The first time I knew you, in a video in today's headlines, you sang "Am I your most beloved person" affectionately, feeling very novel, nothing more.
The second time I saw you again, on September 30, 2021, it turned out to be the news of your death, and it was actually in the surging news, titled: "In Memory of | Zhao Has: I Heard Sorrowful Songs in the Darkness", and I have seen many media reports such as "Straits Network" and "Red Star News", which shows that you are no longer a niche and unknown singer!
You can rest in peace!
I have successively learned more about your information and videos, deeper impressions and feelings about you, admiration and sympathy in my heart, and feel infinite pain and heartache!
As soon as I see you, it makes people feel a kind of heartache and pain that goes deep into their bones, a pain that can never be said!
Some people may sneer at you, but your singing skills can not but be said to be very good, born singers. Your piano skills must not be said to be low, and sometimes even reach the realm of the unity of human instruments and organs.
However, extreme poverty accompanies you throughout your life, only fifty-eight years old! You are fighting against society, fighting against the world, fighting against fate. You are so naïve, forty years later, but you still live in the eighties, unchanged. Xu Wei has earned money, Zhang Chudu has come out, Wan Xiaoli has also been on fire, but you are still you! You are the loneliest singer in the world!
You have chosen your life proudly, stubbornly, and even reactionarily. The worldly concept is that you are a loser, but even if you fail, even if you fail, even if it is a life, it is an attitude. You are a symbol of an era, the indivisible representative of a phenomenon. Even if you are about to die, you will never give in. You are the hardest bone, you are the most innocent person!
In 2018, Shanghai, at the farewell performance that I don't know if it is a farewell, you have to take a breath every time you say a word, you are terminally ill, pulmonary embolism, but you are still singing with your life. In order to sing freely, you have almost hollowed out your body, and now you have to use this dying body to sing again.
In short, it is certainly not a good thing that you left at such a young age, and your fault is inevitable. I hope you have a good time in heaven, I hope that you can live in your glorious era in the next life, and I hope that in the next life you can think of something.
Just live here, I really don't know what I can write anymore, the story of Boss Zhao may continue, and my understanding may still be very superficial. Fuck what I wrote maybe fart isn't either! (Boss Zhao also likes to speak in such a tone, and quan should be commemorated)
Just say one sentence: Boss Zhao, I miss you. Rest in peace.
I don't know what to say, I don't know what to say again...