When I was young, I read novels, liked to watch love stories that were full of anger, the protagonists knew each other, and used the posture of "crazy for love" to overcome all difficulties, defeat everything, and finally have a perfect ending.
What kind of life will the protagonist live after the perfect ending? All this is not within the scope of young people's consideration, after all, reading novels is to pass the time, where will you think so much?
As I grew older, after going back and forth in this earthly world, I had a different understanding of love. If the understanding of love in youth is "someone understands your unspoken meaning", then the expectation of love now should be "someone understands your desire to stop".
This feeling is even more profound when reading Higuchi Ichiba's anthology "Green Plum Bamboo Horse". This novel is the late work of Higuchi Kazuha, who is known as a talented japanese female writer, and said that it is in his later years, but in fact, he is also very young, because Higuchi Kazuba only has a short 24 years in his life. In the book, Higuchi Kazuba describes 8 love stories, each different, but all based on life, with a very realistic background, the protagonist in the cycle of fate of those unwilling and confessed to the extremely real. However, although there is a lot of helplessness in these stories, if you chew carefully, you can read some of the true meaning of life.
Love in the student age, true love is supreme, and everything else can lean back. Probably because of this, many people will now sigh, only the feelings of the student era are the purest, when from students to social people, everyone has a lot of small calculations in their hearts that are not known to others, will consider reality, accounting for gains and losses.
Some people feel that this is a pity, because love is mixed with too many things, and it is no longer worth desperately guarding. But if we look at it in a different direction, why can't we say that this is a kind of progress and maturity? When you see through a lot of reality, but still dare to step into love, this is a more affectionate bravery.
There is such a passage in the original text of "Green Plum Bamboo Horse": If a person does not have permanent production, his heart is always uneasy. Although I put both hands into my arms and envisioned the moonflower, if there was no oil and salt, I couldn't live.
This is the reality, even if the "true love is invincible" in the student era, with the passage of time, it will also face the "chai rice oil and salt" of life, ignorance is meaningless, but not brave. Knowing but meaningless is the most affectionate existence.
In Higuchi's novel, the protagonist is not very happy because of the trickery of fate, but he wants but is always disappointed. For example, in the story of "Thirteen Nights", Ah Guan is very well married, her husband is an officer, and her life seems to be very rich, but Ah Guan is not happy at home, and she will always encounter her husband's criticism and scolding.
Too much scolding made her unbearable, she wanted to return to her mother's house, to find a safe haven, but when she walked at the door, the lost sanity suddenly returned: if she went back, the family would have no proud capital, the neighbors would discuss, and her brother's future would also be affected...
With this kind of shackles, under the persuasion of his father, Ah Guan still returned to the family and continued to endure the married life day after day.
Higuchi's novels are very realistic, and in the era when she lived, the status of women was very low, so in that era, this was the inevitable end of most women.
However, Higuchi Kazuba is also a person who hopes that women can awaken and use their own strength to change something, so in the work, the protagonist who is tricked by fate is often very resilient.
For example, she borrowed from the protagonist of the text to convey such a passage: In the difficult point of life, whether it is engaged in writing or business, the road to be taken in the future must be bumpy, but our sisters do not care about the praise and criticism of the world, only towards the path that they think is correct. When you fall, get up again.
Higuchi's novel does not tell any big truth, that is, simply use a story, a life, to tell the reader that at any time, as long as you stick to it and stand up, life will always be different.
People living in this era are much luckier than those in Higuchi's novels. Everyone has an independent personality, does not have to be imprisoned by the inadequacies of society, and capable people can be seen. Both men and women can express their ideas and pursue what they want, and the same is true for love.
It is true that life is full of sour, sweet, bitter, spicy and salty, and there will still be times when there will be times when the gains and losses need to be weighed, but such a life is real. Everyone has their own responsibilities, they have to do things, love is not the whole of life, but in this complicated life, if there is a stable hand that is surprised from the nightmare that night, pat your shoulder, give a silent comfort, so that loneliness will not take root.
Just like a passage once seen on the Internet: time will tell us, simple likes, the longest; companionship in the ordinary, the most at ease; people who understand you, the warmest.
May everyone be able to fight, while maintaining an independent posture, still do not resist the approach of others, and give themselves a chance to have love.