, and soon mingled with us.
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I enjoyed listening to his classes, and every time I came to my math class, I was always excited and expectant, and I sat in the classroom early.
During that time, I studied mathematics desperately, had an unprecedented love for mathematics, and my grades improved by leaps and bounds, and only I knew the little thought behind those achievements.
Teacher Liang also looked at me differently, and he praised me more than once in the class: Lu Feifei was serious in class, and her math scores improved very quickly, and everyone should ask her for more advice on learning methods.
Receiving Teacher Liang's affirmation, my heart was sweet, and my admiration for him was a little more.
Maybe my eyes are too hot, Teacher Liang always looks at me consciously or unconsciously when he is in class, his eyes are very gentle, and there seems to be stars twinkling in his eyes.
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Once, when I came to menstrual vacation in self-study class, I was sweating profusely in pain, and I felt that the sky was spinning, and I could hardly sit still.
Teacher Liang quickly discovered my abnormality, inquired about my situation, and immediately sent me to the hospital.
When I got out of the car, he supported me, his hands were thick and powerful, and I smelled the fresh soap on his body, and my heart was like a deer bumping and jumping.
After the doctor prescribed the medicine, he saw that I was in pain, helped me turn on the physiotherapy lamp to look at the stomach, Dr. Liang helped me pay the fee after being busy, took the medicine, and intimately bought a hot porridge back to feed me.
After that time, our relationship changed a little subtly, we often texted and chatted after class, he knew that I had painful menstruation every month, and often reminded me to drink brown sugar water in advance to prevent it.
In order to express my gratitude, I secretly gave him a small gift, which was a handmade doll that I made by hand and stayed up for several nights to make it up, and Teacher Liang often took time off on weekends to help me make up lessons.
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We are nominally a teacher-student relationship, but in private there is a feeling that is beyond teachers and students quietly emerging, but everyone has not broken it.
A semester passed quickly, our college entrance examination was over, I was admitted to the university of my choice as I wished, and on the day I received the acceptance letter, I was very excited and immediately reported the good news to Teacher Liang.
"Congratulations, you're finally going to college, you can blatantly fall in love," Teacher Liang said jokingly.
"Of course," I somehow, my face suddenly hot.
"Teacher, do you have a girlfriend?" I asked.
"No," Teacher Liang replied.
"Really?" I listened to the excitement in my heart, and when I heard him say these words, I felt that the sky was bright.
"But I have a wife, and I have a son who is more than one year old," Teacher Liang was silent for half a moment, but still told me.
"Oh... Oh, then you must be very happy, "I felt like a fish in my throat, and I felt that the sky that had just been bright suddenly became cloudy again.
It turned out that he was already married, in fact, he had already guessed that such an excellent man as him could still be single!
I've been sad for a long time since knowing he was married and couldn't be interested in anything.
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After going to college, I did not contact Teacher Liang again, he occasionally sent me messages and I did not reply, but I still remembered him in my heart, and sometimes I really hoped that the person who stood on the podium and lectured was him.
During college, many classmates in the class fell in love, I also received a few male students' confessions, I refused one by one, they all said that I was a cold beauty, high vision, the average person can not catch up, I smiled and did not explain, only my heart is clear, my heart is always loaded with a person.
I thought that my fate with him was over and I would never see him again, but a chance encounter brought us back together.
The teacher asked me and a class cadre to receive a group of high school students who came to our campus exhibition, and the leader of the team was Teacher Liang, who recognized me at a glance and greeted me warmly.
"Lu Feifei, I haven't seen you for a long time" His voice is good and magnetic, still as always haunting.
When I saw this familiar face, my heart instantly broke through, and the tears came down at once.
I couldn't be more familiar with this figure, how many times have it appeared in my dreams in the middle of the night.
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After class, he took the initiative to ask me out to dinner, and our mood could not be calmed for a long time, excited and excited.
In the melodious music, I expressed my admiration and longing for Mr. Liang for the first time, and he grabbed my hand and told me: In fact, I have always liked you.
That night was the first time I didn't go home at night, and it was also the first time I paid for it.
Later, like ordinary couples, we held hands and went shopping together, ate together, contacted each other by phone when we couldn't meet, and used voices and words to convey each other's thoughts.
I know he has a family and children, so I never ask him to be available, nor do I ask him to divorce and marry me, I just want to enjoy the beauty in front of me.
"Aren't you afraid she'll know?" sometimes I snuggled up in his arms and couldn't resist asking him.
"She and I have no feelings anymore, just for the sake of the child to force together," Teacher Liang said lightly.
It turned out that his wife was with him because she broke up with others, married him in order to gamble, and later found out that her heart had always been loaded with her ex-boyfriend, even if she later gave birth to a child, she still had a lukewarm attitude towards him, and now even the most basic husband and wife life is not lived.
"Then why don't you divorce?" I asked him.
"For the sake of the child, the two of us also negotiated, and when the child is older, we will divorce" Teacher Liang put his arm around me and aggravated it a few points.
I am a little sad, we are obviously a couple who like each other, but we met the right person at the wrong time, for the sake of his family and children, we can only secretly date, hide the original bright and upright love, and become a secret that cannot be seen.
But who makes him fall in love with a husband with a wife?
Even though I had too much dissatisfaction, I could only endure it silently, not daring to show half a point in front of him, for fear that he would feel that he would feel that he was willful and ignorant.
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The postponement of a menstrual holiday made me panic, and I had a bad premonition in my heart, thinking that I was pregnant.
I secretly went to buy a pregnancy test stick and came back, hid in the bathroom, and when I saw the two red bars on it, I was immediately frightened.
There are also some girls in the school who are pregnant and secretly go to the hospital, some are found to have issued warning letters, and the school is widespread, and one even dropped out of school because of this, and even can't get a diploma.
When I hesitated and didn't know how to tell Teacher Liang, he suddenly told me: Let's separate for the time being, and don't contact each other again during this time.
I listened like a thunderbolt and didn't look back for a long time.
He told me that our affairs had been discovered, that the principal had talked to him, and that if he continued to tangle with me, he would be expelled, after all, he was a teacher, and it was an immoral thing to cheat on a student in marriage.
"I'm pregnant," he was silent for a long time, but still told him.
"I'll give you a sum of money to go to the hospital," he said without any hesitation, understating it as if I were carrying someone else's child in my belly.
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I lay on the cold operating table, without the warm company of Teacher Liang, my heart was like dead ash, and I felt that the sky had never been so gray.
On that day, I lost my flesh and bones, and I also lost my favorite.
I knew that there would be no more relationship between me and him.
I was afraid of being discovered by the school, and I didn't dare to take a leave of absence after the operation, so I forced myself to go to class.
As a result of my waywardness, in the end, my body collapsed and my exams were hung up.
Looking at the puffy face in the mirror, tired eyes and pale lips, it felt like a few years old overnight, just like the youthful and beautiful self before.
I couldn't control my emotions any longer, and tears fell like broken beads.
At this moment I found that I had lost my love and lost myself