Text/Zhang Xiaonuan
Huan Wa is a sheep herding baby that Zhong Yuemin knew when he was in the team in northern Shaanxi, seven or eight years old. He is the grandson of Du Laohan, who took Zhong Yuemin to herd sheep with him.
When she was very young, because her family was too poor, her mother hooked up with a carpenter and eloped. Two or three days after Her mother left, Her father, who was sick, swallowed her last breath and passed away.
Fatherless and motherless, the baby and her grandfather have been dependent on each other since childhood, living on this loess slope day after day to live by herding sheep.
However, this young baby also has her own "grand ideal", which makes Zhong Yuemin sigh a long sigh.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="6" > herd sheep, save money, and marry daughters-in-law</h1>
When Zhong Yuemin was in the northern Shaanxi army, he was fascinated by Xintianyou, and often pestered Du Laohan, who was herding sheep with him, to sing a few voices, and every time at this time, Zhong Yuemin was unusually devoted, and he couldn't help but feel sad from the heart.
Most of the lyrics of XinTianyou sing "male and female love", what "the father-in-law unties the white cloth shirt of the daughter-in-law", what "the lover climbs on the kang of the slave family", a "sour" smell, in Zhong Yuemin's heart spontaneously emerged.
Zhong Yuemin once inexplicably asked Du Laohan: Grandpa Du, why is there so many sour songs in this letter to heaven?
While lighting a cigarette bag, Du Laohan said: "My heart is bitter and I sing blindly."
The writer Du Liang said: The extreme scarcity of material life needs the support of spiritual strength, and when human beings face the harsh natural environment and face their own pain, they often show a helpless mood of seeking flexibility, which is to make fun in suffering and dilute the pain of reality.
For the people of the yellow land of material scarcity, it is a kind of comfort to dilute suffering, and when suffering cannot be changed, you can only accept it, and then learn to make pleasure in suffering.
In the face of Du Laohan's words, Zhong Yuemin fell into contemplation, adults can use the xintianyou to make fun of suffering, when the heart is bitter, roar two voices, but what about children? Suffering also came upon them.
Zhong Yuemin asked the baby who was herding sheep: Baby, why are you herding sheep?
Baby Blurted out: Save money.
Zhong Yuemin: Why save money?
Baby: Grow up and marry a daughter-in-law.
Zhong Yuemin smiled and said: "Hey, how old is your little boy, and you are worried about marrying your daughter-in-law?" I'm not married yet. Baby, why did you marry your daughter-in-law?
Baby: Baby.
Zhong Yuemin: What about giving birth to a baby?
Huanwa: Save money again and marry her daughter-in-law.
Zhong Yuemin: The baby married the daughter-in-law and regenerated the baby, and then saved money, and regenerated the baby, right?
Baby nodded.
Zhong Yuemin was very puzzled, what is the meaning of such a life? Saving money, marrying daughters-in-law, giving birth to children, and being born for a lifetime, such a day, Zhong Yuemin just thinks about it, and feels terrible.
Why does Huan Wa have such a "view of life"? It is because on this piece of soil where he lives, his ancestors have lived like this for generations, so in the consciousness of Huan Wa, people should live like this for a lifetime, because he has never seen other forms of life.
Ni Ping wrote such a sentence in the book "Quotations of Grandmother": People's stomachs are not afraid of hunger, and if there is no thick, they can drink some thin, and they cannot die without dilute drinking water. The eyes cannot be hungry, and if the eyes cannot see good things, slowly the heart will be blind, and the heart will be blind, and the person will be useless. If you don't have enough to eat, you are like a fool.
In the past, I agreed with Teacher Ni Ping's words, but when I saw Du Laohan and saw the life of Huan Wa, I questioned this sentence.
A person, if he can't even fill his stomach, lives a life of eating chaff every day, eats a meal without eating, and is often hungry to the point of venus, how can such a pair of eyes see this bustling world clearly?
If a person lives a life of eating chaff and throat, then the life of the people around him must also be like this, and the circle of life of the poor can never be in line with prosperity, and this cruel reality has nakedly blocked them from seeing the larger world.
As Lu Xun said: Human sorrow and joy are not the same. In this life, She can't see the bigger and more prosperous world in Zhong Yuemin's heart, and Zhong Yuemin already doesn't understand the "ideal of life" of Herding sheep, saving money, and marrying daughters-in-law.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="32" > compassionate kindness</h1>
Some people say: Poor mountains and evil waters out of the people, this sentence is undoubtedly the biggest prejudice against poor areas. I would like to say that it is not the poor mountains and bad waters that produce the people, but the people everywhere; it is not the prosperous places that produce good people, but the good people everywhere.
Baby, is this poor mountain and evil water, cute and kind child.
When Zhong Yuemin led Zhiqing to the county to beg for food, Zhong Yuemin learned that this place had not had a meal for more than two years in more than fifty years.
In those years, Wotou was a very expensive grain.
Once, Zhong Yuemin gave up the two nests he was carrying in his arms to Huan Wa, and he was hungry. Zhong Yuemin couldn't bear to watch such a small child eat wild vegetables with adults all day long, these two nests, for Huan Wa, is not a full meal, but a full of love.
Children who have no parental pain from childhood will have a very sensitive perception of the care and kindness given to them by others.
Not long after, in order to repay Zhong Yuemin, Huan Wa mysteriously pulled him to a very secluded place and said: Brother Yuemin, I have brought you food. He took out a black object from his arms and handed it to Zhong Yuemin.
Zhong Yuemin took a closer look and almost spat it out, it turned out to be a roasted mouse.
Huan Wa happily shared her secret with Zhong Yuemin: I dug a vole hole and caught two voles, I burned it, I roasted it, this is just for you.
Zhong Yuemin instantly felt sadness from his heart.
In the original work, it is written that Zhong Yuemin seemed to be struck by lightning in an instant, he froze there, his eyes were red, and an indescribable sourness gushed out of his heart. This fatherless and motherless child was too heavy-hearted, and he remembered that he had eaten Zhong Yuemin's nest and used this method to repay him.
Zhong Yuemin did not want to hurt this child, he forcibly endured the nausea, ate a bite of rat meat, patted the head of the baby and said: Good brother, there are all good things to think of brother, this meat is really fragrant...
Zhong Yuemin, a person from the city, can eat and roast rats, but Zhong Yuemin still hardened his scalp, overcame his inner obstacles, took a small bite, and said a white lie " It's delicious."
The writer Da Bing said: Children are no better than adults, children have no room, the child's world is so big, a pain is a whole world.
The departure of her mother has left a great trauma in the heart of The Baby, how can Zhong Yuemin let the Baby feel the great pain brought to the heart by the emotional separation between people again.
Kindness is a nature, and kindness is a choice. In that era when even her stomach could not be filled, Huan Wa used her own way to give Zhong Yuemin what she felt was the best to repay the warmth he gave herself.
However, such a child who is compassionate and kind by nature does not have a good result.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="57" > asked Zhong Yuemin "what is the taste of sour soup dumplings"</h1>
Zhong Yuemin was holding up a flashlight to reply to Zhou Xiaobai, and Du Laohan shouted outside the door in a fiery manner: Yuemin, Yuemin, quickly save Huanwa, Huanwa is sick...
Zhong Yuemin and Zheng Tong hurriedly ran over to see, Huanwa's face was pale, and she was rolling on the earth kang with a cry, the barefoot doctor in the village would not see a doctor at all, and gave Huanwa two pieces of painkillers, saying that it would be good to sleep, but her stomach was cold.
Zhong Yuemin was furious: Fart, will it hurt like this when you catch a cold? At this moment, the village secretary said again, the big car in the village went to the county town yesterday to pull fat, there is no car, how to go to the county hospital?
Zhong Yuemin didn't say a word, he picked up the baby and ran to the county hospital, Zheng Tong gave a flashlight, and the two ran to the county hospital one foot deep and one foot shallow.
Huan Wa's head shrugged over Zhong Yuemin's head, and she said weakly: Brother Yuemin, I tell you one thing, you must not tell others, I found two more rat holes, and when I am well, I will dig and catch the rats, and I will also cook meat for you to eat.
Zhong Yuemin said bitterly: "Baby, when you are well, I will go with you, the meat you burned last time is really delicious.....
Zheng Tong listened to the conversation between Zhong Yuemin and Xian Wa, and it was difficult to bear it, and even reached a state of anger.
In the original work, it is written: Zheng Tong broke his mouth and scolded, I fuck TMD, what is this ghost place? If you are sick, you have to walk dozens of miles overnight, doesn't this delay things? The life of a peasant is so cheap? I fuck.....
In the gasps of Zhong Yuemin and Zheng Tong, Huan Wa asked in a weak voice: Brother Yuemin, have you ever eaten sour soup dumplings?
Zhong Yuemin: I haven't eaten it, and I don't seem to have it in Beijing.
Huan Wa said: I have not eaten, my grandfather has eaten, he said it is delicious, more delicious than roast meat...
Zhong Yuemin tried to hold back the tears: Huan Wa, brother assured you, when you are well, brother will take you to the county town to eat sour soup dumplings, and we will eat them with open stomachs.
Baby's voice became weaker and weaker: I can just taste it, we don't have any money.....
Zhong Yuemin: Who said we don't have any money? What we have is money, you can rest assured, brother guarantees that you will eat enough.
Huan Wa: Brother Yuemin, my stomach doesn't hurt anymore, I'm going to sleep...
In her "sour soup dumpling dream", She slept forever. When Zhong Yuemin sent Huanwa to the county hospital, Huanwa had run out of breath, and She had "acute appendicitis", if she was sent half an hour earlier, she might still be saved.
In the original work, it is written that Zhong Yuemin was struck by lightning in his time, he was not mentally prepared, how could he not believe it, and a living life disappeared like this. Two hours ago, She told him the secret of the mouse hole, and the child was afraid that others would know about it first, so he only told the secret to the person he trusted the most. But in the blink of an eye, the child was gone forever, and life was so fragile that death was only a stone's throw away.
Du Laohan squatted on the ground with a wooden look, and there was not a single tear on his face, perhaps he was used to the suffering in life.
But Zhong Yuemin couldn't stand it, he couldn't imagine that there was such a cruel side of life, he couldn't help but cry when he picked up the body of Huan Wa.....
The departure of Huan Wa is probably also a kind of lucky relief in the midst of suffering, and Zhong Yuemin can only comfort himself in this way.
Zhong Yuemin couldn't forget the child, nor could he forget the charred rat meat.
Writer Yu Hua wrote in "Alive": Death is not the loss of life, but out of time. As long as someone still remembers you in their hearts, you will always be alive.
Huan Wa will live forever in Zhong Yuemin's heart.
Writing this, I am reminded of the saying "everything is fate, half a point is not by people", the world is hypocritical, like to say that "suffering" is a good experience that inspires you to grow, but if you can, who wants "suffering" to come to themselves? If you can grow up normally in a normal environment, who wants to be born on a barren soil, live in a poor family, and grow up hard?
To be alive, everything is just a karmic encounter, that is, you cannot influence "life".
Author: Zhang Xiaonuan, may you and I meet not too late in the warm and comfortable text, and grow together
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