Yi Ming's emotional story

The protagonist of the story is surnamed Zhang. Zhang Yiming likes Eason Chan. From his "Long Time Gone", to "Under Mt. Fuji", to "Naked", she couldn't put it down. She said that it was probably the unspeakable pain in his song that sang her heart, so she liked him. She is not an idol, just Eason Chan. She could like him until she was old. Because Eason Chan's English name is Eason, her name is Yiming. Yiming was my childhood, and I wrote the story that happened to her. I try to be honest and not add to personal feelings. The process may make you cry, but believe me, the ending is happy. I met Ichimei when I was very young, seven years old, and went to preschool. The impression is not very clear, only remember that she is a very lively girl, very domineering, will bully people. We weren't good friends back then because I had always been the one she bullied. But it's good to be nice once in a while. In the morning I would go to her house and go to school with her. Her grandmother always shouted kindly: "The dwarf sheep are coming!" My name is Gao Yang, but I'm short, so I got such a nickname from the old man. Speaking of Yiming's grandmother, that's not her real grandmother. Her own grandmother died very early, leaving behind four teeth-and-teeth children. Her current grandmother is married, but she doesn't have children of her own, so she brought up four children with a handful of and a handful of urine. Then there was Ichimei and her brother, her grandmother coaxing her granddaughter and grandson. To this day, I vividly remember that although there was only one wall away from my house, every time I went to school with her, or came home from school together, I always came in and out of her grandmother's house. At that time, I didn't know if it was her grandmother. In fifth grade, we parted ways. Because we didn't go to school together, I went to the township and she went to the outer county. Occasionally, we would play together during the summer and winter breaks, but the time spent together was always short. Later, everything about her was heard. At the 2008 Beijing Olympics, China's electricity was delivered from west to east. So since the spring of 2005, there has been a group of Sichuan people engaged in power construction (that is, building a very high shelf on the mountain to transport electricity), and the love of Yiming in that year sprouted. She was 15 years old. During the summer vacation, she met a Yi boy from Aqi, Sichuan, in her hometown. At first, I just saw him coming in and out of the neighbor's house and didn't talk much. But at that time, she thought the tall Sichuan boy was handsome. She had never seen an 18-year-old so mature, not even a small foreman. In October, the Sichuan boy went to a construction site in Shanxi. I don't know where to find Ichiman's phone number, so I call her occasionally. Maybe Yiming's first impression of him was good, so she promised to be with him in October 2006. Later, Yiming told me that perhaps because her parents had ignored her for so many years, she was particularly afraid of autumn sadness and felt that her Sichuan boy was as warm as the sun. So she threw herself into the return of the sun and began a long-distance relationship with him. In 2007, after many twists and turns, the Sichuan boy came to a construction site not far from Yiming's home, ended two people who had been in a long-distance relationship for more than a year, and finally met as a boyfriend and girlfriend in April 2007. At this time, her mother found a ming's mobile phone, saw a text message from two people, and began to block this immature love. First love is always simple and serious. Despite her mother's objections, she watched her every day and even beat her. In the fall of 2007, she and her boy went to Sichuan. Not without hesitation, she just finished the middle school entrance examination, and wrote her fate on the thin report card: if she was admitted to the county one middle school, she would stay, and if she couldn't pass the examination, she would go with him. We all know the outcome. That's what she told me later, and here's what I heard. She has always been the darling of her grandparents and is their pride. After she left, Grandpa, who used to look up and sing at any job, stopped singing and walked past the neighbor's house every day with his head down. Grandma, who used to speak loudly, was no longer willing to talk. Even the village's liveliest annual singing (in my hometown, a superstitious way of asking for rain, invites a troupe to sing in the village for about seven days every summer. At this time, itinerant merchants from all over the country will come to do business, they will eat and drink, and everything on the street will not come out. When they came out, they didn't greet people as loudly as they used to. They always kept their heads down and looked listless. Their neighbor said: The old couple looks like this, and everyone is distressed. I don't know if the Sichuan boy was bad for her or homesick. Just like when she left, she returned in the winter of 2007. In her own words: it's like fate. After returning home for the Chinese New Year, her parents contacted her at a middle school, and after six months of study, she took the middle school entrance examination. The first year was 7 points apart and the second year was 8 points. Mom still let her go to the county one middle school - ten thousand yuan self-help fee. She studied hard in One. In her first midterm exam, she took the 21st place in her class. She and her grandfather promised that she would finish in the top ten on her final exams. We met a few times in the first year of the year—at the time, I was her freshman sister. Once, when we were friends as children, she scolded one and played with another. Scolding words are the words we scolded each other when we were children. I listened and thought, how come she hasn't changed for so many years? If it's obviously ugly, coming out of her mouth, why is it as simple as when we were younger, without any impurities? That's what I thought. I don't know why, but I know I can't swear at those words. She studied hard, and she promised Grandpa to take the top ten exams. A month before the final exam, Mom told her that her dad was with another woman and took her away. She called her father, but he didn't come back. Later, he came back and divorced her mother. He told them he had found true love. So her mom and her dad divorced. At this time, a friend of a Sichuan boy called Yiming and said that the boy had hooked up with someone else in Sichuan. She called him, and he denied it, but of course she knew it was true, so she hung up the phone and never contacted him again. That month, she slept and cried because she felt that the two most important men in her life did not love her at the same time. A month later, the final exam, the class was ninth to last. In early 2009, on the eve of her birthday, the Sichuan boy came back to apologize to her, saying she still wanted to be with her. She disagreed. The boy committed suicide by cutting his wrists, and blood spilled on the ground. Later, he stabbed himself in the thigh with a knife, and blood flowed down his pants. Later he and another boy who chased her got into a group, fifty or sixty people fighting together... She told the Sichuan boy that she would not accept him again and let him go home. Finally, he let her go. Six months after breaking up with the Sichuan boy, she began her second love in her life - this time, her boyfriend was a boy who had a fight with a Sichuan boy, just call him Nan. Because like a compass, he accompanied her and led her out of the saddest period. Nan chased her for two years, and of the four or five boys who chased him at the time, she was the best for her. At that time, her idea was: it is too difficult for one person, just find someone to accompany her... This time, it would be two years before he went to jail. He was imprisoned for stealing a car. At that time, he knew a lot of people in society. He locked the car with them. After driving, he drove to play. When he ran out of oil, he threw it on the side of the road and opened the next one. He locked six or seven cars until he was caught by the police. Probably carrying the black cauldron for someone else, he took all the responsibility and was sentenced to eleven years, right away. This happened two weeks after the gaokao. The man who had accompanied her out of the abyss had pushed her into the abyss again. Nan suddenly disappeared completely from her life, and she began her days of despair again, every day and night, washing her face with tears. She could hide and cry during the day and cry in the cowshed when she had nowhere to hide at night. The cry woke Grandma up, and Grandma went to the cowshed to find her and cry with her. Grandma said: I coaxed you from childhood to adulthood, and I didn't want to see you like this... Finally, college was open, and she could cry at school without fear. She missed him and visited him in prison every month. At that time, grandpa gave her 1200 yuan a month for living expenses, and she spent 1000 yuan on him: visited him once, the round-trip fare was 260 yuan, 500 yuan was saved for him, 100 yuan was bought for him, and the remaining 140 yuan was used for dinner. Both people paid for the meal, but neither of them ate, just kept inquiring about each other's situation. From the time I went in and saw him, I cried until I got back to the school bus, until I got back to my dorm at 9 p.m., and I cried until I went to sleep with the lights out in my dorm. Every time, every day. Sometimes, when the money wasn't enough, she would ask her mother for some. Her mother always said she was spending too much money, but she didn't know that Yiming really saved money— there were only two places in the school: smoking and eating. I can't quit smoking for so many years, and I try to be frugal when I eat. Only when you can't stand it, you will ask your mother for money. On the lonely and desperate night that Nan left, the most he did besides crying was to call. Noo is South's best friend. They were good buddies at school and had a good relationship after school, so Noo was very clear about everything about Nam. When she missed Nan, she called and listened to him say everything about Nan. As she listened, she felt much better, and felt as if Nan was still there. On those lonely and helpless nights, she called Ino countless times. Like a life-saving straw for her, she clung to it in order to ease her longing for Nan. It was a boy as kind as water, and he would get bored, but he couldn't bear to refuse. Every time she cried on the other end of the phone, it would make him inexplicably hurt. He tried his best to reassure her. Even if she was woken up by the phone in the middle of the night, she would suppress her anger, listen quietly to her, and then respond to her gently. Two years have passed. People will get used to it. Gradually, Yi Ming got used to Ino's company. She trusted him and depended on him. Although the two were separated, for two years, he accompanied her out of this abyss again, just like Nan, who had always been by her side. At the initiative, they carried Nan's thoughts and guilt together. In fact, Yiming has always believed that she can wait for the arrival of the South, but with the sleepless night, with the mood of more and more despair, with the promises made to her again and again, with the little warmth he gave her... Her heart unconsciously became dependent on a commitment. Ino didn't want to fight south, but she couldn't help but be nice to her. Gradually, the two hearts got closer and closer. Coupled with her family's opposition to Nan, she eventually succumbed to fate and her own heart and chose to stay. But being with her didn't stop her from insisting on going to jail to see Nan. Then go see him and wish him well. She appreciated his kindness to her, but she had no other thoughts. So she saved money and went to prison to see him for five years. Even while caring for a grandma with a cerebral hemorrhage. She had just graduated from college for a week and was looking for a job in the city when suddenly her grandmother had a cerebral hemorrhage. In desperation, she returned to her hometown and waited for her grandmother in the hospital. That month, she slept on the floor every day and got up several times at night to turn over for grandma. She thought: I will make Grandma better no matter what. The first time she bought a incense rack to burn incense for her grandmother. She begged all the gods to wake her up. As long as she can wake up, she can do whatever she wants. She didn't know if it would work, but she had watched her grandmother pray like that since she was a child. She wanted to try everything she could think of. Maybe it was Grandma's determination, or maybe it was her sincerity that touched the sky. Grandma was in a coma for 8 days and finally woke up. Although she was hemiplegic, she at least survived! In this way, she did not return to the city to find a job, but chose to return to her rural hometown to serve her hemiplegic grandmother. Life in my hometown is extremely difficult. In addition to taking care of the half-dead grandmother, she also had to learn to farm, pesticide, cut land, and learn to help grandpa manage dozens of cattle in the family. Although she grew up in the countryside, she was spoiled as a child and never suffered so much. People who haven't experienced it may not know that managing crops is an extremely hard job. Good farming. The autumn harvest came, and she was busy every day to go out early and return late. Her tired back hurt, her sciatic nerve hurt, her arms hurt, her hands hurt. She also needs to prepare her grandparents' meals on time every day. Those who do not have cattle and sheep at home can take a good rest after a busy autumn, because the winter in the north is too cold to farm anymore. However, if there are cows in the house, get up early every day, drive the cows outside the cowshed to feed the grass, and then clean up the cow dung in the cowshed. The droppings of dozens of cows may take a person to clean up for about three hours. Then spend two hours putting in the grass that will be fed to the cattle at night, mixing the feed to be fed to the cattle, and bundling the cattle one by one at night to feed with Grandpa... Can you imagine? A 24-year-old girl weighing 86 kilograms took on all the work at home. She didn't want her elderly grandfather to be too tired, so she worked as much as she could, and didn't make a sound when she was in pain. She was alone and took on a home. Life at home is lonely. To go up the mountain to work alone is not so much loneliness as it is to be afraid. Later, she had two dogs and became her best friend and comrade-in-arms in life. When she wasn't busy, they played with her. When she went to the mountains looking for cattle or work, they would accompany her so she wouldn't be so scared. Since Grandma got sick, my dad often came back from outside to help her and Grandpa, but he didn't stay home. My father's true love, Yiming's stepmother, divorced her in her fourth year with her father, leaving behind a son, who is also Yiming's second brother. Big Brother Yiming has been going to school outside, so I won't say more. The little brother, who was three years old when her mother left, was thrown to her grandparents. After Grandma fell ill, Yiming came back to take care of her grandparents and brother. Although she was a sister, she loved him like a mother, loved him, and gave him everything she could give. For three years, she took care of her grandparents at home, taking care of all the work of the family, large and small, and taking care of her brother's school life. For three years, she slowly stopped going to the South, because she felt that he was used to it, and no one was bullying him anymore. His days inside began to count down, hoping to get closer and closer to the south. Yi Ming knew she couldn't give him any hope. She could only stay away from him, which was really good for him. She and Ino had been absent for the past three years, and Ino would come back to see her when she had time. Her grievances, her hardships, her bad temper, were all thrown at Ino. This boy who was far away from her, like water, gave her inclusion and all the love. I thought, although I was bitter and tired, I was lucky to have people around me who loved her and people she loved. But fate was so helpless, she was scarred. At the age of 25, she once again suffered the most important change in her life - her father left her forever because of an accident! In YiMing's heart, she always blamed her father. She didn't want to talk to her father, and his father didn't want to take her anywhere. That afternoon, she was sleeping when someone called to say her dad had been touched by a tractor, so she asked a neighbor to take her on a motorcycle. As she walked, she saw her father lying on the ground, covered in blood. He didn't speak at all. Someone from the hospital came, did an electrocardiogram, and said her dad was dying. She didn't believe it. She asked them to take dad to the county seat. She felt he couldn't die. Everyone told her he was dead. She lay down, lay beside him, lay on the ground, holding her father, her heart aching as if it had been held tightly by a hand. Later, they dragged her home. She kept crying. She didn't know what else to do. As she gasped for breath, there was the taste of Daddy's blood in her mouth. She stayed up all night. The next morning, she went to the mountains to see her father. They say people who died outside can't go home because their grandparents are still there. Her father had been lying there all night, and when she went there, she lay in his father's arms, crying alone, and then it snowed, and it got bigger and bigger. It was October 9, 2015, and she thought it was all a dream, but she knew it would never wake up again. She regretted it, she hated herself, she wanted to say sorry to him, she wanted to trade her life for her father's life, but to no avail. Her family prostrated and asked for their help in burying her father. The ground was covered with snow and water, and her pants were kneeling, soaking wet. Go home, it's getting dark and Ino is back. He let her sleep, but she didn't dare close her eyes. Closing her eyes just like her father,she was heartbroken. Probably too tired, she finally fell asleep, and the next day, told her that she had been saying "no, no" all night, crying and saying again. During the day, villagers came to help and buried her father. When the coffin is closed, Ichimei knows that this is what is called "forever". Later she recalled to me that the day her father left, she didn't do a very good lunch. When she ate it, she was still thinking that next time she must fry it for a while. But it never occurred to her that it would be my father's last meal. Dad, who usually takes a nap, goes to work that day without sleeping. When she left the house, when her father closed the door, she glanced at him. This glimpse became the last side of her father's life. After Dad left, she really had no one to rely on, and Neither did Grandpa. She became the backbone of the family. She works more, smokes more cigarettes, and sleeps more. Luckily, she also had a commitment to accompany her from afar, and her family did their best to help her. It was as if life was the same as before, and only she herself knew that it was different: she had dared to ride the roller coaster before, and now she would be afraid even if she drove a small slope; she would not die again. When the pigs, cows, chickens, dogs, and cats in the house died, she would cry for a long time, deeply. She told me that her biggest regret was that she had a fight with her father and daughter, but she couldn't be a good daughter who loved him. She said that she most envied two kinds of people, one is a good father of her daughter and the other is a good daughter of a father. In 2017, Yiming was 27 years old. Grandpa said you should get married. Yi Ming also felt that she should get married. So I married her as soon as I said yes. After marriage, the feelings of the two people are the same as ever, and the lives of the two people are as good as ever. Yi Ming stayed at Ino's house for a few days, then returned to her grandfather's house to continue to take care of the family instead of going out to work with Ino. Many people said they envied her, and many people asked her if she would regret it. She always said no, she said: "People always have a lot of regrets when they are alive." Some regrets can be made up, they can be made up in the future, and some regrets are missed and never have another chance. I wanted to pick the one that was the biggest regret for me to finish it – I wanted to make my grandparents better. In this way, my heart can be at ease in the future, otherwise, I am afraid that I will not remember my grandparents in the future, and I do not want the fate of my life to disappear like this. Being born as a human being cannot stop at regrets. As a person can not stop apologizing. You never know which day is the end of your life, and you never know which one is the last time we'll meet. Therefore, I hope you can cherish what you have now and have fewer regrets in life.