Heart road
——The story between me and Cao Xuanbin
Author: Rain Echo Returns home 086
The background of life is lonely, and I have known for a long time.
What is the meaning of life, I have long wondered.
Therefore, once upon a time, I was not a person who was easy to be happy.
My emotions are like seesaws, always oscillating between despair and hope.
There is a saying in Maupassant's "Life": "Sometimes, I may be so fragile that I cry with a single sentence, and sometimes I find myself gritting my teeth and walking a long way." This sentence could not be more appropriate to me.
Until one day, the fog gradually cleared, and the question I had been struggling with had a clear answer. And all this happened only because I met one person- Cao Xuanbin!
In February 2019, I accidentally saw the video of "Don't Sigh", and for a while, I was stunned!
It is not an exaggeration to say that this song is one of the important business cards of the "Classic Arias" program. To this day, there are still many people like me, through this song, to know and understand Cao Xuanbin. Since then, under his influence, his life has changed more or less.
"Amazing" is the most concise evaluation given by the media to "Don't Sigh". At that time, after listening to the song, several question marks instantly arose in my heart: Why is this song different from other ancient songs? How can a song be sung like this? Who is Cao Xuanbin?
In order to get the answer, the tentacles I searched for spread to the corners of the network, and the audio and video text was "exhausted".
I am glad to have met him in this life!
I regret that I met him too late!
And my understanding of him has a cobweb-like path map. But there is always no escape from the main line: his songs and his experiences. And the two, for him, are inseparable. When he writes songs, he writes about himself. When we listen to his songs, we listen to him tell his own story.
On May 25, Cao Xuanbin's new album title song "Instigation" was launched. When interacting with fans in QQ music, he said: Writing each song is "painful" because you have to constantly tap into your innermost attitude.
My understanding is that what he calls "pain" is not only about the technical aspects of writing songs, but also about the memories of the past.
"Unfortunately Not You", one of Cao Xuanbin's masterpieces. Countless lovers who have no part in this song have found resonance in this song. When the thoughts come, listen quietly to the song and silently shed tears. Like mussels, how much pain and grinding do you have to go through to give birth to beautiful pearls? How much effort and memories does this touching song carry?
"The Man Who Misses" was written by Cao Xuanbin for his deceased grandmother. I was deeply moved by this song. Looking through the past videos, I saw him cry several times because he missed his grandmother. Seeing him shed tears, my tears could not be stopped. My mother died suddenly many years ago, and my heart seemed to have left a big hole that could not be sewn. Su Shi said that without thinking, it is unforgettable. For me, I didn't dare to think about it, and when I thought about it, my heart ached! The same sad person who has lost his loved one, one sings, one listens, in this song, our emotions are figured out. The same is the end of the world, why should they have met!
"Lightly" was written by Cao Xuanbin for himself. I appreciate his honesty and authenticity, his courage to face himself, the courage to admit his vulnerability. After understanding the background of the creation of this song, I calmly dissected myself and soberly understood myself. At the same time, I realized: How many people are as fragile as I am, and at the same time strong? How many people, like me, are slowly reconciling with themselves and with the world? Momentary despair, not shameful, after standing up strongly, we are all giants!
"Instigation", Cao Xuanbin's latest work. Now he has experienced the ups and downs of life, ups and downs, and has become a transparent person. "No robbery, no controversy, no vanity, no tightness, no slackness, no living up to his heart", this is his attitude towards life, and it is also the realm that I vigorously pursue.
Cao Xuanbin once said: "All the emotions I want to express are sincere. All this must come from our purest, most persistent, and most simple hearts. ”
The reason why his songs are so touching is because he is a sincere, sincere, real person! It is a person who is incredibly soft and kind at heart! It is a person who is transcendent, calm, and peaceful after the light boat has passed through the ten thousand heavy mountains!
In fact, I appreciate a person because I have too much in common with him. The similarity of certain experiences, the convergence of character, character, and three views, seems to exist in a magical magnetic field. And this person, with us formed a dynamic coordinates. His thoughts grow and at the same time promote the growth of our minds.
Entering Cao Xuanbin's world, I often replace me with him in my imagination and try to think in his way of thinking.
Regarding loneliness, about the meaning of life, he said: Loneliness promotes thinking, thinking can make progress; continuous progress can live up to this life (to the effect).
So, I now have a newer and deeper understanding of these issues.
As I wrote in a recent Weibo: As Lu You wrote, the bridge outside the station is broken, and there is no owner in loneliness. There is no intention of bitterly fighting for spring, and Ren Qunfang is jealous. Flowers, blooming in the inaccessible, no one appreciates, seemingly lonely. But maybe she doesn't care, "The grass and trees have their own hearts, why ask the beauty to fold." She only cares about whether her heart is full or not, and only cares about whether her life is complete!
This is the story between me and Cao Xuanbin.
I think that in the journey of life, some people, once they meet, will take root in your heart and gradually grow into a tree, a lifetime, green branches swaying, green leaves to support.
Life is still very long, and the story is not yet finished.