What kind of world will there be south of the border? What kind of life exists west of the sun?
There was a farmer who lived in the Siberian wilderness, who worked in the field day after day and looked up and saw nothing.
There is only the north horizon to the north, the west horizon to the west, the eastern horizon to the east, the southern horizon to the south, and nothing else.
Every day when the sun rises over the eastern horizon, the farmer goes to work in the fields; when the sun is overhead, the farmer finishes his work and eats lunch; when the sun sets on the western horizon, the farmer goes home to sleep.
The sun rises from the eastern horizon and crosses the horizon from high above to the west—and every day in such a cycle of time, something suddenly clucks to death on the farmer's body. So the farmer threw down his hoe and ran west without thinking about anything, west of the sun, and walked like a demon for several days without eating or drinking, until finally the farmer fell to the ground and died.
At the age of thirty-seven, he was a man with a successful career, he was the owner of two jazz bars, he had a perfect family, a gentle wife, a lovely daughter, and in the eyes of outsiders, he was undoubtedly successful. Chu, on the other hand, has been living in a journey of meaninglessness and chasing meaning, and this sense of emptiness from the inside out makes Chu feel confused, and he is extremely lacking in existence, and it is difficult to find refuge in the materialistic city.
At first, it was impossible to find the salvation of the inner sense of lack, which was not compensated by the material abundance, but became more and more empty. He didn't know if he loved his gentle wife or if he had a relationship that had disappeared. Time was spent in this tedious life until the advent of the main island.
When I was young as an only child, at that time, the general family was mostly two to three children in the case of out of place, in the quiet and plain suburban environment, this special identity was infinite methods, at first also because of the rejection of everyone and became inferior and lonely, in the early young heart planted the "incomplete" brand, until the sixth grade of primary school at the beginning of the encounter with the same only son of the island, the two have a lot in common with each other, which makes them quickly become good friends without talking, The temperament of the island, which is like a mountain stream and a clear spring, unconsciously makes the first fall. The appearance of The Island not only saved Hatsuki's loneliness, but more importantly, it found a kind of spiritual resonance in Hatsumoto Island.
With the passage of time, the two people were gradually estranged from each other at the beginning of the time and hongjima, and finally tacitly agreed not to meet and contact each other. The departure of the main island not only makes Hatsu lose the confidant of his youth, but more importantly, the delicate connection between the two that was cherished at the beginning has also dissipated. For the beginning of adolescence, it was a very big blow, and the heart of the entire beginning of adolescence was full of confusion and pain.
At the beginning of high school, I gradually came out of the shadow of my youth and met my girlfriend Izumi, without Izumi's company, my life would inevitably go to loneliness, but even so, Izumi still felt that inexplicable sense of lack in the process of interacting with Izumi, and Izumi could not find what Izumi held for herself, so the longer Imi interacted with Izumi, the more lonely Izumi became. So Chu chose to betray this relationship, but this betrayal seriously hurt Quan and destroyed himself. In reality, Izumi did not enter the university that matched his due level, entered an unknown women's university, and even saw Izumi again many years later------, a single woman with an empty look and a strange temper, and the children were afraid of her. This recurring feeling of remorse accompanied Chu's life, and even Chu developed a strong sense of disgust for himself.
In the days that followed, he never had the courage to start over, he never had soul communication with anyone else, and those lonely and bitter days were like the whole person being frozen, lifeless, deeply curled up in his own world. Later, chu met his current wife, Yukiko, this gentle and weak girl made Hatsu na's soul breathless, but Chu still couldn't find a way to make up for the lack of his soul, and Chu's idealistic personality made his spiritual world drift.
At first, I always felt that Shimamoto was where all the dreams and hopes of his past life were. On a dull afternoon, Shimamoto appeared at Hatsuki's bar, first ecstatic, and even once thought that Shimamoto was his only spiritual home, he chose to betray his wife and family, but At first he never fully understood Shimamoto, this girl who had hidden heavy hearts since she was young, what happened to her over the years, but Shimamoto disappeared after one night with Hatsune Hakagena, and there was no more news, for Hatsuki, this was the second harm that Shimamoto brought to him, which meant that all of Hatsuki's spiritual salvation was shattered.
Gentle Yukiko This is a powerful force that emerges, just like the tenderness she brought to Hatsu when she first interacted, she told Hatsu that she did not blame him, who likes who is not her own thing, but just sad, originally Yukiko has made an imagination, imagining that this kind of thing is afraid to be sad, but this is far beyond imagination. But Yukiko still loves Hatsu, and because Yukiko has ushered in a turning point in the soul from nothingness to reality, and then the mirror image of "south of the border, west of the sun" that Chu has been pursuing before, on the way to the previous life, Hatsu always feels that he will become someone else, and it seems that he always wants to go to a new place, start a new life, and get a new personality there. At the end of the day of discovery is the end, the process of searching is also the process of disappearing, after the first to bear the erosion of the heart, the first brave, he began to face his own vulnerability.
In the darkness, the rain that fell on the surface of the sea was first thought of—the rain that fell silently and without anyone knowing about the vast sea. The rain struck the surface of the sea quietly, and the fish were not even aware.
Hatsu had been thinking about such a sea until Yukiko came and gently placed her hand on his back.