(ix) Resentment
The days always pass quickly, and it is difficult to see snow in the winter in Tianjin, but this year came in time.
The hard-to-condense snowflakes flew down from the sky and landed on the dry maple branches, and on the elm tree that was more than two hundred years old, becoming like a cedar. The Moscow-style roof is all dyed white, the ground is also thick white, and the Moscow-style red wall is reflected in the night, like the dark and burly body of the iron-armored giant, which can make people jump out of the dream fairy tale world imagination.
Couples have long been unable to help but fly into this fairy tale kingdom, making wishes, snowball fights, girls on tiptoe spinning, trying to laugh loudly, as if to leave all the unhappiness of getting along in the usual days behind, crushed into dust under the snow. Lonely people also like snow, because the air is really cold enough on snowy days, and if you breathe out, you can turn into ice. It is no longer the salty dampness of the coastal city air, which, although uncomfortable, is still disconnected.
I walked on the avenues on campus, deliberately avoiding pavilions, rockeries, promenades, and playgrounds, and I knew that those remote places would not be quiet at all. I deliberately stepped on the smooth snow surface that no one had walked, and everything was silent, except for the sound of the only snow under my feet being trampled from fluffy, which more and more reflected the loneliness of the snow night, but it was similar to my state of mind, and suddenly a burst of joy arose in my heart, and for a while I was a little overjoyed, and the corners of my mouth almost rose. Feeling that it was not in line with the mood of the imminent loss of love, he put his lips back into a sad and serious look, continued to step on the snow, and continued to listen to the sound of the snow being trampled.
Try to save this feeling, yes, just like those girls who spin on their toes on the snow, no matter how fierce the quarrel with the boyfriends on weekdays, how tired they are, or in the good times, holding the hands of the people who think they are right, pretending to be the only one in this world, the protagonist of love, the princess of the fairy tale kingdom. Probably no one would have thought that until the graduation season came half a year later, it was the arrival of the breakup season. But none of them cry, there is no joy or sorrow, some just breathe a sigh of relief, take a deep breath, and spit out not only carbon dioxide, but freedom. But this freedom is not too sad, but the obvious joy is not timely, so in the helplessness of graduation and job search, the sky is north and south, and they fly separately.
These have to remind people of Hui, who wants to ask her to go to the snow tomorrow, hoping to be able to continue to be beautiful like the spinning girls. So, I sent the message first.
"It was snowing and it was beautiful. Busy at work today? ”
"See, it's cold outside, there aren't many people."
I thought it was an opportunity, and she should be looking forward to my invitation.
"Then I'll pick you up from work and go see the snow together."
"No, it's too cold. A little tired, after work and colleagues to eat something, just go back. ”
I knew that the only people who worked with her were her male colleagues. But I shouldn't be a careful-eyed man, that's what I hate the most. I should also believe in the girl standing opposite love, because of love, so I must believe unconditionally.
"Then tomorrow, tomorrow you rest."
"No, I'm tired."
"Yes! A must! I almost roared and sent out a message.
Maybe it's because I'm worried that I'll get out of control and call over and embarrass everyone.
"All right". The two men no longer had the strength to send a message.
In the end, it is some use, maybe the tantrum between couples is also a way to get along, rather than blindly to meet each other's preferences. The kind of love that treats love as a case of raising eyebrows, and the love that the gods and immortals manage may not exist in the first place, or it may require meeting a person of equal strength, which I call "love equality". It is the same interest, interest, and interest, and the degree of investment is comparable. It's hard, and I won't understand it until years later. Although they all depend on some kind of coincidental encounter, this world is not without yo. While there are no two identical leaves in the world, there must be two leaves that are extremely similar, and there are also two leaves that can infinitely resolve coupling.
The world is truly amazing. Because it is big enough, people are not lonely, only because they talk about love, limit their ideals to the world of two people, too narrow, and feel lonely.
I still went back to the dormitory to prepare for the meeting, packed up my clothes, carried the bone-chilling cold, and cleaned myself up from top to bottom in the washroom. So, I had a cold, my nose was so badly stuffed that I even woke up in the morning with some fever.
In the early morning, the windowsill is sprinkled with warm sunlight, the snow melts quietly in the sun, and the coastal city has winds blowing from the sea throughout the four seasons. The wind drilled through the cracks in the windows, blowing the curtains shakily. The sunlight-stained white curtains were dusty and looked gray. Rays of sunlight hit the curtains and then onto the floor of the dormitory. The wind swayed the curtains like pickpockets, bouncing up dust and flying wildly in the rays of the sun.
It's not cold, and it's time to get up and meet Hui. Since she is afraid of the cold, this kind of weather is better, it is not cold, and she can watch my favorite snow, killing two birds with one stone, the best of both worlds. The best of both worlds has always been the way to solve problems that I have sought, and even become complacent and elevated to a "win-win" approach. The search for this compromise method also reflects the use of wisdom, which is where one is proud. But can love be compromised?
Intense washing, brushing, dressing, all in one go. The adrenaline rush of excitement, resisting the discomfort caused by the cold, I even began to hum the song, an old toothless song "Good Day", because it was a dance song that had been rehearsing school evenings recently, so it was particularly skilled. But the title of the song particularly reflects today's mood.
The phone vibrates, which is Nokia's unique vibration version, which can vibrate the skin in the pocket and the sound of the bed board under the pillow. It's the text message coming.
"Not seeing each other today. Very tired and want to rest for a day. ”
"Yesterday said yes, and then today the sun is very good, not cold, you can also watch the snow." Half a day is also OK, and in the afternoon you rest. ”
"Don't look. I watched it last night, I went back late, I was too tired. ”
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I suppressed the sour vinegar that suddenly surged up in my heart, jumped straight up along the stomach and esophagus, and when I reached the throat, I didn't have the intention of squirting out along the mouth, and then up, to the nasal cavity, the acid made people shed tears, to the brain cavity, five thunders, the explosion of my dizzy. It seems to be hooked up with a cold at once, the adrenaline hormone recedes, and the symptoms of the cold all come out at once. Runny nose, fever, sneezing mixed with tears and clear liquid, limbs become abrupt, want to hammer on some hard object, releasing excess energy. But the brain is spinning, and the body is out of control. The students in the dormitory were amazed at how persistently I took a bath last night, and how fierce the cold was today. I am glad that my classmates found a reasonable reason for me to run tears and snot at the same time, which can not only cover up my gaffe, but also allow me to have a reasonable reason to take off my well-dressed clothes and bury myself deep into the quilt again, so that the tears can flow away with my feelings. This is another win-win, this is the embodiment of the use of wisdom, and I almost want to the corners of my mouth and laugh. But the tears were still flowing.
(To be continued)
