Every city has countless people named Xiao Zhang, and every company must also have a person named Xiao Zhang, who works diligently and lives a stable and stable life, except for a person named Xiao Zhang who is hot searched for "handsome" because of the 1818 Golden Eye report, few people will notice Xiao Zhang.
The little Zhang we met on the subway, born in 1997, you may not know, but you will definitely find your familiar shadow in him.
Xiao Zhang said that he was a male classmate without a story, and yes, he did not have a story on his body.
So far, one of the most rebellious things he has done is to resign nakedly last year, abandon his state-owned enterprise work in his hometown and run to Hangzhou. Before that, his life was stuck in a safe acre and a third, and at a glance, there was no ABCDE option.
Compared with the recklessness, impulsiveness and enthusiasm of young people, Xiao Zhang has a composure, calmness and indifference beyond age, and "no anger, no entanglement, peace & love" is his philosophy of life. As we talked to him, trying to probe his bottom line, he was always unfazed, laughing out two gentle dimples:
"There's nothing you can do when you're angry."
Such a personality stems from Xiao Zhang's growing environment. When he was very young, because his parents went out to work, he became one of the majority of left-behind children, brought up by his grandmother. Grandma was an old man who believed in Buddhism, the heart field was not long with no nameless grass, the Jueyuan was often blooming like a flower, and the old man sincerely believed that if he repaired his state of mind, he could produce merit and wisdom. Under the influence of the old man, Xiao Zhang has developed a Buddhist personality since he was a child, and when things are not disputed, he will only silently recite "Mo Angry" in his heart when he encounters unfair treatment, and his heart is as clear and bright as a stream in the mountains.
But Xiao Zhang, who never panics, will also have times when he is not calm, such as being shot by the arrow of love Cupid.
After graduating from high school, when he worked part-time in a fast food restaurant, he met a girl who was completely different from him, that girl had a surging enthusiasm like the sea, the creek was always going to flow into the sea, and Xiao Zhang felt that they should be a natural pair.
Without confession, the two naturally came together, and separation is so natural, because the pursuit of inconsistency to go to different places to study.
Xiao Zhang's university is not famous, it is a vocational and technical college in a third-tier city, and he chose this school because his score can only go to this university. College is so ordinary that after graduation, he can enter the state-owned enterprise, and his parents will feel that grandma's usual recitation of the sutra plays a key role.
But Xiao Zhang still resigned, and one day he sat in the office, thinking of the word ordinary for no reason, and he felt that every pore of his heart exuded an ordinary atmosphere. Although Park Shu sang "ordinary is the only answer" in the song, for Xiao Zhang, who is in his early twenties, on that ordinary day, he felt that he was sentenced to life imprisonment by "ordinary" and "ordinary".
But obviously he had also wanted to travel the world and chop wood to feed the horses.
He couldn't just spend time in his hometown of Taizhou and the city where he was studying at the university, so he wanted to go to hangzhou, the provincial capital.
Hangzhou is the option that appears in his life, he does not know whether it is right or wrong to go to Hangzhou, but at least the young man has a choice.
Not long after working in a state-owned enterprise, he did not have much savings, and in order to save money, he rented a room and slept in the same bed with the same high school boy in Hangzhou. This old residential area with a history of more than 10 years has no elevator, narrow doorways, and barber shop fruit shop prices are below the average price in Hangzhou.
The original two rooms on the first floor were rented by the landlord into 8 intervals, each room was more than a dozen square meters, the wall sound insulation effect was extremely poor, the monthly rent was 2000, fortunately, there were people who shared the rent.
Graduated from ordinary colleges and universities, he also faced the dilemma of academic qualifications, and he was rejected at the first level of applying for a large factory. But he believed that he did not have enough effort to make it up, so he went to the outsourcing company of a large Internet factory and became an outsourced employee at the bottom of the Internet contempt chain, doing the most arduous chores in a start-up department.
As a thorough 007 social animal, it is normal for him to arrive home at 12 o'clock every day. He was more afraid of idleness than busyness. Even if it is so hard, the monthly salary deducts the cost of eating and wearing, and the sense of existence in those 985 and 211 colleagues is very weak, he does not have inferiority and no complaints, but feels that it is very fulfilling to learn new knowledge with the employees of the big factory every day.
Moreover, even if it is a regular employee of a large factory, it is common to leave work at 11 o'clock at night, and the company building at 10 o'clock at night is like a school, and the lights are bright, as if the evening self-study is still going on.
The only difference between him and a regular employee is that he has no overtime pay and no time off. It was already 2 a.m. after our interview, but the next morning he still had to go to work as usual.
Today is a little more advanced than yesterday, and that is his greatest joy. The daily Buddhist system belongs to the Buddhist system, and if he wants his strength to be seen, he knows that he still has to perform well and fight for it.
Usually when he arrives home on a small electric donkey, the supper stall at the entrance of the community also begins the day's work, and in the winter he will buy some hot barbecue and eat it on the side of the road, because going back to eat will affect the rest of the roommate.
If 007 had the biggest impact on his life, it was that he didn't have time to fall in love.
In the neighborhood where he lived, he could see adult product stores almost every few steps in the corner. At the end of work last night, the aunt and uncle who walked in front of him openly chased and flirted outside the fruit shop, and even middle-aged people emitted the sour smell of love.
But he wasn't envious, because a slow, long crush was growing in his heart.
The day we met him, it was the only rest since he worked, he took the fruit for 20 subway stops to give to a girl he liked, obviously it was more convenient to order a takeaway for the girl, he felt that the gift should be given with both hands to have sincerity.
By the way, among the gifts he gave to the girls were the small badges he got at work, which he thought were worth few dollars were of great significance.
Later, a friend said to him, maybe it would be better if you send the lipstick that the girl likes directly.
He felt that it was still a badge, and he gave what he thought was meaningful to others before he called it a heart.
Both are tacitly aware of their mutual liking, and seem to have reached a tacit understanding that now is not the best time to fall in love. Xiao Zhang wants to give girls a better life, but he can't do it at the moment.
There are many things that Xiao Zhang can't do, such as renting a bigger house and taking the kitten called "don't know" in the family to live with.
For example, I don't want to be an instigator in love, and I don't dare to pluck up the courage to confess to the girl after 4 months of acquaintance.
For example, to prove to my parents, a person can live well in Hangzhou.
For example, buy your own house in Hangzhou.
For example, it can not be so hard, and the salary is a little higher.
Something that can't be done now, but it can be done in the future.
Xiao Zhang, Xiao Zhang, did not panic at all.
Xiao Zhang believes that life is an incremental function and has been climbing up.
There are many such small Zhangs around me.
Never talked about an unforgettable relationship.
I didn't get into the university of my choice.
Got a job that wasn't interesting.
I worked late every day, but I didn't dare to complain for fear of losing my job.
Like a person, do not dare to confess, afraid that friends can not do it.
The great rivers and mountains in the poem, the affair, and the knights and princesses in the story have nothing to do with themselves.
When I put away my daydreams, I found that you and I were just ordinary people, and our abilities were neither cattle to be looked up to, nor weak enough that everyone could surpass them. Only the small ambitions that are not willing to accept the status quo, want to prove that they are different from others, and self-spur in ordinary life, again and again.
We may use all our strength, and we will finish an ordinary life. But after exploring other possibilities in life, I can tell myself that I have tried.
By your side,
Is there such a small Zhang?
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There is such a group of trendsetters of the times, judging the situation to conform to the new opportunities for the development of Hangzhou, and coming here with dreams and ambitions. After work, the last subway will take them back to the 10 square meters of living space, or eat a supper prepared by the shared partner, or drink a beer in the refrigerator to eliminate the fatigue of the day....... In any case, they take the initiative to control life, with a beautiful imagination of the future, seeking a decent and stable.
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Producer / Xu Gang
Editorial Director / Tan Jiaying Guo Sijie
Editor-in-Charge / Caili Lin
Graphic Photography / Chen Jingdong
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Design / Drink sheep soup Winnie
Director / Wang Danyu
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Editing / Wang Danyu Lin Yiyuan
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