"My Second Student": Listen to the heartbeat of youth

In "My Second Student", the most valuable thing about the yellow light is her posture, as evidenced by her self-statement. After reading the student's work "Wind", Huang Lantern wrote the following words: "Its frank words quietly illuminate the corners of my heart that I have ignored, disintegrate the prejudices in my heart, and through each other's sincere encounters, little by little, unload the void that I have long accumulated, let the posture of life squat little by little, and find inner fullness in the specific contemplation of life." ”

Reviewing students' compositions is not only the completion of teaching tasks for the yellow light, but also the touch of the heart and the adjustment of the direction of life. The presence of life and the absence of spirit are the fundamental reasons why this book is thick and profound. In the face of life and spirit, the importance of professionalism should take a back seat.

Su Ting, who is full of assertiveness and is not locked up in marriage and house, Huang Wanqiu, who knows exams and interview routines well, and Zi Ran, who has a particularly strong need for independent space and spirit... All provide the yellow light with the opportunity to look at the current youth and pay attention to the current era. The complexity of the classroom and the diversity of students' situations pull the heart of the yellow light. Only half a year after graduation, the young Zhu Jieyun left the world due to a brain tumor, "her classwork has always been placed in my most important and precious corner." Reading this, I instantly wet my eyes with tears, for the sorrow of life that suddenly stopped, for the simplicity and purity of teacher's love.

In the vast sea of people, they are all one of the most ordinary sentient beings. However, in the world of yellow lights, each of them is unique. Yellow Lantern said: "I have the privilege of witnessing a life, witnessing a heart, once silently and unreservedly presented in front of my eyes, which belongs to the steadfastness and luck of a teacher." ”

In the daily education practice, Yellow Lantern takes the initiative to expand the "second classroom" outside the classroom. Sometimes, in the ancestral hall of the student's hometown, listening to several elderly people tell about the past is a good opportunity for teachers and students to listen to the echoes of history together. At this moment, it is not only the students who are listening attentively, but also the yellow light himself. I realized more clearly that the happiness of a teacher lies in witnessing the diversity of the river of life and being a faithful listener, observer, and recorder.

The yellow light meets the right and timely youth. It is not thin, it is thick; it is not one-of-a-kind, it is pluralistic; it is not monotonous, it is rich. She said: "This light worries me and fascinates me. "Using the level of teacher morality or professionalism to circle the yellow light is a narrow move, and the generation of concern and fascination must come from the resonance between teachers and students."

Of course, the light is not all dazzling, youth can not always shine, there are dark and bitter moments. Alternating between different jobs, between settling down and renting, and hovering between Guangzhou and home, the uncertainty of young life is confirmed again and again. It is precisely these students who are struggling and floating at the bottom of the city who are always implicated in the heart of the yellow light. In the display of the growth resume, the plain narrative is often more thoughtful than the heart. Many times, the yellow light has already unconsciously shed the identity of the division commander and replaced it with the role of a companion.

Finding the breath of life in the students' programmatic and coping homework, understanding the students' social cognition and self-cognition through the final exam essay propositions, listening to the students' stories about their youthful past that were wrapped up in the changes of the times, voluntarily becoming the "mentors" of more than fifty students without the pursuit of interests, visiting the students' hometowns and finding clues to growth from them are all inevitable actions of their peers. These habitual things, in the eyes of the yellow light, become unusual because they pin the temperature of life. In the eyes of others, it is the triviality of work that is gradually numbing and tired, but here she can see the ordinary, the extraordinary and extraordinary in the ordinary, which is worth her scrutiny and deep consideration.

In the individual's narrative, it is not difficult to glimpse some silhouettes in the development of the country, social changes, and changes of the times. Post-70s students such as Huang Lantern and her classmates who also graduated from local undergraduate colleges and universities mostly choose stable units within the system for employment. Many of the post-90s students she taught tended to start their own businesses. The choice of employment is closely related to the family environment, the regional environment, and the environment of the times. Returning to the family from the individual, from this generation to the fathers and grandparents, accompanied by cold and profound thinking, is another side of the warm record of life. It gives sociological value to the writing of the yellow light. The examination of history, the feeling of reform, and the understanding of the situation of the elders all point to a vast space outside the individual.

The significance of the writing of this book is also to broaden the dimension of writing. These words, which in the author's view are only "teaching notes", are undoubtedly unique and important life fields. Youth is its background color, and the future is its direction. There are rich spiritual dimensions, a strong sense of life, and a strong sense of growth and sadness in the notes, and the concentrated presentation of these elements is the reason for the unique charm of the whole book. (Zhang Jiahong)